BBQ Pics At Ah Neng's hse....
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Dear Baby......
Although I cannot see you,
I still know your are there.
You are warm and snug inside me,
and require gentle care.
Although I cannot hold you,
or give you a hug goodnight.
I feel you move inside me
and know that you are alright.
Although I cannot kiss you,
or show you how I feel.
I know you share my feelings
and that our bond is real.
.....you are with me all the time
and always on my mind.
Already I have fallen in love
with my precious gift from up above.
Although I cannot see you,
I still know your are there.
You are warm and snug inside me,
and require gentle care.
Although I cannot hold you,
or give you a hug goodnight.
I feel you move inside me
and know that you are alright.
Although I cannot kiss you,
or show you how I feel.
I know you share my feelings
and that our bond is real.
.....you are with me all the time
and always on my mind.
Already I have fallen in love
with my precious gift from up above.
Monday, August 30, 2004
Wah kok Thurs Fri Sat Sun nv write blog lor.....bu shi mei you shi qing fa sheng laa ... si lazy to write laa....somemore gt my baby blog to write also bery busy ma....
Ok ok i write thurs 1 1st ah.....hmmm let mi think 1st ah.....a bit forgetful liao....kekeke....i guess nothing much happened cos i was off on thurs....hmmm dear dear wrking....colin also wrking....i was trying to slp but cant.... saw my old frd jessie online in msn ask her out for kopi n pei her go eat dinner cos her "dear dear" wont be back till 12am....poor thing....den we go separate ways after dat cos i meeting dear dear at motorworld....dats all lor
Fri ma....hmmmm.....reach home do nothing till 2pm go teach tuition till 430pm den come home....the student's grandparents were so sweet to give mi a ride home frm their hse cos they gg bedok too....so i was home early ....trying to slp again cant .....den tok cock in mirc n msn lor....till ard 630 prep to bath n change n meet dear dear at motorworld lor....
Sat ma.....tuition at 2pm den after dat ard 3plus took bus 27 to sengkang to find my dear colin mei mei for lunchie as well as go for a hair cut cos colin said there is a QB hse at her hse nearby shopping mall....met up wif her mum again at rivervale mall...OMG her mum very friendly treat mi dou suan...nw a bit scare of seeing her mum liao next time better ask colin before kanna ambush again....lol den went to cut my hair liao wanted to show colin but she was too busy to look at my direction... i cant wait liao cos hv to go home bath n change b4 gg motorworld...met up wif jerry there n went chomp chomp hawker eat dinner wif peter den go rivervale mall again to fetch colin to ms....reach ms damm boring sia....tok cock sing song bunch of ppl....si bei sianz almost wanted to slp liao den they wanna go changi village see ah gua....even more sianz.....ahhhhhhh reach liao i buai ta han liao ask colin pei wo eat char siew rice...eeeeeee bu hao chi de......ke shi wo hen er le lol den jerry n dear dear ride their bike over to find us at kopitiam cos the rest go home liao.....went home after dat cos mi n colin gt wrk the next day .....shag man
Sun ma.....woke up quite early ard 9 plus ....i kai su ma.....2pm lesson so early wake up....lol ard 10 go bath 11 go buy lunch den dear dear wake up say wan eat lunch den go down again buy lunch for him....ard 12 nua abit....1230 den leave hse....after the lesson ard 315pm tok to the parents den hurry home but still reach hse ard 5pm....si bei shag....man....-.-'''' jerry n dear dear n colin wan go jb eat n pak petrol....i too shag to say anything also angry wif dear dear so went straight to slp.....he woke mi up ard 7pm ask mi why i was crying in my slp i die die dun wan tell him wat happen....si bei dulan when he constantly sms dat "bitch" for fuk liao sms de lui bo liao rite .....nv seee him sms mi ask mi where i am reaching home bo all these stuff...nb ccb...huh! angry opps sry kekewent jb eat my fav chee cheong fan sting ray as well as jerry fav "la la" eeeeeee i hate that ....... dear dear wan rush out b4 it jam even more at customs so we go early reach sg customs see the queue wahhhh will die ah i and colin enjoying our wait at 1 side when the 2 guys bery poor thing hv to push bike dun care lor....but colin seem feeling sry for jerry ....haiz wat to do love birds ma....lol reach sg liao we decide to go yishun dam a while saw ah boon richard n kat there too... after awhile we go home n straight away i went straight to slp cos very very tired ahhhhhh.....dear dear slp very late again ard 2plus .....-.-''''' haiz as usual ba
