Tuesday....yesterday bad mood..came home wif dear mood was ok le....dunno why see him i always feel much more comfortable ba....maybe he sayang me more than b4....makes me feel better everything i feel like venger out my anger on something....
today even worst....even more bad mood....wif a good mood i completed my "XIN YI TIAN TU LONG JI" le.....hiak hiak hiak....after dat something happened....me n my bro quarrelled n we both refused to gib in.....it wasnt my fault dat things happened this way....he still insist on dat....fine lor.....everytime he quarrel nv think 1st b4 action.....always after action den regret.....well this time round he really pissed me off liao....no more Mr Nice Guy to him anymore....sometimes i really feel hao xin no hao bao de....help him so much still kanna shoot by him.....wats the use being bro n sis afterall if u pushes everything to me when something happened den after dat come n sayang to apologise...kind of sick rite....arghhhhhhhhhh~~
anyway.....met dear at mw....as usual wif him ard i dun feel so pissed off anymore.....i dun wish to think abt it too....cos it nt onli affects my mood it affects my baby's too.....gg slp early cos tml got to reach home b4 7am....mummy need to see doc....haiz......nw is hw to wake my dear up for wrk when i nt ard....headache sia......-.-'''

Monday....Boring day....Bad Bad Mood.....Super Bad Mood....Dun feel dat good at all....Dun feel like doing anything.....see thing feel so gao wei.....jus wanna be left alone.....dunno why......dunno how i feel like dat too.....jus totally felt life suxs man....Ahhhhhhhhh....Am i hving mood swing or becos my old sickness is back made me unstable again......i felt like gg crazy soon everytime i think abt it.....getting sick of life.....getting sick of worrying abt things.....even hving tots abt hving "him or her"......shld i hv agreed to myself to carry this burden n add on to his burden.....i am gg crazy soon!!!! ahhhhhhh~~~~~

Sunday.....boring sunday cos never go anywhere....woke up dear wanna go jb which was ard 12pm++....well i dun mind jus dat....HIS MUM IS USING THE TOILET FOR WASHING CLOTHES.....hw to bath n go...-.-'''...somemore his place onli got 1 toilet to be shared by so mani adults...pengz!!
Den suddenly it rained when i jus stepped in the hse after buying lunch for him....bought nasi lemak n otah cos wat he wanted to eat the auntie stall nv opened today....lazy to walk ard too...jus buy wat i see lor...=x
Dinner was cooked by dear....he cooked jap curry...i jus helped him to prep the ingredients he needed.....quite a lot la he cooked cos i cut a lot of potatoes n carrots...but nvm i feel like eating veggies more than meat....dunno why.....=p ...even cant finish later he will wan to eat again cos rainy days he feel more hungry than b4...
Will be gg jb ard 1230am wif rattie ba.....let me nua awhile den see hw ba.....always feeling so tired, so sianz, so sick of everything.....dunno why n dun ask mi why too.....-.-'''

Saturday....nothing much....stayed at home whole day played "Xin Yi Tian tu Long Ji" cos saw dear played "Shen Diao" i also wan play chinese games le.....=x
kind of an addiction liao.....kekeke....cant stop myself frm playing it....sianz....still thinking wat to play after this...."Shen Diao"? "Feng Yun"?......wahahahahahaahahaha....
Wif a big tummy...sitting whole day facing the monitor seems so uncomfortable......I WAN GIB BIRTH NW!!!!!!!!!!! =x Si Bei Gao Wei ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~=x

Friday.....hmmm....woke up late lor....told u all....i dun slp at nite early hor....sure late de....ard 1045pm den wake up...quickly wake dear up n went to wash up and changed....waiting for dear to get rdy i felt a bit feverish....shit man! dun tell me gg to hv fever again ba.....sianz liao....
dear smiled at me in dat cheeky way saying " yest nv slp early rite?" den i replied all his fault wat....di siao siao di siao siao until i cant slp liao....when i coma cannot wake mi up de....if nt bery hard to go back to slp again....he smiled....pengz!!
went to his wrkplace took bus home....nt hungry but still need to eat ma.....so bought char siew rice....but no appetite....yet forced myself to eat becos of baby....dun wan baby to starve becos of me....surf net, chatted wif collin cos her dear nt in sg le....went taiwan battle war le....=x
chatted wif army too at the same time as well as rattie.....tok to 3 ppl at the same time....wah kok....very stress....lolx!!
supposed to hv lesson at 3pm....but my head was feverish le.....my whole body ache like siao.....i dun feel good at all.....collin also advised me to rest.....cancelled lesson den slp lor......maybe nt enuff slp yest ba.....=(
woke up ard 5pm.....a bit reluctant to wake up cos feeling so uncomfortable.....yet evening lesson cannot missed de.....lan lan drag myself to get rdy n leave the hse.....bought dear dear's "baobei" stuff.....went to the train....wah kok so mani ppl on board.....sianz 1/2....none of those ppl actually get up n give mi their seats....typical singaporeans.....bo pian stand all the way lor....is nt dat i cant ta han standing so long frm bedok to tiong bahru....nt like some passengers on board think they cannot ta han the standing laa...give them the seats as charity laa....=x
reached home went to ta bao dinner 1st den go for lesson...felt so sianz during the lesson...hw i wish its over soon.....reached home makan n waited for dear to come home lor....whole day like wanna die liao....kaoz!! I WAN GIB BIRTH NW!!!!!!!!! =p

Ahhhhh......woke up frm coma again........why? why? why?.....nt toothache....nt fever....nt sick....but toilet time laa.....yet cant slp.....cos kanna awaken by my dear again.....hate it man.....everytime at the right moment when i can continue to coma he di siao me until nw i cant coma liao.....pengz!!!!!
back to my bloggie....jus wrote some nonsense here n there....plus chatted wif my fav daughter zi zi.........=p
kind of miss her too....long time see my bao bei nu er le......long time no ktv le......i wan sing KTV~~~~~lalalalalalalalalala~~~=p
Opps! paiseh paiseh....kind of lost control liao......wahahahahahahaha.....i'll try to get some slp nw if nt cant wakie tml le.....ciao again.....

Thursday....nothing much again....as per normal jus dat 2day whole afternoon no lesson...quite bored n sianz cos nothing much to do....so slpt the whole afternoon....till ard 330pm den drag myself awake cos evening still got 1 lesson....sianz wan slp longer also cant.....okok i noe laa i like a piggy nw rite? =p
online awhile b4 i prep to go over to tiong bahru....chatted wif army abt buying helmet....intro her the new GPR helmet which i n dear both think it looks quite stylo but is up to her to decide wat she wans.....saw time was abt 5pm le....hurried to bath n get rdy to go off cos i still need to buy some stuff for cooking dinner tonite....walked ard NTUC den decided to cook something simple....rushed to the mrt station by 6.05pm....while on the way home army msg me saying she gg down to dear wrkplace get her helmet....too bad i hv to wrk if nt can meet her n shawn there....the train was quite fast due to ppl r gg home after wrk....within 20 mins reached tiong bahru le.....went straight to my student place cos no time to go back dear hse put my stuff le.....
after lesson...straight away start to cook le....soon i was done but dear wasnt home....perhaps he had customers to serve or bikes to fix ba.....gg to be home late again....so i ate 1st while waiting for him.....on the tv and watched that new drama acted by zoe tay....find her charactor in this story sibei ah lian but cute.....=p
dear reached home abt 9pm++....but din feel like eating yet....chatted wif him abt stuff today as usual as wat we always do everyday....hmmmm he did say mai smk hor....yet i saw a pack of cig on the table....haiz....a leopard can never change its spot.....he said onli bought 1/2 a pack shared wif ah cheng....ok laa got improvement....somemore he jus started quitting cannot expect him to quit right nw....as long as he try i will always support him....hopefully b4 baby is born he can quit...cos i dun wan him to smk when baby is ard too....
he finished his last stick n asked for more....haiz lan lan lor....went down get for him....got ice cream for myself too...hee hee hee~~me hungry piggy ma....=x
dear asked me is it for myself to eat or is baby request de? i wonder too cos when i see it i wan eat it....maybe is baby ba....lolz....
ok laa dats all for 2day....coma time....ciao....ZZZZZzzzzzzZZZZZ

