Wat a boring saturday......went sim lim sq wif my sis to get some CD-R for dear to burn out his stuff.....if nt his com no more space le.....den went bugis walk walk ard .....bugis was hving renovations i think kind of diff liao.....still bery sianz......
reached home ard 4pm++......den tok to leo abt her prob......haiz......why being frds must be like dat de......when they are ok they r so close when they hv probs they backstab each other.....who ever it is....shldn't hv spam her hp ard too even though u hate her so much.....i kanna b4 by my ex bf i noe how she feel.....spam ard....create nonsense abt me....until i kept changing hp till i dare nt gib anyone i noe except those who r bery bery close to me de.....cos anyone can be the suspect who noes him n passed him my numbers......till nw cant find out who is dat culprit but 1 day if i noe who i will pay back double to him in return of wat he/she had done to me......who asked him/her helped such a bastard to ruin my life and made it upside down......made me so miserable for a period of time..........
the whole day was kind of moody......dun feel like doing anything.....at the same time feeling pain too.....like baby wanna drop out like dat......but maybe is i stand or walk too much ba.....
prep to go mw....reached there saw some frds....but surprised to see is ppl din see me ard n din even bothered to say hi too......feeling kind of angry too....cos feeling so transparent at dat moment.....these few days i feel weird abt them....they r like drawing themselves away frm mi n nick.....maybe we dun fit into their grps or wat.....i dunno laa.....yet i feel this is weird plus nonsense lor.....anyway too moody to bother abt this either.....pain at the same time too....hoping dear can finish his wrk fast n we can go home n rest.....the onli thing i feel like doing is to coma on bed.....nothing else is more impt than dat......imagine jus sitting on a chair i can feel so irritating.....hving a baby is torturing but no matter wat he/she is my baobei......the onli thing i fear most is there must nt be anything happened to him/her cos she/he is our baobei.....its my duty to bring his/her life to earth smoothly....
we went tiong bahru market to get dinner yet cant find anything to eat.....went to plaza....dear as usual wan to see his toys at the comics shop....i hv to bear wif the pain for a little while den.....went to the foodcourt got him herbal chicken soup and claypot porkribs rice for myself.....bought drinks frm NTUC cos cheaper ma.....den ride back home.....saw a lady cleaning up her car n another lady pulling a cute white dog....dunno wat breed laa.....think the dog threw up in the car....hee~~ so poor thing man hv to clean up.....reached home.....dear doing his stuff 1st....i ate my dinner n went coma le.....really cannot ta han le.....as he/she grow bigger i feel more uncomfortable liao.....hoping the day will come soon.....tok to dear abt army's prob.....but after the conversation of him n army....i was trying to tell him something end up he was happily replying someone in #biker channel abt caiz stuff....make mi even more dulan liao.....ppl at mw can make mi feel so transparent....even he also.....i went to bed n cry....after awhile he came n saw me crying yet i refused to tok to him....cos i feel so moody n in pain.....no matter hw uncomfortable i feel i dun wan him to worry abt me so much.....he woke me up to drink his herbal soup i refused...after awhile of persuasion i finally sat beside kanna force to drink at least 1/2 of his soup....he kept saying i shld take his herbal soup instead....
EEEeeeeeee dun wan keep drinking all these tonic...drink until i feel so sick nw.....after dat went back to coma le.....dear start playing his "xin shen diao xia lu" again....seeing him so bored....i rather he mix ard wif those bikers frds....at least he wont so bored at home esp tml n the next day are public holidays......haiz....nw is dunno frds drawing away frm him becos of my situation nw or he drawing himself away frm them so dat he can acc me more.....either way i feel he is being treated so unfairly.....haiz.....making me hving doubts if hving this little baobei is a good choice or a bad one......sobx~~