Ok ok i write thurs 1 1st ah.....hmmm let mi think 1st ah.....a bit forgetful liao....kekeke....i guess nothing much happened cos i was off on thurs....hmmm dear dear wrking....colin also wrking....i was trying to slp but cant.... saw my old frd jessie online in msn ask her out for kopi n pei her go eat dinner cos her "dear dear" wont be back till 12am....poor thing....den we go separate ways after dat cos i meeting dear dear at motorworld....dats all lor
Fri ma....hmmmm.....reach home do nothing till 2pm go teach tuition till 430pm den come home....the student's grandparents were so sweet to give mi a ride home frm their hse cos they gg bedok too....so i was home early ....trying to slp again cant .....den tok cock in mirc n msn lor....till ard 630 prep to bath n change n meet dear dear at motorworld lor....
Sat ma.....tuition at 2pm den after dat ard 3plus took bus 27 to sengkang to find my dear colin mei mei for lunchie as well as go for a hair cut cos colin said there is a QB hse at her hse nearby shopping mall....met up wif her mum again at rivervale mall...OMG her mum very friendly treat mi dou suan...nw a bit scare of seeing her mum liao next time better ask colin before kanna ambush again....lol den went to cut my hair liao wanted to show colin but she was too busy to look at my direction... i cant wait liao cos hv to go home bath n change b4 gg motorworld...met up wif jerry there n went chomp chomp hawker eat dinner wif peter den go rivervale mall again to fetch colin to ms....reach ms damm boring sia....tok cock sing song bunch of ppl....si bei sianz almost wanted to slp liao den they wanna go changi village see ah gua....even more sianz.....ahhhhhhh reach liao i buai ta han liao ask colin pei wo eat char siew rice...eeeeeee bu hao chi de......ke shi wo hen er le lol den jerry n dear dear ride their bike over to find us at kopitiam cos the rest go home liao.....went home after dat cos mi n colin gt wrk the next day .....shag man
Sun ma.....woke up quite early ard 9 plus ....i kai su ma.....2pm lesson so early wake up....lol ard 10 go bath 11 go buy lunch den dear dear wake up say wan eat lunch den go down again buy lunch for him....ard 12 nua abit....1230 den leave hse....after the lesson ard 315pm tok to the parents den hurry home but still reach hse ard 5pm....si bei shag....man....-.-'''' jerry n dear dear n colin wan go jb eat n pak petrol....i too shag to say anything also angry wif dear dear so went straight to slp.....he woke mi up ard 7pm ask mi why i was crying in my slp i die die dun wan tell him wat happen....si bei dulan when he constantly sms dat "bitch" for fuk liao sms de lui bo liao rite .....nv seee him sms mi ask mi where i am reaching home bo all these stuff...nb ccb...huh! angry opps sry kekewent jb eat my fav chee cheong fan sting ray as well as jerry fav "la la" eeeeeee i hate that ....... dear dear wan rush out b4 it jam even more at customs so we go early reach sg customs see the queue wahhhh will die ah i and colin enjoying our wait at 1 side when the 2 guys bery poor thing hv to push bike dun care lor....but colin seem feeling sry for jerry ....haiz wat to do love birds ma....lol reach sg liao we decide to go yishun dam a while saw ah boon richard n kat there too... after awhile we go home n straight away i went straight to slp cos very very tired ahhhhhh.....dear dear slp very late again ard 2plus .....-.-''''' haiz as usual ba
Saturday, August 28, 2004
Friday, August 27, 2004
For You, My Unborn Child
You, my unborn child
Bring me hope and love
Bring me peace and joy
I dream of gazing
On your beautiful face
You have your daddy's black hair
And my big eyes
Your nose is so small
And who would have thought
That you'd have freckles already
I dream of holding you close
Watching as your tiny fingers
Grasp at everything in sight
Listening as you sing the
Contented song only an infant knows
And, should my arms never hold
You, my unborn child
I will bear this dream always
I will rock you, love you
And, I know, that I will hold
You, one day, in heaven.