Why am i nt sleeping at this time? This is something all of u might wonder....rite? 2.24am in the "early" morning this pregnant BIG TUMMY woman y dun slp....there is onli reason behind this....my tooth pain again laa~~ Ouch! Ouch! Ouch!~~Pain AhhhhhHHHHhhhhh.....
Cant slp at all....bo pian wake up n try to do something abt my toothache....but the pain is off n on de.....sianz man....i hate gg to the dentist esp cos they seems so scary to me.....they can pluck out all ur teeth.....EEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEE.....i dun wan laa!!!!!~~i dun wan to be toothless yet the pain is unbearable.....buai ta han liao.....feel like biting something......ahhhhhhh......maybe bite my dear's arm or neck lor....hee hee hee~~~=x
I evil rite? wahahahahahahaha....joking laa.....maybe jus wait till its nt bery pain den try to slp ba.....tml day time also no lesson i dun need to worry much either.....jus scare i cant wake up in time to wake dear dear up for work cos if i slp late i sure wake up late de.....esp nw i expecting always tired.....see bed coma liao....=x
Ahhhhhhhhhh~~ pain again....someone help mi plssssssssss......cure this painful tooth of mine.....let me slp in peace~~~sobx sobx~~

How true is this?....Find out urself den....=x

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Wednesday.....woke up kind of late 2day cos of the weather bery nice to slp wor....cold cold de....nothing much lor usual stuff....wake dear up for wrk....den wait for him to get ready n go wrk...den he said he hungry so i went down to buy him breakfast ....as well as cig....abt to help him take out bike cover he came down liao....den passed him the cig he stared at me n said i din say i wan buy cig....i wan quit smking....wooooooo~~ surprised wor....will he meh? i was thinking den he looked at me as if i dun believe n looked very serious but yet still got the pack of cig frm me cos he said buy liao den nvm laa...pengz!!! he dun wan i can sell it back to my frd de ma...but hor felt happy he actually wanted to quit even though everytime he say he din do it laa....hopefully he did it this time ba.....hope so ba.....=p
1 lesson in the afternoon....came back went gai gai at pasar malam....den went to NTUC to buy some veggie for cooking soup n the chicken wings powder to fry the wings for him....hopefully he wans to eat at hm 2nite or else tml den cook lor....getting rdy to go over mw to meet him there...wonder wat the rest of u r doing lately.....=p
saw my pics all gone le rite? cos i changed them to my "Tatty Bears" collection....see carefully hor it seems like me n dear dear love story bo except the part abt hving baby....=p

Hiak Hiak Hiak.....jus woke up frm coma since 12am++ jus nw......toilet time den buai koon liao....=p
start peeking into ppl's bloggies le.....glad to see miko n alex r doing better nw.....nice car show pics .....rat oh rat....wat happen to u? why like me liao pain here n there man?.....=x
playgirl ah playgirl....where are you? mummy misses u liao....sobx sobx~~I wan KTV~~~......=x
hmmmm......jus come in n tok nonsense here laa.....kekeke....not much pain but still on n off there....at least better than yest....dear's injuries r recovering fast....glad to see him still ok till nw....lets see he still wan be cub kia wheelie king mai....-.-'''
BTW my tummy is really getting BIGGER n BIGGER n BIGGER!!!!......Aliens invasion!!!!.....=p
i'm toking craps again....lolx.....but after i gave birth liao will i slim down again like last time.....sobx sobx~~ HUH!! its all dear dear's fault....1 time miss-cue made mi into a monster nw.....sobx sobx~~ AHHHHHHHHH........ see see see told u ppl i jus woke up wrote my bloggie all nonsense de......lolx.....=p
Gg back to orh orh liao if nt kanna scold by u all.....pregnant woman so late mai slp rite? =x
Nitez....back to coma.....ZZZZZzzzzzzzZZZZZZzzzz...........

Tuesday....woke up quite early but wif pain....nt as painful as last night le....but still on n off....dear also woke up early after i went down to buy breakfast for him....1st time wor 9am woke up le wor....still nt feeling ok so went to lie down awhile more till he gets ready to go wrk....hee~~ by 10am he is ready le...nt bad....aiya yest slpt so early of course can wake up laa...pengz!!!!
b4 gg out he asked mi to try the free castrol t-shirt....kaoz since when i promote all these products liao wear castrol wear motul tee.....pengz!!...my fav is still my beckham castrol tee.....rat said look so hip hop....lolz..
1 lesson today finished le reached home rest awhile den prep to go over mw meet dear le as well as write my bloggie for 2day....my dl for the movie "Ellla Enchanted" was done....hiak hiak later can watch le....=x
dats all ba....nothing much liao jus pain here n there....on n off lor......but i realised my tummy actually getting BIGGER.....wah kok...pengz!!!
cant wait till 2 dec when dear acc me go KK to scan ....see if his guess is wrong bo....is wish is to hv a boy but twins also good.....kaoz!!! tink i pig meh......pengz!!! -.-'''

Monday....supposed to go KK hospital for my check up.....surprisingly woke up by alarm ard 930am when i set 9am....my hp alarm was off....dunno which cb kia touched my hp n switched it off....WTF man......i quickly bathed 1st den hurried asked dear to wake up....cos he was supposed to send mi there.....ended up he slpt n slpt everytime i shake him up.....he dozed off again.....jus becos the previous nite he was hungry n palmer n angel jio us out for supper.....i was awaken by him to go bencoolen meet them cos nearer to our hse....yet angel took bery long to prep....and we n palmer were waiting like there is no news whether supper is on or off......angel told us to go 1st....and we met palmer at bencoolen prata shop ard 4am++.....fuk man....tml morning got appt my dear still wan go out.....i cried he asked why....i refused to say.....but noe-ing he was hungry....no choice to acc him go den.....who asked me love him so much......-.-''''
we reached home ard 6am++ ....i coma straight away soon after dat dear also......cos he was tired after the cub kia race yesterday .....
jus as i was toking abt waking him up....he kept dozing off n continued to slp....i got a bit fed up....dun tell me i hv to go alone again.....everytime doc appt i was alone.....see-ing ppl wif their hubbies n yet i was always alone for check up.....dear wont understand hw i feel esp when he said to palmer he will send me to check up at KK....i felt so happy.....even once is enuff cos if we go we will be doing the scanning of our baby n we will noe the gender....kekeke....
but unfortunately dear was too tired....he couldnt wake up.....i was extremely disappointed too....yet i was oredi late for the appt....i decided nt to go instead cos actually it was quite ridicuous dat within a mth i need to see doc so mani times.....i was afraid my cash flow will go low if i see doc 2day.....somemore i jus seen the doc at the polyclinic regarding my blood test....spent $$ again......i decided to go after dear got his pay check would be better.....so i skipped 2day's appt.....u ppl dun scold me ah.....i am jus thinking wisely cos if nothing much happened to me no warning signs of i gg to gib birth means i am ok.....baby is ok too cos he is always kicking n moving.....no need to worry abt me.....pain jus slight pain laa it go off n on de....nothing bad if something serious happened dear will send mi to hospital immediately....anyway i oredi fixed a new appt nt bery far frm nw.....so its ok de ma......=x
dear woke up ard 2pm....cos his mum was nagging at him saying tot he gg to bring mi to hospital.....he panicked n saw mi remained bery quiet....he noes i was angry....kept sayang me lor...kept apologising abt 2day appt he had forgotten.....i did cried but when he hugged me so tight telling me he will bring me for the next appt after his pay check....i felt like melting in his arms oredi.....maybe i am too soft hearted towards him.....i cant bear to see him so ke lian.....loved him too much ba....-.-'''
woke up fixed a new appt ....his mum kpkb him for forgetting abt the appt tot he made excuses nt to vist his dad in hospital cos his dad hospitalised a few days ago....he found it no point gg down alone w/o his mum cos he and his dad nt really in good terms so dunno wat to tok when he sees him.....pengz!!! heard frm his mum his dad nt really good condition right nw....but if he insisted nt to go i cant force him either....i noe him too well.....-.-''''
got lesson in the evening.....so din really went to lie down n slp scared slp overshot die man.....cos its a replacement lesson for last week absent.....dear stayed at home waited for me to come home n acc him go buy fish for his "bao bei long".....we went clementi there to get his fishes as well as let him see see look look but no buy buy new "long".....ex investments hor.....he saw 1 bery small de but i told him mai.....cos his "baobei" also grown frm small till so big nw.....got another 1 he will hv to spend double time on these 2 fishes....to me he got 1 "bao bei" enuff le.......
-.-'''
on the way back we were riding home....dear hit this hump i nearly fly off....i landed back on the seats he realised wat happened n ride slowly......came home finished makan dinner....1st thing i realised was pain at the bottom....on n off.... and definitely i walked like a penguin nw.....but there is no otehr signs jus on n off pain.....maybe the part when i landed back on his seat the impact was a bit too hard.....but dun worry i'm ok jus need to lie down after this....when i finishes the blog of the day.....so dats all......stay tuned for more stories of my daily lives.....=x

