i was abt to slp le...kanna awaken by dear again....same old thing he complained hungry....no complains at all i got up changed n prep to go down....waited for him to decide to eat wat he din replied mi...i was kind of fed up....cos imagine i am expecting le....sick n tired too....u still dun understand yet wan mi go down fetch food for u nvm....i nv complain yet u can raise ur voice at me and say u cant think of wat to eat....
si bei dulanz n i couldn't wait any longer went off straight w/o hearing wat he wan to eat....anyway no intention to walk all the way to the next blk kopitiam to buy for him....jus went to the teow chew mui there packet some rice n some dishes for him dats all.....
came back placed the packet of food on the table den went straight back to slp....dear began to tok to mi in a softer tone....but this time dunno y i dun take it as a apology.....cos it sound so ridiculous to make mi go all the way down jus to get u food where i aint eating at all.....ignored him yet cried at 1 corner thinking why am i been treated this way....no one can understand hw i feel the whole day esp him....nv once i feel tired sick or fed up i show it in front of him....keep it all inside mi....swallow it but nv wan to make him worry....but doesnt mean at this point u can jus take it for granted as well....
i started to feel if u really love mi.... if u really care abt mi n our baby....did u ever ask if i am feeling 2day....hw was wrk? hw is everything?....most of the time in a day u wrk den come home face the com more than facing mi......i nv once complain....the onli time i feel u r there for mi is when u abt to slp....u would hug mi....but after awhile u will turn ur back against mi....making mi feel no better still i got no complain........i feeling stress, sick shag sian abt everything rite nw esp nw is exam period....things ard me seems nv go right.....but who was there for mi when i need someone .....no one but myself.....noeing ur wrk u also stress.....i nv will wan anyone esp u to worry abt mi.....yet bottled up everything in me makes mi even more worse than b4....i really dunno nw.....completely feeling depressed over everything ard me....no mood in anything except to get my sleep nw.....