For you are my unborn child
And in heaven, all dreams come true.
You, my unborn child
Bring me hope and love
Bring me peace and joy
I dream of gazing
On your beautiful face
You have your daddy's black hair
And my big eyes
Your nose is so small
And who would have thought
That you'd have freckles already
I dream of holding you close
Watching as your tiny fingers
Grasp at everything in sight
Listening as you sing the
Contented song only an infant knows
And, should my arms never hold
You, my unborn child
I will bear this dream always
I will rock you, love you
And, I know, that I will hold
You, one day, in heaven.
For you are my unborn child
And in heaven, all dreams come true.
As You Live Inside Of Me
As you live inside of me,
I wonder what you'll be?
Maybe a boy or maybe a girl,
I hope I made the right choice
by bringing you into this world.
I can't wait to see your tiny face and,
hold you in my warm embrace.
No matter what you may be,
as I feel you move inside of me,
My love for you will be the same,
Even if I don't pick the perfect name.
I guess I'll sit here and wait
I just hope you´re not too late,
as for now I'll see you soon
Love, your soon to be mother:)
As you live inside of me,
I wonder what you'll be?
Maybe a boy or maybe a girl,
I hope I made the right choice
by bringing you into this world.
I can't wait to see your tiny face and,
hold you in my warm embrace.
No matter what you may be,
as I feel you move inside of me,
My love for you will be the same,
Even if I don't pick the perfect name.
I guess I'll sit here and wait
I just hope you´re not too late,
as for now I'll see you soon
Love, your soon to be mother:)
A Chosen Child
You're a chosen child...
You're ours, by birth.
But we feel the same, we feel
You're the greatest child on earth.
You're a chosen child...
Sent down from God above.
Chosen to fill our home,
With laughter and with Love.
You're a chosen child,
You've given us so much pleasure.
Chosen above the rest,
A precious, priceless treasure.
You're a chosen child...
You're ours, by birth.
But we feel the same, we feel
You're the greatest child on earth.
You're a chosen child...
Sent down from God above.
Chosen to fill our home,
With laughter and with Love.
You're a chosen child,
You've given us so much pleasure.
Chosen above the rest,
A precious, priceless treasure.
Boy or girl? 38 fun ways to guess your baby's sex....
Will our precious one be a girl or a boy? Make a guess ba......
What could be more fun than trying to guess the sex of your baby-to-be? Everyone wants to get in the game. Don't be surprised if someone you've never met stops you at the grocery store, offering a prediction of your baby's gender. For hundreds of years, expecting moms have relied on time-tested methods of guessing their baby's sex. Even though these old wives' tales are far from foolproof, they are certainly more fun than their more reliable successors, amniocentesis and ultrasound. Enjoy guessing your baby's sex!
It's a boy if:
*You didn't experience morning sickness in early pregnancy
*Your baby's heart rate is less than 140 beats per minute
*You are carrying the extra weight out front
*Your belly looks like a basketball
*Your areola have darkened considerably
*You are carrying low
*You are craving salty or sour foods
*You are craving protein -- meats and cheese
*Your feet are colder than they were before pregnancy
*The hair on your legs has grown faster during pregnancy
*Your hands are very dry
*Your pillow faces north when you sleep
*Dad-to-be is gaining weight, right along with you
*Pregnancy has you looking better than ever
*Your urine is a bright yellow in color
*Your nose is spreading
*You hang your wedding ring over your belly, it moves in circles
*You are having headaches
*You add your age at the time of conception and the number
for the month you conceived the number is even
It's a girl if:
*You had morning sickness early in pregnancy
*Your baby's heart rate is at least 140 beats per minute
*You are carrying the weight in your hips and rear
*Your left breast is larger than your right breast
*Your hair gets red highlights
*You are carrying high
*Your belly looks like a watermelon
*You are craving sweets
*You are craving fruit
*You crave orange juice
*You don't look quite as good as normal during pregnancy
*You are moodier than usual during pregnancy
*Your face breaks out more than usual
*You refuse to eat the heel of a loaf of bread
*Your breasts have really blossomed!