Sunday.....kallang cub kia race.....woke up dear quite early ard 8am++.....but surprisingly he still nua-ing in bed......even though he slpt so early yest.....haiz......poor thing.....sunday can off de end up must wrk.....
i wasnt feeling quite ok these few days.....fearing something might happen.....but nvm cos tml gg KK n dear shld be acc me cos he got a off day for next week.....hee~~baby kicking alright....still a kung fu fighter as usual.....jus my pain here n there made me worried sometimes stand too long wil feel like baby wanna drop out le.....felt so scared......supposed to go n see the race 2day but after i woke up frm my nap.....feeling kind of seh seh de.....better dun too....cos there got nothing to sit n hv to stand whole day de.....
dear dear jus called up n asked if i am gg.....i told him nah~~ cos dun feel like to.....hearing his voice makes mi feel much better.....i guai guai stay at home wait for him lor......save the trip of travelling here n there too.....can nua more on bed.....=x
Gg KK tml but yet feel a bit scared.....hv to spend money again.....jus recently done the stupid blood test at polyclinic den collect result also must pay consultation fees.....tml gg see doc also must pay i think....sibei sianz.....keep thinking was it right for me to decide to hv this baby.....dear seems so excited n happy over it....yet i felt its like a burden to dear....regret dat i couldnt get a stable job b4 this happen....maybe things will end up better....i dun need to worry so much....i noe dear wouldnt wan to see me kept blaming myself abt this cos my health wasnt good at all time....felt so bad abt being so weak n being a extra burden to him.....esp nw still expecting....hving pain here n there....but i nv gave up my part time job as a tutor.....can earn how much i nv complain as long as i see dear happy face everyday is enuff....he noes i wrk bery hard too....i noe his wrk getting some probs on n off too....i din expect him much too jus hoping we as a family will wrk together ....no matter wat happen nothing gg to break us apart....hope everything will work out fine....

Another boring sat...after dear rushed to wrk which he shld supposed to reach at 9am, but he din as usual.....dilly dally man laa....i went home straight din feel like gg anywhere......stay at home the whole day doing some online surfing here n there....come across this new website....new to me laa but maybe u all hv been in there searching for ur long lost old frds ard ur area....yeah it is the "wholivesnearyou.com"....surprised to see some of my old frds as well as some bikers i noe frm singaporebikes.com....cos they stay ard my area nia ma.....=x
dl some movies frm net...esp the one i n dear wanna watch de....."The Incredibles"....i loved dat baby....he is extremely cute n adorable.....in this whole family....the rest of the charactors r cute too......burned a copy for dear to watch after his wrk...hee~~ hope he will enjoy it as much as i do cos i watched the 1st 1/2 of the film.....=x
went to take a nap ard 3pm++ cos feeling nt well again....maybe cant sit in front of the monitor too long ba....must rest more lor....cos go n slp lor.....woke up ard 6pm.....prep to go mw meet dear.....went to pasar malam near my hse at the interchange to buy some makan to eat wif our dinner......reached mw dear seems so free cos no bikes no customers too....hee~~ good good ....means can go home on time le.....cos i am starving wanna go home faster cook faster eat le.....=x
i ate 1st den dear also ate soon after dat.....we watched the movie "The Incredibles".....on n off i cant really sit on the chair to watch cos kind of feeling uncomfortable.....so on n off lie down on bed n get off when i feel better....dear enjoyed the movie as i expected cos this movie is damm cute n funny.....worth it to watch man....waiting for the movies to complete like the "White Chicks" & "Ella Enchanted".....we missed these 2 shows too but will catch wif more....anyway not much nice shows unless i can find "Yesterday Once More" & "Kung Fu Hustle"....cos these 2 got my fav actors n actoress inside....=x
dear dear chatted awhile online....i went to rest on bed as usual.....suddenly he was lying beside me.....guess he is tired too ba....so am i....i gg to orh orh le cos my dear oredi coma nw.....haha~~....so do all of u i supposed but nt so soon cos u all still can party party all night long.....=x
tml gg to wake up early cos dear need to wrk at kallang stadium there for the cub kia race as well.....me will be there to see the racers as well later ba.....welcome all who wishes to go n view the race.....may the best racers win this round.....=x

Saturday le......dear injuries seems to heal up fast.....happy to see him feeling better.....well why am i so "early" 2day.....cos later got to wake him up at 8 am....later he need to go wrk early becos of 2day's cub kia race....tml he got to wrk too...hee hee~~
my toothache seems better nw.....nt so jia lat.....yesterday was feeling so sick cos fever up n down.....worried abt him at the same time too.....sianz...
bought some fish soup for him yesterday for dinner....dear dear said nt bad....hee~~ glad he finished the whole bowl of soup.....kind of seh seh rite nw....so on my way to shower 1st b4 waking him up.....shall continue later...ciao!!

Today woke up very early....ard 7am++ ba....dunno why....maybe toothache maybe saw dear injuries so jia lat i felt heart pain cant sleep well.....he woke up later ard 9am++ but his arm seems to be in pain...i see liao i feel like crying more but i bear wif it cos he dun like see me cry all the times....told him to see doc get a MC n rest for a day....he like din listen to wat ever i say insist on gg......on the way to wrk i was afraid he was in pain...cant ride properly...try to be very alert when he is on the road.....he din ride very fast laa.....but still worry he cant ta han the pain....my heart felt so pain seeing him like dat.....went to collect my blood test report but cancelled my lessons for 2day cos no mood n nt feeling well too to teach....my toothache compare to his is minor.....my heart is bleeding right nw cos he din listen to me to see the doc....i dun care abt spending the money or wat....or nt gg for my lessons or wat.....earns less 2day eat less lor the most....he no matter wat is still bery impt to me....but yet he is still so playful.....pengz!!!

A Prayer For My Cute Baby To God



Little baby on the way,
Getting bigger every day,
Kicking mommy here and there,
God please listen to our prayer.

Keep our baby safe and strong,
Let his time with us be long,
Help us teach him right form wrong,
And we shall praise thee all day long.

This little on, though not yet here,
Is loved so much, has grown quite dear.
Delivery time is growing near,
That's why we pray our plea you'll hear.

Please help up Lord, we pray to Thee
With thankful heart, on bended knee,
To raise this child that he might be,
A happy child because of me.

Because Of You.....
Because of you
my world is now whole,
Because of you
love lives in my soul.
Because of you
I have laughter in my eyes,
Because of you
I am no longer afraid of good-byes.
You are my pillar
my stone of strength,
With me through all season
sand great times of length.
My love for you is pure
boundless through space and time,
it grows stronger everyday
with the knowledge
that you'll always be mine.
At the altar
I will joyously say 'I do',
for I have it all now
and it's all because of you.

