Saturday, May 09, 2015
Yup I dun need!
“You don’t need anyone’s affection or approval in order to be good enough. When someone rejects or abandons or judges you, it isn’t actually about you. It’s about them and their own insecurities, limitations, and needs, and you don’t have to internalize that. You’re allowed to voice your thoughts and feelings. You’re allowed to assert your needs and take up space. And you’re allowed to remove anyone from your life who makes you feel otherwise.”
Monday, May 04, 2015
Monday, April 20, 2015
Sick liao
Had been coughing for so long. Had to choose other alternative to make myself get well. Hope Chinese medicine will work better than the other medicine I took. 
Sunday, April 19, 2015
I chose me
“Most of my life has been spent trying to shrink myself. Trying to become smaller. Quieter. Less sensitive. Less opinionated. Less needy. Because I didn’t want to be a burden. I didn’t want to be too much or push people away. I wanted people to like me. I wanted to be cared for and valued. I wanted to be wanted. So for years, I sacrificed myself for the sake of making other people happy. And for years, I suffered. But I’m tired of suffering, and I’m done shrinking. It’s not my job to change who I am in order to become someone else’s idea of a worthwhile human being. I am worthwhile. Not because other people think I am, but because I exist, and therefore I matter. My thoughts matter. My feelings matter. My voice matters. And with or without anyone’s permission or approval, I will continue to be who I am and speak my truth. Even if it makes people angry. Even if it makes them uncomfortable. Even if they choose to leave. I refuse to shrink. I choose to take up space. I choose honor my feelings. I choose to give myself permission to get my needs met. I choose me”
Remember....
Remember this because it will happen many times in your life. When people show you who they are the first time believe them. Not the 29th. time. When a man doesn’t call you back the first time, when you are mistreated the first time, when someone shows you lack of integrity or dishonesty the first time, know that this will be followed many many other times, that will some point in life come back to haunt or hurt you. Live your life in truth. Don’t pretend to be someone your not. You will survive anything if you live your life from the point of view of truth.
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
Agree....
“Sensitive people are the most genuine and honest people you will ever meet. There is nothing they won’t tell you about themselves if they trust your kindness. However, the moment you betray them, reject them or devalue them, they will end the friendship. They live with guilt and constant pain over unresolved situations and misunderstandings. They are tortured souls that are not able to live with hatred or being hated. This type of person needs the most love anyone can give them because their soul has been constantly bruised by others. However, despite the tragedy of what they have to go through in life, they remain the most compassionate people worth knowing and the ones that often become activists for the broken-hearted, forgotten and the misunderstood. They are angels with broken wings that only fly when loved.”
Saturday, April 11, 2015
好久没写了。。。该写些什么呢？
宝贝拜一第一天上学，还是一样。。。在路上笑着，一进学校就哭了要妈妈。真受不了他。。。第二天，我终于病倒了。起不了床去送他上学，他就陪着妈妈身边陪了三天。今天，我好不容易身体好了很多，要宝贝上学去，好让妈妈睡个好觉。当然去时，还是哭着要妈妈，但觉得他也慢慢长大了，也开始懂事了。只怕下个拜一，我跟他一起上学，一起上班，会是什么情况。真是伤脑经。。。
拜一我就要开工了，心里七上八下，也不知为什么，就是有点担心，有点兴奋，有点害怕，有点不知所措。因为换了新的工作环境和要面对新的同事，才这样吗？ 还是对于育儿教育的工作感到厌倦了，没有那么热诚，失去对于照顾和教育孩子的兴趣了吗？有点心灰意冷的感觉。
就因为以前不愉快的过去，而让我对自己失去信心了吗？就因为这样我就从此站不起来了吗？我看见熟悉的脸孔，从前常常看到的笑容，等待我的到来，我却还是犹豫不决。或许我怕再跌倒就爬不起来了。或许因为过去不愉快的事件发生让我失去信心。可是如果再继续那么想，我就会辜负很多一直在我身边支持我的朋友，同事，和家长。
我必须要坚强起来，给他们看我不是弱者。我从不屈服，也不会向他们低头。我会站起来，好好的从新开始，从头再来。
拜一我就要开工了，心里七上八下，也不知为什么，就是有点担心，有点兴奋，有点害怕，有点不知所措。因为换了新的工作环境和要面对新的同事，才这样吗？ 还是对于育儿教育的工作感到厌倦了，没有那么热诚，失去对于照顾和教育孩子的兴趣了吗？有点心灰意冷的感觉。
就因为以前不愉快的过去，而让我对自己失去信心了吗？就因为这样我就从此站不起来了吗？我看见熟悉的脸孔，从前常常看到的笑容，等待我的到来，我却还是犹豫不决。或许我怕再跌倒就爬不起来了。或许因为过去不愉快的事件发生让我失去信心。可是如果再继续那么想，我就会辜负很多一直在我身边支持我的朋友，同事，和家长。
我必须要坚强起来，给他们看我不是弱者。我从不屈服，也不会向他们低头。我会站起来，好好的从新开始，从头再来。
Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Today...