*Your pillow faces south when you sleep
*Your urine is a dull yellow in color
*If you hang your wedding ring over your belly, it moves from side to side
*If you add your age at the time of conception and the number for the month you
conceived the number is odd
So to those who seen n read thru this.....guess wats the sex of my baby den....kekeke.....
Will our precious one be a girl or a boy? Make a guess ba......
What could be more fun than trying to guess the sex of your baby-to-be? Everyone wants to get in the game. Don't be surprised if someone you've never met stops you at the grocery store, offering a prediction of your baby's gender. For hundreds of years, expecting moms have relied on time-tested methods of guessing their baby's sex. Even though these old wives' tales are far from foolproof, they are certainly more fun than their more reliable successors, amniocentesis and ultrasound. Enjoy guessing your baby's sex!
It's a boy if:
*You didn't experience morning sickness in early pregnancy
*Your baby's heart rate is less than 140 beats per minute
*You are carrying the extra weight out front
*Your belly looks like a basketball
*Your areola have darkened considerably
*You are carrying low
*You are craving salty or sour foods
*You are craving protein -- meats and cheese
*Your feet are colder than they were before pregnancy
*The hair on your legs has grown faster during pregnancy
*Your hands are very dry
*Your pillow faces north when you sleep
*Dad-to-be is gaining weight, right along with you
*Pregnancy has you looking better than ever
*Your urine is a bright yellow in color
*Your nose is spreading
*You hang your wedding ring over your belly, it moves in circles
*You are having headaches
*You add your age at the time of conception and the number
for the month you conceived the number is even
It's a girl if:
*You had morning sickness early in pregnancy
*Your baby's heart rate is at least 140 beats per minute
*You are carrying the weight in your hips and rear
*Your left breast is larger than your right breast
*Your hair gets red highlights
*You are carrying high
*Your belly looks like a watermelon
*You are craving sweets
*You are craving fruit
*You crave orange juice
*You don't look quite as good as normal during pregnancy
*You are moodier than usual during pregnancy
*Your face breaks out more than usual
*You refuse to eat the heel of a loaf of bread
*Your breasts have really blossomed!
*Your pillow faces south when you sleep
*Your urine is a dull yellow in color
*If you hang your wedding ring over your belly, it moves from side to side
*If you add your age at the time of conception and the number for the month you
conceived the number is odd
So to those who seen n read thru this.....guess wats the sex of my baby den....kekeke.....
Love and Family
Child of my body Nestled beneath my heart.
Can you feel our love for you?
Can you feel our love for each other?
You are born from this love.
The greatest gift a man can give
Of himself to the one he loves.
Part of him and part of me
With God's blessing
You were formed.
Now you grow within my womb.
We both marvel at your movements.
Do you hear us talk to you with love?
Do you hear us talk to each other of love?
How we long to hold you.
A few short months to go.
Will we know how to be
Mother, Father and Child?
A family born in love.
Or will we in love
Teach each other
All that we need to know?
Child of my body Nestled beneath my heart.
Can you feel our love for you?
Can you feel our love for each other?
You are born from this love.
The greatest gift a man can give
Of himself to the one he loves.
Part of him and part of me
With God's blessing
You were formed.
Now you grow within my womb.
We both marvel at your movements.
Do you hear us talk to you with love?
Do you hear us talk to each other of love?
How we long to hold you.
A few short months to go.
Will we know how to be
Mother, Father and Child?
A family born in love.