Thursday le.....tooth nt so pain laa but still off n on a bit a bit.....dear couldnt wake up in time....pengz!!
went home....prep to go lesson ard 2pm....during lesson dear called ask mi get dinner 1st den say he buang jus nw wif ah Cheng when wheelie on the kawa cub kia.....kaoz!! he ah told him off so mani times le nv listen de.....always made me worried like siao....when will he ever learn.....pengz!!!
he says he is ok so i presume he doesnt hv much injuries.....went home prep to go over mw wanna buy wat dear wanna eat de but the whole hawker centre under cleaning process.....sianz 1/2.....went to buy pig organs soup for him ....actually i wan eat porridge but nowhere got sell so get kway chap lor......the most eat slowly lor cos teeth still pain......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
reached mw.....dear seems ok to me.....after he was done wif his wrk i saw his wounds i felt like crying liao......so mani still say no feelings still ok.....nbz.....jus like the time when i buang wif my ex bf last time on his aprilla.....kaoz.....this isnt ok lor.....nvm this......dear told me dat malay colleague of his complained abt him to his boss regarding the cub kia.....i see see look look at the bike it was prefectly alright.....somemore bike dun belong to him belong to mw....he kpkb wat.....knn.....dun let me see his face again or else i will shoot him straight away......since when the bike belong to him if does why ma still use it as a despatch bike....knn....sibei dulan liao....my dear wrk wif him like gg crazy le..... he din even concerned abt his injuries he still kpkb.....wat a stupid fuker.....this time see him no gib face.....he better watch his back or else sure shoot by mani of my frds liao......i was oredi fed up when he nv even co-operate wif my dear during wrk.....selling off reserved stuff of my dear's customers trying to make dear's r/s wif his customers in bad terms right......this is wat i called wrking wif no brains.....no commission one still fight for the rights of "his" customers.....i hate this kind of fukers esp wrking wif them is like hell.....so wat he earns slightly more than my dear....he is jus another idiot who act he noes everything but actually dun even noe wat he is selling at mw.....exactly wat my bros said abt him.....jus another stupid fuker.....
see dear wounds i heart pain....i teeth pain also dun care le.....tml gg to get some cleansing solution n medication for him to apply after wrk.....haiz......why oh why my dear like to be "hero" man.....the cub kia wheelie man.....finally met wif some lessons liao rite.....=p

WEDNESDAY~~~nothing to write abt 2day......whole day body ache like siao......cant slp well also.....si bei sian..........
on the way home to tiong bahru.....my teeth pain like siao.....even more sian....ahhhhhhhh.....why so suay de man.......nt body ache den teeth pain......nbz.......i wanna die liao laa.....=p
nw teeth nt so pain but nv noe later during lesson it might come again......hw am i gg to face my student if its too pain......hw to teach man.........ahhhhhhh......pain laa........... =(
Reach home rushed to cook dinner for dearie.....dear also back frm wrk soon....din close my bloggie....he read thru n asked me if still in pain....i told him still ok....nvm de....but actually is pain laaa of course......dun wan him to worry.....=x
pain goes off n come back again bery torturing man.....but noe-ing dear no more cig le so today i oredi prep the riggits to go in msia liao.....i lie down hoping the pain will go off....but it got serious....i cried at 1 corner of his bed where he cant see me at all.....after awhile he come see see look look at me.....saw me crying n sitting at 1 corner of his bed.....he hugged me n actually felt much better even though still in pain....he told me he will get 1/2 day off tml to acc me see the doc....i die die dun wan.....he say no matter wat go laa.....toothache nt joking matter....i lie down beside him kept on crying cos buai ta han the pain le.....sobx~
after awhile rest the pain still comes n goes......dear was getting ready to go jb wif rat....asked me wan go mai.....of course laa.....i dun wan stay home alone esp in pain.....no matter hw pain i still will go de.....suddenly scared of being alone nw......went to meet rat at BKE speed cam there.....along the way my toothache gone maybe becos of the cold wind ard dat cools it down.....reached jb its starts to feel even better....i asked dear to buy himself a drink he drink the coffee i use the cold can n apply on my cheeks to make it feel better......saw wormz along the way at jb.....long time no see him le still the same him....kekeke....
chatted wif rat while dear chatted wif wormz abt bikes as usual......see the queue nt so long le....quickly ride back to sg b4 it jam again.....along the way home my pain goes off again nt as painful as b4.....yet nt totally ok laa....can start to nag at dear liao yet when pain i kept bery quiet.....cos dun feel like toking ma.....i went coma dear still awake when i was awaken by my toileting time again......wah kok so late or shld i say so early mai koon later see hw he wake up man.....pengz!!!
No matter hw much in pain i am right nw.....dear wif me is the greatest n best cure in the whole wide world......hee~ LOve Ya always.....*Muackz*

Tuesday liao......as usual laa....a bery bery nua day for me....totally sick...sianz....tired.....feeling bery bery shag.....stress.....moody.....nv been so bad mood than before.....worst day of my life.....dragging my feet to lesson today.....ahhhhhhhhhhhhh............ WHY??????????
reached home.....feeling a bit better.........tok to baby online in msn......but yet still feeling the same........am i suffering frm pre-natal depression......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..............torturing.......man..................
reached mw........waited for dear dear to off wrk.....bought his fishie to feed his "bao bei"......went to tiong bahru market to look for "food" cant find anything he wanna eat.......went to plaza got his herbal chicken again.....me actually dun feel like eating but dear say "buy 1st...u will eat later de" ....ok lor listen to him bought bah ku teh for myself......end up reach home drank the soup it taste great n end up finished up all the rice n soup.....=p
tml morning got to wakie up early for morning lesson.....feeling kind of sianz......but no choice cos got something on in the afternoon.....the whole night felt so damm moody man.......helped dear wif his game.....kaoz.....catch sparrows until like siao zha bor.....bth le went to coma in bed till jus onli den i woke up in a rather moody mood.....cant slp again.....bloody hell.....nt again......=(
if everyday like dat i will die faster man........someone pls help me.........torturing ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MONDAY LIAO....holiday again....bloody sianz.....woke up by dear ard 2pm++ in the afternoon....dear as usual surf net play game laa...his usual hobby and onli things he can do at home....asked me when i was awake wanna go out....i kept quiet....dunno why dun feel like gg anywhere.....jus wanna stay home.....bery bery nua n sick.....
went out bought lunchie for me n dear......watch him play his game.... nua ard here n there but mostly on his bed....=p
ard 7pm i was still nua-ing on his bed....wanted to go down get dinner for him le....but end up coma in bed till 9pm....so sweet of him to let me coma again....woke up le went to buy dinner for him....waiting 1/2 way felt pain again.....sianz.....this time attack on both left n right side.....i was in pain n had great difficulties in walking home wif the packets of food....the feel is like the baby stretching itself wif his legs n arms for space yet making me feel bery bery uncomfortable.....reached home 1st thing i buai ta han liao.....lie down on the bed to relax 1st......dear tot i pig again wan slp.....but i was too much in pain to say anything.....waited till the pain was gone den i ate my hor fan.....wah kok left n right attack......pain ley.....if really is twins i giving up of being pregnant again.....torturing man.....if onli 1 i also wont hv our 2nd baby so soon.....cos this little one is like taking of my life away when hving him....no more liao lor....once is enuff for me.....pain ahhhhhhh..........suffering ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! =p

Sunday lor~~~ still so sianz.....but missing some ppl and things rite nw......

*miss zizi baby......wonder where she is nw....must be resting ba cos she sick le or maybe outside wif her"dates" as usual
*miss dear dear (hubby) but dun need to ask me where.....he is on the bed coma as usual....but nw miss his smell laa.....will be back to bed to *smell* him.....lolx
*miss playrat.....dun say i nv miss u.....jus dat time i miss all the girls put ur names inside so weird de....lolx....1 of my closest frd of course must miss laa....=p
*miss my hamsters....all in heaven liao .....sobx sobx~~~
*miss my puppies....all in australia in my bro's hse.....i wan bao bao them.....sobx sobx~~~
*miss goldfish, jessie and lavene......where all my lao po go ah......sobx sobx~~
*miss wendy & adrain.....they in france nw.....so long nv see them le.....miss them so much....sobx sobx~~

Wat a Superrrrrrr Siannnnnnnnnnnnn Sundayyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh..............................