Had a good lunch chat with my friends and the kids had fun spending time together. Once a while I need to let myself go out and breathe some fresh air, refresh my brains, let my brains function properly.
I've learnt...
’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a living is not the same thing as making a life. I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did but people will never forget how you made them feel.
Monday, March 30, 2015
Sunday, March 29, 2015
When there is an ending, there will be a new beginning.
This goes out to all of the people who have been broken but have been strong enough to let go. For the people who have hurt so badly that they felt they could never love again, but kept their head up. For the people that wish loneliness wasn’t a part of them, but put up with it anyhow. For the people that are okay with taking up all of the room in the bed, even if sometimes it feels a little empty. For the people who wake up in the morning with no missed calls, but smile anyway. For the people that have wounds still healing. For the people that have so much tied to their past relationship, but break those chains to start fresh. For the people that want to look back so badly, but focus on the road ahead. For the people that pick up the phone so tempted to call, but keep their dignity intact instead. For the people that never wanted to let go, but had to. For the people that still believe in love even after all of the hurt their heart has endured. For all the people that gave up not because they were weak, but because most times it’s better just to let go. You will get your happy ending someday. Hang in there and don’t give up. Because all endings are also beginnings.
I have loved. I have lost. I have changed.
I have loved. I have lost and I have changed. It has been difficult but I have learned so much from it. I have learned that people can hurt you so deeply and not even worry about you. I learned that good people can change in a minute when their hearts have been broken. I’ve met great people, but mean people as well. But the most important thing I have learned is that every person in this world is strong enough to let go . People come and go and that’s life ! The most important thing is to stand up and realize that you deserve something better than a person that gives up on you.
Saturday, March 28, 2015
Friday, March 27, 2015
Thursday, March 26, 2015
Sick Sick Day
Both jie jie and myself were having bad diarrhoea issues. Haiz...could it be the food we ate yesterday? Sian sian sian ahhhh...
Early Morning Complaints...
Lying on the bed, tossing around. But slept or not, I also dunno. I woke up right before the alarm clock rang. Can feel my body is always so darm tired but can't give up. Next week will be a new challenge. Youngest baby going back to school, and I am going to face the same old nonsense from him again. Haiz...
A sleepless night again
Ever since things happened, I started to feel insecure and emotional. I can't make myself sleep at all especially these weeks, always had been a sleepless nites for me. I had to try very hard to make myself knockout to sleep. Sometimes, a few hours. Sometimes a few mins and I woke up again. My brains never seem to stop working since then. I felt so so tired, I couldn't even make myself sleep. Fed up...
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Can't stop crying...
Today considered my last day with them though I had left much earlier. I will never ever step into that place, even how much I miss "them", I had to stop thinking about "that" place as it has never ever once belonged to "us". But the sweet memories will always remain deep inside my heart... I miss you all so much... sobx...T.T
Monday, March 23, 2015
It is sad sad day
The whole FB wall are flooded with news about him, stories about him, pictures of him... making everyone in SG so emotional and sad. What a sad sad and emo day...
Sunday, March 22, 2015
I can't stand this anymore! ARGH...
DO NOT GIVE ME THE NONSENSE OF AM I CONTACTABLE OR NOT! One kind of nonsense I cannot tolerate at all. This is extremely stupid of someone who said this, so please use your brains before opening your mouth.