Or will we in love
Teach each other
All that we need to know?
9 signs and symptoms of twin pregnancy
9 Signs You May Be Pregnant with Twins
1. You just feel you're carrying more than one baby. Don't disregard intuition or dreams. Some mothers of twins (or higher order multiples) say that they knew right from the start that they were carrying more than one baby.
2. You experience more nausea and/or morning sickness. If you are having more than one baby, you may also have an elevated hCG level. Higher levels of hCG also make it more likely that you will have bouts of morning (or all-day) sickness.
3. Other normal pregnancy symptoms may be exaggerated. Many women -- but not all -- who are pregnant with twins have more intense pregnancy symptoms, likely due to the extra hormones circulating through their system. You may find that your breasts are very tender, you have to urinate frequently, you are hungry all the time and you are very tired. In the second trimester, you may experience difficulty catching your breath, swelling (edema) of the hands and legs, an unusual rate of weight gain and abdominal enlargement and excessive fetal movement. Anemia or low iron (decreased hemoglobin) is also common with twin and multiple pregnancies.
4. You gain weight rapidly in your first trimester. A higher than average weight gain in the first trimester may be your first clue that you're carrying more than one baby. If you're eating well, don't be concerned: A study in the American Journal of Obstetrics and Gynecology stressed the importance of early weight gain for twin pregnancies, since weight gain in the first two trimesters was found to have the greatest impact on birth weight.
5. You measure large for gestational age. At your first exam you may be told that your uterus is "large for dates." If your last menstrual period indicates an eight-week gestation, your uterus may feel more like 10 to 12 weeks. This may prompt your care provider to request an ultrasound. As your pregnancy progresses, if you are carrying more than one baby, your fundal height (uterine measurement) will consistently measure large for gestational age. A term uterus, with one baby, may reach 38 to 40 centimeters in height, measured from the pubic bone, while a term twin pregnancy may exceed 48 centimeters.
6. You are told that you have elevated levels of AFP. Levels of alpha fetoprotein (AFP), a protein released by the baby as it grows and found in the mother's blood, can be elevated when there is more than one baby. (It can also be elevated for other reasons, such as neural tube defects.) Normally this simple blood test is given 16 to 18 weeks after your last menstrual period. Alpha fetoprotein testing detects over half of all twin pregnancies.
7. You are told you have rapidly rising hCG levels. Human Chorionic Gonadotrophin (hCG) is a hormone produced by the fertilized egg and by the chorionic villi. It is needed to maintain the pregnancy until the placenta develops. It can be detected in your blood or urine even before you miss a period. Normally in a singleton pregnancy, blood (serum) concentrations of hCG rise rapidly during the first weeks, doubling every two to three days. Levels of hCG can be even higher with twin or multiple pregnancies.
8. Your provider hears two fetal heartbeats. Two separate heartbeats can be distinguishable with a Doppler in your care provider's office by around 12 weeks. At around 28 weeks, it may be possible to differentiate two fetal heads and multiple small parts when doing an abdominal exam.
9. You have a positive ultrasound. If you believe you are indeed pregnant with twins, an ultrasound can be performed quite early in pregnancy. With a skilled ultrasonographer, two gestational sacs, two embryos and two distinct fetal heartbeats can be seen six weeks after the first day of the last menstrual period. Many twins have been diagnosed as early as five weeks -- when you're just one week late for your menstrual period.
Hmmm so my dear dear ah.....u still think we r having twins mah.....=p
9 Signs You May Be Pregnant with Twins
1. You just feel you're carrying more than one baby. Don't disregard intuition or dreams. Some mothers of twins (or higher order multiples) say that they knew right from the start that they were carrying more than one baby.
2. You experience more nausea and/or morning sickness. If you are having more than one baby, you may also have an elevated hCG level. Higher levels of hCG also make it more likely that you will have bouts of morning (or all-day) sickness.