Wat a boring saturday......went sim lim sq wif my sis to get some CD-R for dear to burn out his stuff.....if nt his com no more space le.....den went bugis walk walk ard .....bugis was hving renovations i think kind of diff liao.....still bery sianz......
reached home ard 4pm++......den tok to leo abt her prob......haiz......why being frds must be like dat de......when they are ok they r so close when they hv probs they backstab each other.....who ever it is....shldn't hv spam her hp ard too even though u hate her so much.....i kanna b4 by my ex bf i noe how she feel.....spam ard....create nonsense abt me....until i kept changing hp till i dare nt gib anyone i noe except those who r bery bery close to me de.....cos anyone can be the suspect who noes him n passed him my numbers......till nw cant find out who is dat culprit but 1 day if i noe who i will pay back double to him in return of wat he/she had done to me......who asked him/her helped such a bastard to ruin my life and made it upside down......made me so miserable for a period of time..........
the whole day was kind of moody......dun feel like doing anything.....at the same time feeling pain too.....like baby wanna drop out like dat......but maybe is i stand or walk too much ba.....
prep to go mw....reached there saw some frds....but surprised to see is ppl din see me ard n din even bothered to say hi too......feeling kind of angry too....cos feeling so transparent at dat moment.....these few days i feel weird abt them....they r like drawing themselves away frm mi n nick.....maybe we dun fit into their grps or wat.....i dunno laa.....yet i feel this is weird plus nonsense lor.....anyway too moody to bother abt this either.....pain at the same time too....hoping dear can finish his wrk fast n we can go home n rest.....the onli thing i feel like doing is to coma on bed.....nothing else is more impt than dat......imagine jus sitting on a chair i can feel so irritating.....hving a baby is torturing but no matter wat he/she is my baobei......the onli thing i fear most is there must nt be anything happened to him/her cos she/he is our baobei.....its my duty to bring his/her life to earth smoothly....
we went tiong bahru market to get dinner yet cant find anything to eat.....went to plaza....dear as usual wan to see his toys at the comics shop....i hv to bear wif the pain for a little while den.....went to the foodcourt got him herbal chicken soup and claypot porkribs rice for myself.....bought drinks frm NTUC cos cheaper ma.....den ride back home.....saw a lady cleaning up her car n another lady pulling a cute white dog....dunno wat breed laa.....think the dog threw up in the car....hee~~ so poor thing man hv to clean up.....reached home.....dear doing his stuff 1st....i ate my dinner n went coma le.....really cannot ta han le.....as he/she grow bigger i feel more uncomfortable liao.....hoping the day will come soon.....tok to dear abt army's prob.....but after the conversation of him n army....i was trying to tell him something end up he was happily replying someone in #biker channel abt caiz stuff....make mi even more dulan liao.....ppl at mw can make mi feel so transparent....even he also.....i went to bed n cry....after awhile he came n saw me crying yet i refused to tok to him....cos i feel so moody n in pain.....no matter hw uncomfortable i feel i dun wan him to worry abt me so much.....he woke me up to drink his herbal soup i refused...after awhile of persuasion i finally sat beside kanna force to drink at least 1/2 of his soup....he kept saying i shld take his herbal soup instead....
EEEeeeeeee dun wan keep drinking all these tonic...drink until i feel so sick nw.....after dat went back to coma le.....dear start playing his "xin shen diao xia lu" again....seeing him so bored....i rather he mix ard wif those bikers frds....at least he wont so bored at home esp tml n the next day are public holidays......haiz....nw is dunno frds drawing away frm him becos of my situation nw or he drawing himself away frm them so dat he can acc me more.....either way i feel he is being treated so unfairly.....haiz.....making me hving doubts if hving this little baobei is a good choice or a bad one......sobx~~

Cant slp......dun ask me why? Jus cant put myself to slp at all....lie down on the bed looking at dear i started to cry w/o any reasons.......actually got laa....think of some nonsense again lor....=x
i started to rem dat special day dunno dear still can rem or nt.....the day dat i made him so panicked n worried over me.....yeah its was the 16th of July....maybe the rest hv forgotten abt it....but i noe onli me n dear still rem it very well....cos i made a stupid mistake on dat day.....which made dear almost lost me.....
till nw....i dunno why i made the choice of leaving him....maybe i was thinking i cant give the kind of happiness he need....i cant give him the future he looking for.....i onli gave him burdens n burdens no happiness but sorrows n headaches......but whenever i rem wat he said on dat day....i felt dat he love me as much as i love him.....no lesser than i do....jus dat he nv show it at all....its deep inside his heart......
I still nt certain if i am still the right choice for him....will he be happier wif mi or w/o me? maybe kind of stupid to think of all these.....but when someone loves another.....its nt whether u possess him or nt....its to see him /her happy u will feel happy too even if he /she izzit gg to be wif u or nt.....of course i am happy he is wif me always.....whenever i need him....
in my mind i kept worried abt a lot of stuff esp when baby coming out soon....makes mi think even more.....i noe he loves me n baby very much....jus scare dat things r too much for him to handle rite nw.....too much stress on him he might break down which he nv did cos he is always so happy-go-lucky......maybe i shld be like him.....worry less think less n be happy.....nv put a worry face in front of ppl at all times.....
He is the onli one i love rite nw n till 4ever......nothing gg change this cos i noe he loves mi as much as i love him too.....more n more but nv less....=p

Friday le.....nt much things happened....stayed at home whole afternoon cos i cancelled lesson in the noon to rest till next mon.....need more rest....me sick sick woman....poor thing mah....=p
ard 5plus prep to set off back to tiong bahru.....bought guppies for dear dear de "bao bei".....reached the plaza went NTUC for dun feel like cooking....went foodcourt....dunno wat to eat or buy wat for dear.....went straight for lesson den after dat went nearby blk buy his fav sweet n sour pork rice n salted fish fried rice for myself.....2day feeling kinda of sick man....no mood to do anything....reached home dear also home le.....so early today....surprised wor.....took my dinner and start to nua in bed again.....everyday like dat feel even more sick....no life.....sianz.....dear dear came into the room to check out wat i was doing alone.....think he also noticed i a bit weird these few days.....maybe due day coming soon ba......baby getting bigger i feel more n more uncomfortable.....if woke up at nite also hard to go back to slp.....sianz man.....wats wrong wif mi man.....sobx~~

Love Is ...



Love is the greatest feeling,
Love is like a play,
Love is what I feel for you,
Each and every day,
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song,
Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong,
I love you with my heart,
My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving,
Like a love I can't control,
So remember when your eyes meet mine,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you,
Right from the very start.

Din do much on thursday cos its a holiday....every1 seems so busy on tis day.....wonder where everyone disappear to.......maybe holiday ba all busy dating wif their loved ones....i also dating mine in his hse...=x
the whole afternoon din do much...dear wanted to go sim lim sq to get some disks but end up slpt till 5pm++.....den requested to eat the bah zhang i bought for him last night.....heat it up for him....he asked mi to eat 1/2 of it....hee~ so sweet of him....but i bought it for him so i ate jus a little.....den chatted wif rat awhile till he say he is gg to jb later....i check the flow of traffic at the causeway wasnt jam wor...so dear n i decided to go in n eat dinner instead....quite smooth all the way no jam at all.....quite surprised too cos its a public holiday....expect it to be bloody jam ma....
reached home ard 930pm.....1st time so early reached home frm jb sia.....as usual i nua on the bed n dear surf net.....looked at dear kept surfing net den go in n out of living room watch tv like bery sian like dat.....i rather he go meet up his bike frds better.....no point keeping mi company all the time ma....
dear was hungry again so went down see got wat to buy for him.....bought his fav fried oyster n minced meat noodles for myself....kekeke.... mi hungry too ma....den dear start playing his "feng yun" until dulan liao cant play gb too....so asked mi find if he got other games to play....found his "xin shen diao xia lu" den he started install wif some prob but later ok le.....play play play till 4am++ .....pengz!! i woke up he start asking mi where to go frm the part he is playing cos i played b4 le.....i was too blurr to guide him too.....b4 i can say anything....the game hang by itself....hee~~ means telling him its time to slp le......kekeke....haiz....he ah dunno wat to do wif him laa.....(-_-)"

BORING......BORING.....BORING.....BORING.....BORING.....BORING.....BORING.....
BORING....BORING.....BORING.....BORING....BORING.....BORING.....
AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! =P

nothing to do.....but miss lots of ppl.....such as---->

*miss playgirl (baby) wonder where is she nw....I wan sing KTV~~~
*miss Rain (ah gal) wonder where is she nw.....where u MIA to ahhhhh!!!
*miss Colin (shi san yi)....wonder where is she nw.....must be wif wong fei hong shao ye laa...=x
*miss MirconGal (Mei) wonder where is she nw......maybe slping ba cos she got work tonite...
*miss Florence (nu er) wonder where she is nw.....shld be wif her dear dear laa
*miss Goldfish (Da Lao Po) wonder where is she nw......wobble wobble wobble~~
*miss Jessie (Er Lao Po) wonder where is she nw....shld be at home cos her msn is on mah....=x
*miss Lavene (Xiao Lao Po) wonder where is she nw .....shld be wif her bf....dun wan mi le...sobx sobx~~
*miss K^GalGal (Mei) wonder where is she nw.....why nv come visit mi de....=x
*miss Yan Yan (Mei) wonder where is she nw....shld be happily paktor wif bf le...
*miss my dear dear (hubby) no need to wonder where is he cos he is slping on the bed....PIGGY!!!!! pengz!!

Sianzzzzzzzzzzz ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!
Wat a boring holiday.....

Thursday lor....kanna di siao by dear so woke up le....but gg back to ZZZZZzzzz soon... b4 gg back to koon.....i would like to wish all of u "Happy Holidays"....sibei mani holidays coming soon....esp 2day n monday.....no need to zhuo gang liao.....all shld feel shiok man.....lolz......So ppl out there......party party party, enjoy ur holidays.....too bad i cant....=x.....
lastly i would like to say something to my dearest hubby.....
I Luv......."FP4106Y".......=p FP4106Y....FP4106Y....FP4106Y....FP4106Y....FP4106Y....FP4106Y....FP4106Y....FP4106Y onli n 4ever n ever ever......wahahahaha free advertising my dear's number plate sekali kanna 4D this weekend ma so must chant this number more often ....lolz.....opps...nvm me....me siao liao.... start to tok nonsense liao....kekeke......nitez gg to coma again liao.....=p
LUB LUB HUBBY N OUR BABY 4EVER N EVER N EVER.....

wednesday le ah? so fast sia....tml public holiday liao.....hee~~~ bo zhuo gang laa same as dear dear lor....we both finally can slp until dunno wat time liao like nobody biz le....dats the feeling i like during the weekends keke....cos 2 of us pigs ma.....=p
lessons as per normal....finished 1st one took train back to tiong bahru washed my legs cos jus nw kanna heavy rain....sibei sianz man...i hate rainy days esp those heavy like siao de.....huh!
bo bian lor...hv to go work....haiz.... changed my clothes as well cos jus nw got kanna rain too my pants were half wet n dry.....a bit gao wei....=x
b4 my lesson i go buy dinner 1st cos scared the stall will close early....my fav stall as well....CHICKEN RICE!!!!.....bought bah zhang too as well as oneh oneh too....mi hungry ma.....double shares for 2 k....me n baby hor.....=x
but hor i ate all the oneh oneh liao...shit! din leave a single 1 for dear....shhhhhhh....u noe i noe can le...dun tell him.....=x....he got a bah zhang enuff le laa.....=x kekeke....me bery bad hor....bo bian i sayang baby more than him.....lolz...
nw waiting for someone to reach home....kind of worry abt him lately cos of the way he ride n when i saw alex yest....i was even more worried abt him....cos he nowadays if got cars or bikes play games wif him on the road he tends to speed a bit more....with or without mi i think also even worse ba.....hope he noes his limit lor.....cos i dun wan anything to happen to him.....dat time see him at NUH my heart oredi wanna stop le....cry non-stop till he asked mi why? worry laa of course....kaoz!! asked stupid questions always.....dat day i stayed home also online di siao me say he is his bro say he buang le in hospital.....kaoz!!! i noe him damm well de wor....if anything happened to him 1st thing will wait till i reached home frm my lesson den tell mi thru msn....pls laa!! his mum will call mi or he will sms mi immediately cos he noes i dun wan him to hide things frm mi de......si gui....@@ at dear dear.....nv play this kind of jokes ah!!!!!.....HUH!!!!
he always di siao siao me but maybe dats why i love him so much....wif him ard i feel happier....much more happier than b4....i nv regret making the choice of "chasing after him"....must say this den he will hao lian de.....=x perhaps is fate dat brought us 2gether.....I LOve him deeper than b4 but of course will still love him 4ever n ever till my life ends......LOVE YA DEAR!!!!!

What I Love About You....



I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright and blue.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.
I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I Love You,"
and the way you're always there.
I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine.

Tuesday....1 lesson onli hee hee~~~ but still feel bery shag....supposed to arrange wif dear if he is gg to visit our frd at CGH....but he din reply so i went home straight to rest....
reached home ard 5pm++ ....cant slp....online tok cock wif leo (armygurl)....until last min dear called up say wan go visit his frd nw....pengz!!
as usual he wont come down fetch mi de wor....cos he is a "lu chi" dunno hw to come my hse after noeing mi so long le.....pengz!!! bo bian...i hv to take bus there lor....reached there my hp sort of spolit again....no reception....sianz....dear nv tell mi wat ward no. hw to find man....heng rat n dear went downstairs to look for mi....actually the hospital nt bery big de...but hor my dear can easily get lost inside de wor....=x
reached my frd alex ward.....saw geroge, maki and miko too......saw miko and alex felt so glad dat they r ok.....thank god they r safe after such a serious accident....at least noe dat they r ok i felt better....cos i felt bery sad whenever i visit any of my frds who met wif accidents....they can count themselves bery lucky to be alive....but seeing alex lying on the bed and miko kept sticking by his side taking good care of him made mi think of my bro......i miss him so much...hoping he can wake up nw.......i felt so bad not able to fly over n see him acc him help my sis in law to take care of him........my closest bro my closest frd yet i cant do anything here......sob~~
after dat rat acc us to mw to get dear's goldfishes....and den followed by idac to see the accident bike....quite in bad condition...cant imagine how it happen or if it really happen to mi.....den we went home separately to change n go jb ard 10pm++ .....wah jam ah....heng the flow of the jam quite smooth still ok....able to reach jb within 1/2 hr ba......frm sg customs....change riggits le den go to the usual place to eat....rat ordered western food, i was starving so i n dear ordered the "zhi cha"....we tried the pork ribs king rice n fried wild boar rice.....my wild boar meat rice was worth it man.....n delicious but dear de pork ribs a few onli den looked so pathetic....both 2gether 9 riggits onli quite worth it lor compared to eating in sg.....went home after dat reached home ard 1am++ quite ok nt so jam liao frm msia customs....reached feel like coma liao....dear still wan watch the show he dl frm net "Cutie Honey"....cute laa but i cant keep my eyes open liao....=x....so went to ZZZZzzzzz early.....dear dear also slpt early guess he is tired too ba

ALways there....

When I needed to talk to someone
You were always there to listen
When my eyes were full of tear
and my heart full up with pain,
You were always there to take that all away
There no doubt to come to you
because you were always there to help me
when I needed someone.
No matter wat my problem is
or wats wrong you were there
to be right beside me to guide me out.
If you were never there for me
I would never be standing
on this earth at this very second
and if I lose you
I can never walk on this earth,
cannot sleep or eat
but just cry out my eyes
and remember our love that we share.
I just want you to know that
I cared about you and I need you.

Monday.....as usual lor.....2 lessons in a row....afternoon and evening....after my lesson frm pasir ris rushed home to prep the stuff to cook chicken curry....long time no cook le....dunno can bo....=x
prep le...gg to leave hse for my 2nd lesson ..trying to close th window the handle drop out....kaoz....quickly told his mum and she said is like dat de....old hse all the things old le sooner or later will spolit de....heng nv got scolded...=p
finished lesson....rushed back to cook....dear came back b4 i cook....bo pian hurry lor.....cook le 1/2 way realised the curry tasted weird....think i got the wrong powder man....sianz.... hving cold n blocked nose too....cant really taste well.....done le nt satisfied wif wat i cooked.....told dear if nt nice dun eat i go downstairs buy him dinner....he says nt nice meh....he tried and say why so weird de like something is missing....i felt the same too.....maybe too long nv cook le....but he still insist of eating.....kekeke....told him mai force le he finish up all the chicken....kaoz....den he said if dun finished it....scared i angry.....=x
well i was prep to dump it all away wat ....he ah so stupid....wait eat le lao sai how? kekeke so sweet of him ......=x

Sunday.... nothing much lor....woke up ard 12pm++ ...dear hurried mi to bathe so we can go mah motor open hse to get his goodie bag b4 gg fish farm.....
reached there met joel, jerryrvf, kawa, Yzf R1 & gf, spider di di......also finally met my papa le....lolz...nbz...i wonder hw he noes its mi n nick....ask mi call him papa den i realised its valve....kaoz.....si papa....lolz
also met hisham's frd and many of nick's customers frm mw.....see see look look ard awhile den go off to fish farm le....
reached fish farm i wasnt feeling well liao....feel like sitting down n rest but dear was inside the qurantine area seeing fishes n quite far away frm the waiting area....bo pian wait for him to finish lor.....
after dat went to jurong point as usual for our late lunch....i took pork ribs rice...nt dat nice too sweet for mi le.....gai gai ard.....dear went to "turn turn" his toys again laa as usual....his hobby ma.....saw a new shop there where they used special coins to play de....dear see liao haiz wan to "turn" for toys again.....heng he got wat he wanted if nt waste $$ again.....he is jus like a big kid....=x
reached home nua here n there......do nothing but jus lying ard dunno y.....jus feel too shag to do anything.....maybe gg to due soon ba.....maybe baby too notti always move ard inside mi lor....=p