3. Other normal pregnancy symptoms may be exaggerated. Many women -- but not all -- who are pregnant with twins have more intense pregnancy symptoms, likely due to the extra hormones circulating through their system. You may find that your breasts are very tender, you have to urinate frequently, you are hungry all the time and you are very tired. In the second trimester, you may experience difficulty catching your breath, swelling (edema) of the hands and legs, an unusual rate of weight gain and abdominal enlargement and excessive fetal movement. Anemia or low iron (decreased hemoglobin) is also common with twin and multiple pregnancies.
4. You gain weight rapidly in your first trimester. A higher than average weight gain in the first trimester may be your first clue that you're carrying more than one baby. If you're eating well, don't be concerned: A study in the American Journal of Obstetrics and Gynecology stressed the importance of early weight gain for twin pregnancies, since weight gain in the first two trimesters was found to have the greatest impact on birth weight.
5. You measure large for gestational age. At your first exam you may be told that your uterus is "large for dates." If your last menstrual period indicates an eight-week gestation, your uterus may feel more like 10 to 12 weeks. This may prompt your care provider to request an ultrasound. As your pregnancy progresses, if you are carrying more than one baby, your fundal height (uterine measurement) will consistently measure large for gestational age. A term uterus, with one baby, may reach 38 to 40 centimeters in height, measured from the pubic bone, while a term twin pregnancy may exceed 48 centimeters.
6. You are told that you have elevated levels of AFP. Levels of alpha fetoprotein (AFP), a protein released by the baby as it grows and found in the mother's blood, can be elevated when there is more than one baby. (It can also be elevated for other reasons, such as neural tube defects.) Normally this simple blood test is given 16 to 18 weeks after your last menstrual period. Alpha fetoprotein testing detects over half of all twin pregnancies.
7. You are told you have rapidly rising hCG levels. Human Chorionic Gonadotrophin (hCG) is a hormone produced by the fertilized egg and by the chorionic villi. It is needed to maintain the pregnancy until the placenta develops. It can be detected in your blood or urine even before you miss a period. Normally in a singleton pregnancy, blood (serum) concentrations of hCG rise rapidly during the first weeks, doubling every two to three days. Levels of hCG can be even higher with twin or multiple pregnancies.
8. Your provider hears two fetal heartbeats. Two separate heartbeats can be distinguishable with a Doppler in your care provider's office by around 12 weeks. At around 28 weeks, it may be possible to differentiate two fetal heads and multiple small parts when doing an abdominal exam.
9. You have a positive ultrasound. If you believe you are indeed pregnant with twins, an ultrasound can be performed quite early in pregnancy. With a skilled ultrasonographer, two gestational sacs, two embryos and two distinct fetal heartbeats can be seen six weeks after the first day of the last menstrual period. Many twins have been diagnosed as early as five weeks -- when you're just one week late for your menstrual period.
Hmmm so my dear dear ah.....u still think we r having twins mah.....=p
Thursday, August 26, 2004
My feelings are always there for you...
When I dream about you then you are there with me
When I woke up from sleep then you disappear
When I gazing at you in dream, my life fading from my veins
I wish you understand my feelings of inspirations
My loving words will make you understand
what you really mean to me
I have stolen your heart and soul even without your knowledge
Please do not ask me why I love you so much because
I have a reason to trust you and love you
My feelings are growing stronger on you with every moment
My heart glows, when I think of you
I don't know if you will ever feel the same about me
When I wake up in the morning you are my first thought
and you are the last thought in my nights
You are my soul's light which makes my life bright
You are beautiful in so many ways when I feel for you
You being a part of my life is so special to me
And that's what I always expect from you
because always my feelings are there for you
When I dream about you then you are there with me
When I woke up from sleep then you disappear
When I gazing at you in dream, my life fading from my veins
I wish you understand my feelings of inspirations
My loving words will make you understand
what you really mean to me
I have stolen your heart and soul even without your knowledge
Please do not ask me why I love you so much because
I have a reason to trust you and love you
My feelings are growing stronger on you with every moment
My heart glows, when I think of you
I don't know if you will ever feel the same about me
When I wake up in the morning you are my first thought
and you are the last thought in my nights
You are my soul's light which makes my life bright
You are beautiful in so many ways when I feel for you
You being a part of my life is so special to me
And that's what I always expect from you
because always my feelings are there for you
my feelings 4 u....
as i sit here this day,
thinking of you so far away.
with a heart so full, only 4 u,
a love that will always b true...
thinking of you so far away.
with a heart so full, only 4 u,
a love that will always b true...