Saturday le wor.....supposed to wake dear up at 8am....but end up i overslept...cos the nite b4 i woke up ard 4am++ saw dear still surfing net....he said he nt tired mai koon....den i complained better sleep if nt he cant wake up in time....i also scared i couldn't wake up esp when i am sick hard to wake myself up dun say wake him up la.....pengz!!
i hurried dear up he seems so calm yet din even scold mi for waking him up so late....i felt so bad inside....kept bery quiet the whole morning but he din react much abt being late....dear dear so understanding i felt so touched...he noes i been coughing non stop these few days....kept slping early these few days due to i'm sick....normally for him for his usual self he will throw his temper...but he din do it ....i really felt like crying cos i cos him to be so late...but i noe he dun like to see mi cry.....
after reached dear wrkplace....frm his wrkplace took bus 87 to defu lane 10 to pay his bike installment...den reached home...bought my lunch....did a bit of scanning of my previous pics taken last time using my sis new scanner...=p
after dat felt so shag dunno why....went to my bed coma le...till 6pm den woke up...got prep to go
over n meet dear at mw....reached there 1st thing dear say nt gg 2nd link cos he tired.....pengz!!
den he said he gg again....ahhhhh!!! he cant make up his mind man....we went in the end....bought his cig as well as pump petrol lor....after awhile we normally dun stay long de....we went home straight.....nowadays dear very guai nv asked to meet any of his frds....weird?....bought my fav chicken rice....makan le....den nua at his bed again.....
dear wanted to go downstairs to wash bike...i followed him...as usual i love to sit at 1 corner see him wash bike...cos he nv ask mi to help as i am expecting nw....scared i slip n fall on wet floors.....=p
Rat called us but dunno wats up...din call him too cos we 2 were downstairs washing dear "da lao po".....once reached home....coma le....till dear came to bed ard 5am++ saying tml must wake up early so we can go fish farm early....=)
But i am oredi awake liao...hee hee~~ yet gg back to slp again after i'm done wif sat's bloggie....ciao back to coma liao wif my dear....ZZzzzzzzZZZZzzzzz.....

Friday le.....supposed to wake up at 8am....heard the alarm but couldnt get up cos sick.....end up woke up ard 930am++ nvm laa i go in the afternoon also can cos afternoon no lesson ma......haiz....
woke up dear and prep to go wrk .....i reached home rest awhile den went for my check up ard 2pm......2day got to do blood test again.........sianzzzzzzzzz......... they made mi drink this big bottle of orange juice den go see doc for check up......this is the last time i gg to drink orange juice.....nbz...stomach damn full ley......pengz!!
doc check baby heart beat.....everytime hear baby heart beat ....my heart will melt....imagine cant see him but u can feel him n hear his heart beat....feel so sweet man....he is kicking all the way when doc check his heart beat n his position inside mi....wat a notti little fellow....=x jus like his daddy ma.....=p one more thing wor.....bery funny de....cos normally whenever i go check up they will hear baby heart beat but onli hear once....2day heard twice....suddenly she press towards my right side of the tummy i heard the usual heart beat den she press against the left side say this is baby's heart beat i blurr le....dun tell mi there are twins??? Noooooooooooo!!!! pengz!!!!
my doc said i must schedule to see doc at KK fast in case i might due early in dec......haiz.....
left abt 1/2 hr b4 i go back for the blood test....walk ard awhile den took the blood test....seh man...heng this time onli drew 1 tube.....dat time drew 3 tubes of my blood i almost wanna faint...=p
reached home gg to rest awhile b4 gg for my evening lesson later......sianz man....
rested awhile decided nt to go for lesson instead cos feeling bery bery shag n sick........den called up my frd a lady rider who wanted to meet up wif us at scissor cut curry rice for makan.....i anything de cos its bery near dear's place ma.....go home easier ma.....
reached scissor cut my dear frd late man.....ahhhhhhh.....waited until 9pm++ ba den she reached wif a "cai".... lolz.....her sis la
chatted abt bikes again as well.........din eat cos all nt bery hungry....chatted till 10pm++ think gg to rain le....quickly ta bao dinner and siamz le.....if nt sure kanna rain de....reached home makan le 1st thing feel like lying down le.......really bery tired..........pengz!!! bo pian i sick le ma...........sobx sobx

The Meaning

To love is to share life together
to build special plans just for two
to work side by side
and then smile with pride
as one by one, dreams all come true.
To love is to help and encourage
with smiles and sincere words of praise
to take time to share
to listen and care
in tender, affectionate ways.
To love is to have someone special
one who you can always depend
to be there through the years
sharing laughter and tears
as a partner, a lover, a friend.
To love is to make special memories
of moments you love to recall
of all the good things
that sharing life brings
love is the greatest of all.
I've learned the full meaning
of sharing and caring
and having my dreams all come true;
I've learned the full meaning
of being in love
by being and loving with you.

WHAT U MEAN TO ME.....

Sending this for everyone to see
So they can see what you mean to me
Never have I known a guy like you
A love so wonderful, pure, and true.
You always seem to make me happy
even through times when I feel crappy.
Never came a day when you weren't there,
even though you weren't there.
Miles apart dont keep us from love;
I told you it was a match made from above.
We proved to love we dont have to touch,
and yes......its true..I miss you so much.
Don't care what any body thinks
as long as your with me
forever and always me loving you
is the way its going to be.

WheN a WoMaN LoVeZ A MaN ....

She dedicates her life to him
No one else is there
He is everything to her
He’s her heart and her air.
There is no competition
In her eyes there’s just him.
She shows him he’s the world to her
And without him her world,
just goes dim
To her his love is more than feelings
It’s what she needs to live
Without him she’d be nothing
Love’s all she has to give
She always thinks about him
He’s never off her mind
She will always be faithful
Very loving and kind
She’d do anything for him,
To keep him happy and
to be with him when he smiles
To be in his armsShe would run for miles
She feels a happy feeling
It’s the feeling of love
She thanks the lord for bringing him to her
Like an angel from above
He’s her one and only
And those are well known facts
And when a woman loves a man
That is how she acts.

Woke up again ...=p mai scold mi ah.....woke up for a hot drink so dat i wont feel so jia lat....actually feel a bit better le....but jus need a drink b4 gg back to slp....cos later got to go for my last check up at my hse there polyclinic at ard 10am.....sianz man....wanted to stay home cos easier to go frm my hse but miss my hubby ...=x
Jus nw he slpt early i think....i slpt 1/2 way he suddenly hugged mi to slp.....can feel his warm and gentle touch...which is enuff to make mi feel better...best cure among all doc...specially given by Doc. Lee.... keke.....will be back to slp soon......sick ahhhhhh!!!!!!!! sobx sobx!!!!
Actually partially i woke up becos i dreamt of "someone", who was once a bastard in my life....the things he did made mi hate him so much....if i got the chance i will kill him myself.....seriously....i nv hate a person as much as i hate him....my dear noes abt it too......but i hate dreaming abt him....kind of bad sign.....
I dreamt of: i was having dinner wif dear ,colin, jerry and dunno who le.....den suddenly "he" came to join our table cos somehow my dear got to noe him frm somewhere....dear invite him to sit wif us....den when we r in our conversation he interupted by telling dear abt mi n his stuff long time ago....of course dear got no reactions.....but i felt like borrowing the food stall uncle chopper n chop him into pieces rite nw man....
why must i dreamt of him? i recalled dear said he dreamt of his ex gf too....this is wat i hate most..... will they turn up again and ruin our lifes once more.....will "she" come back to dear for a patch back or something at this critical moment....of course i trust dear wont leave mi....but i still will fear to lose him one day.....will "he" come and destroy our happiness rite nw? come n ruin my relationship wif him making my life more miserable?
whenever i dreamt of him or if i heard dear dreamt of her....i felt worried n scared.....if one day i were to lose u wat will i do? wat will happen to mi n baby? i dare nt think more....but to erase wat ever i dreamt and believe in my dear dear dat he will love mi n baby 4ever n ever.....