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
2day is wednesday.....hmmm din write blog for 2 days liao wor.....let mi recall ah.....
monday mah.....wake up at 10am ba dear dear prep for wrk....i prep to go home.....reach home received a call frm his mum....feeling a bit upset wif wat she said cos dear dear hv nt told her abt our prob....but i was upset wif the attitude on the phone n she slam my phone i felt scared.....immmediately sms dear abt everything dat happened....den his mum called again n tok abt it again n again slam my phone which make mi feel even upset....why cant she think in a way to solve it den to tok to mi in such a harsh tone.....i couldnt stay home so i called colin n met her at her hse in sengkang
wahhhhhh took bus den LRT ....bu hao wan de...... met up wif her reach her hse saw her mum n sis at home....colin's mum she is bery cute n very very friendly keep asking mi if i wan eat this or drink dat ....ahhh feel so paiseh man.....cos came up empty handed....her sis show mi her wedding pics ....weee u weee bery pretty bride n a yandao groom too...swee ley.... but the photo album too big too bulky n heavy liao......but the shots r nice
after dat i helped colin do some research on the stuff she wanted to noe more abt as well as waited for her to get ready for wrk n pei her eat at the nearby rivervale shopping centre b4 she wrk....chat awhile den i rush home get my materials for my evening lesson.... after lesson reach home shag man bath awhile...tok to colin n dear dear in msn....dear dear onli 1 day nv see mi complain miss mi liao .......-.-'''' den i promise him tml after my evening lesson i'll rush over lor....haiz.....den dear dear wan go jb to pak petrol n buy cig....i also gt some wrk to do so waited for him till he is home frm jb....when he come home tok to him until 4am den slp.....think he will chat or surf net until 7 8 am den slp cos he off tml kekeke.....notti dear dear
as for tuesday mah.......I hv 2 lessons, 1 in the noon 1 in the evening.....shag man....went for the afternoon lesson rush back tok to dear n colin awhile rush my dinner hv a fast bath n go off ard 630pm.....went to the address i hv....it took mi awhile to find the place quite isolated man....reach the hse press the doorbell no one answered the door....called the parent the person say no such person wrong number....
but i double check the number the address is correct....OMG wat the fuck is gg on man....reach the place find nothing of course i dulan laa.....kaoz....straight away go back dear dear place.....took a bus ride there...reach home bery shag n bery bery angry ......straight away went to slp liao cos very very tired eyes wanna close le
As for 2day nt much lor.....dear dear n mi on the way to his wrkplace bery heavy rain he gt himself all wet i still gt wear jacket so nt so bad....pooor dear...... dunno he gt change his clothes bo....worried man....reach home din do much at all....cos no tuition at all....nua at home the whole day feel so boring man....haiz.....waited awhile tok to monkey in msn den followed by colin too till 4plus ....i log off the com to rest for awhile.....nothing to do again....on back the com n start searching for songs .....whole day like very sian man....haiz.....wonder tml hw man....
ard 7pm i set off to motorworld.....prep nt to meet colin n jerry 2day cos colin say nt meeting....but will be seeing my old frd Azlina....long time no see her wor....kekeke....on the way colin called mi said they r at motorworld le.....woooooo.....den someone who get sad sad liao wor .....kekeke.....opps......secret sorry ah colin.....