OH DEAR!!!! Feeling super sick man.....on the way to lesson i feel like dying le....but hv to go cos today onli 1 lesson nia.....reached mw meet dear....dear was busy fixing his bike den helped ah cheng.....waited till 9pm++ den we go off buy dinner....i sick no appetite so jus bought porridge....dear ate his fav satay bee hoon as usual and fried oysters....
dear doing his stuff yet i sitting one side watching him do his stuff as usual but 2nite really feel like a zombie man.....so decided to lie down n dun even feel like moving to anywhere of the hse unless is toilet time.....=x

Wednesday ahhhhhhh......after i reached dear wrkplace, went to take bus home....den suddenly feel like gg to bedok central walk walk.....went to buy some stuff for dear dear as well.....walk ard aimlessly yet dunno wat to buy for dinner tonite.....den went home nua a bit den go lesson le.....
after lesson bought some stuff to cook for dinner den take train back to tiong bahru......trying to prep the stuff 1st b4 i come back later frm another lesson nearby.....recieved a call frm a old frd....lady rider worrrrrr.......=x chatted a while den went home to cook dinner le.....dear also reached home soon after dat.......but after i took my dinner feeling kind of sick le.....dunno y....dear finished wif his dl-ing den we set off to 2nd link pak petrol ard 11pm........
reached there i still ok nt so bad......but jus got a feeling i gg to get sick again.....straught after i reached home.....lie down.....coma le...maybe too tired le ba.....
dear slpt ard 6am++ in the morning....ai si ahhhhhhh so late den slp.....but when i was awaken by him.....shit! i really sick le....running nose cough slight fever all come le...........sianz.........took a hot drink den went back to slp at least dun feel so jia lat....siao liao if sick very jia lat de.....whole body feel so nua.....cant even concentrate on my wrk le.....sobx sobx......

A Life Poem
(A poem about life)

Life can seem ungrateful and not always kind.
Life can pull at your heartstrings and play with your mind...
Life can be blissful and happy and free...
Life can put beauty in the things that you see...
Life can place challenges right at your feet...
Life can make good of the hardships we meet...
Life can overwhelm you and make your head spin...
Life can reward those determined to win...
Life can be hurtful and not always fair...
Life can surround you with people who care...
Life clearly does offer its Up and its Downs...
Life's days can bring you both smiles and frowns...
Life teaches us to take the good with the bad...
Life is a mixture of happy and sad...

So...

Take the Life that you have and give it your best...
Think positive, be happy let God do the rest...
Take the challenges that life has laid at your feet...
Take pride and be thankful for each one you meet...
To yourself give forgiveness if you stumble and fall...
Take each day that is dealt you and give it your all...
Take the love that you're given and return it with care...
Have faith that when needed it will always be there...
Take time to find the beauty in the things that you see...
Take life's simple pleasures let them set your heart free...
The idea here is simply to even the score...
As you are met and faced with Life's Tug of War

Reached home frm my 2nd lesson of the day ard 6pm++...hurried bathe n prep to go mw to meet dear dear....saw rat online den jio him go jb makan...he said must ask dear...also true laa....i also scare he got buy those fishes to feed him "baobei" as well as it might still be jam at the customs....so we reached home den call rat...
waited very long for the jam to clear....end up dear buai ta han liao asked mi go down buy dinner as well as cig......i din heard the part abt buying cig cos i tot dear really wan go pak petrol but by 2nd link.....went to buy his fav sweet n sour pork rice & hor fan for myself....dunno why cant eat much lately....saw the auntie's satay stall opened....went to buy a few to eat for fun...and also in case dear dear hungry again.....pengz!! (-_-)"
put down all the stuff dear asked nv buy cig ah....no wonder he gave mi extra cash becos of cig....nbz.... tot he wan save money go 2nd link buy cheaper....end up smk sg cig....went down again....but of course dulanz laa.....why dun go jb buy better? why must smk sg cig? think think i quit cig is to motivate him stop smking end up he smk even more......den my money spent on his cig when he nt enuff cash....felt so dulanz....if i myself smk i dun care....i pay for him to smk....kaoz!! might as well i smk myself better.....huh!!!
came home wif his cig....he asked mi wanna watch the vcd he brought back "The grudge".....english version of "Ju-on" laa....very stupid movie.....1stly nt clear 2ndly a lot of audience laughing sounds....cfm is taken by ppl in america....bth them when they see movie all kinds of funny reactions when watch horror films.....pengz!!!......actually shld be scary end up i watch like no reactions....lolz.....
dear dear expect mi to react jus like the time we watch dat jap horror movie....but end up i also laugh like siao zha bor.....lolz......=p
tired le.....went to slp....dreamt of the "ghost" in the story.....i wasn't scared yet i kicked the thing aside n asked it to fuck off n leave mi alone cos i was bery shagged......muahahahahahaha!!! mi siao zha bor liao rite? told u all i siao le becos of the exam period.....
woke up by dear dear cos i am his "finance manager" holding onto his cash ma.....he need to pass some cash back to his mum so i forced myself to wake up lor.....nw i cant slp....ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!
end up i am here doing my blog but trying to make myself sleepy so dat i can go back to slp....nt like my dear nw snoring all the way....pengz!!! (._.)"
OMG!!!!! noise pollution ahhhhhhhh!!!! =p

after my lesson rushed to bank to cash dear dear and ah cheng's cheque....rushed over to mw to pass dear n ah cheng their money....end up dear nt ard...he went to deliver goods le....sianz hv to wait for him to come back.....waited for almost 1/2... a "yandao kia" wif stylo raincoat came back....wait ar...i go puke 1st....lolz
he carried a lot of stuff...i waited for him to get done den rushed home cos mum need to go for doc check up soon.....haiz....
b4 i left dear was trying his customer's bike.....OMG!!! dun tell mi he wan buy dat bike....wat bike ah? make a guess ba....kekeke
he ah buai ta han him de always like dat 1....see 1 bike wan try try den wan buy buy buy den end up every month change target.....lolz.....dats him dats why i love him so much.....cos he is so CUTEEEEEEEE!!!!! =p

Woke up le~~ feeling better than jus nw....nt so grumby le....i'm like dat like la...i nv got angry wif him for more than 24 hrs.....=p
prep to go for my morning lesson ....saw him slp so soundly in this kind of nice weather scare he will late again man.....pengz!! better go le if nt i also late too.....hv a nice day every1....=)

i was abt to slp le...kanna awaken by dear again....same old thing he complained hungry....no complains at all i got up changed n prep to go down....waited for him to decide to eat wat he din replied mi...i was kind of fed up....cos imagine i am expecting le....sick n tired too....u still dun understand yet wan mi go down fetch food for u nvm....i nv complain yet u can raise ur voice at me and say u cant think of wat to eat....
si bei dulanz n i couldn't wait any longer went off straight w/o hearing wat he wan to eat....anyway no intention to walk all the way to the next blk kopitiam to buy for him....jus went to the teow chew mui there packet some rice n some dishes for him dats all.....
came back placed the packet of food on the table den went straight back to slp....dear began to tok to mi in a softer tone....but this time dunno y i dun take it as a apology.....cos it sound so ridiculous to make mi go all the way down jus to get u food where i aint eating at all.....ignored him yet cried at 1 corner thinking why am i been treated this way....no one can understand hw i feel the whole day esp him....nv once i feel tired sick or fed up i show it in front of him....keep it all inside mi....swallow it but nv wan to make him worry....but doesnt mean at this point u can jus take it for granted as well....
i started to feel if u really love mi.... if u really care abt mi n our baby....did u ever ask if i am feeling 2day....hw was wrk? hw is everything?....most of the time in a day u wrk den come home face the com more than facing mi......i nv once complain....the onli time i feel u r there for mi is when u abt to slp....u would hug mi....but after awhile u will turn ur back against mi....making mi feel no better still i got no complain........i feeling stress, sick shag sian abt everything rite nw esp nw is exam period....things ard me seems nv go right.....but who was there for mi when i need someone .....no one but myself.....noeing ur wrk u also stress.....i nv will wan anyone esp u to worry abt mi.....yet bottled up everything in me makes mi even more worse than b4....i really dunno nw.....completely feeling depressed over everything ard me....no mood in anything except to get my sleep nw.....