reach motorworld saw peter jerry as well as colin ....saw dear dear wear the stupid mechanic pants....so CUTEeeeeeeee......hee~ den Azlina also came tok to her abt her recent accident den followed by we all went scissor Cut curry rice stall at jalan besar to eat dinner .....we all chatted till suddenly heavy rain wor hv to change our sitting area cos kanna rain liao....haiz....waited quite long till the rain finally stop n all of us hv to rush home fast before heaven starts to change its mind again......-.-'''''
reach hm feel bery bery tired....tok to dear dear nicely ask mi to diam....nbz....ok lor i keep quiet lor....i go n slp n dun care abt him liao....who ask him ask mi to DIAM.....huh!!!! angry .......anyway too tired to care abt wat he doing anyway.....sleep is always a better choice.....hahaha.....
monday mah.....wake up at 10am ba dear dear prep for wrk....i prep to go home.....reach home received a call frm his mum....feeling a bit upset wif wat she said cos dear dear hv nt told her abt our prob....but i was upset wif the attitude on the phone n she slam my phone i felt scared.....immmediately sms dear abt everything dat happened....den his mum called again n tok abt it again n again slam my phone which make mi feel even upset....why cant she think in a way to solve it den to tok to mi in such a harsh tone.....i couldnt stay home so i called colin n met her at her hse in sengkang
wahhhhhh took bus den LRT ....bu hao wan de...... met up wif her reach her hse saw her mum n sis at home....colin's mum she is bery cute n very very friendly keep asking mi if i wan eat this or drink dat ....ahhh feel so paiseh man.....cos came up empty handed....her sis show mi her wedding pics ....weee u weee bery pretty bride n a yandao groom too...swee ley.... but the photo album too big too bulky n heavy liao......but the shots r nice
after dat i helped colin do some research on the stuff she wanted to noe more abt as well as waited for her to get ready for wrk n pei her eat at the nearby rivervale shopping centre b4 she wrk....chat awhile den i rush home get my materials for my evening lesson.... after lesson reach home shag man bath awhile...tok to colin n dear dear in msn....dear dear onli 1 day nv see mi complain miss mi liao .......-.-'''' den i promise him tml after my evening lesson i'll rush over lor....haiz.....den dear dear wan go jb to pak petrol n buy cig....i also gt some wrk to do so waited for him till he is home frm jb....when he come home tok to him until 4am den slp.....think he will chat or surf net until 7 8 am den slp cos he off tml kekeke.....notti dear dear
as for tuesday mah.......I hv 2 lessons, 1 in the noon 1 in the evening.....shag man....went for the afternoon lesson rush back tok to dear n colin awhile rush my dinner hv a fast bath n go off ard 630pm.....went to the address i hv....it took mi awhile to find the place quite isolated man....reach the hse press the doorbell no one answered the door....called the parent the person say no such person wrong number....
but i double check the number the address is correct....OMG wat the fuck is gg on man....reach the place find nothing of course i dulan laa.....kaoz....straight away go back dear dear place.....took a bus ride there...reach home bery shag n bery bery angry ......straight away went to slp liao cos very very tired eyes wanna close le
As for 2day nt much lor.....dear dear n mi on the way to his wrkplace bery heavy rain he gt himself all wet i still gt wear jacket so nt so bad....pooor dear...... dunno he gt change his clothes bo....worried man....reach home din do much at all....cos no tuition at all....nua at home the whole day feel so boring man....haiz.....waited awhile tok to monkey in msn den followed by colin too till 4plus ....i log off the com to rest for awhile.....nothing to do again....on back the com n start searching for songs .....whole day like very sian man....haiz.....wonder tml hw man....
ard 7pm i set off to motorworld.....prep nt to meet colin n jerry 2day cos colin say nt meeting....but will be seeing my old frd Azlina....long time no see her wor....kekeke....on the way colin called mi said they r at motorworld le.....woooooo.....den someone who get sad sad liao wor .....kekeke.....opps......secret sorry ah colin.....
reach motorworld saw peter jerry as well as colin ....saw dear dear wear the stupid mechanic pants....so CUTEeeeeeeee......hee~ den Azlina also came tok to her abt her recent accident den followed by we all went scissor Cut curry rice stall at jalan besar to eat dinner .....we all chatted till suddenly heavy rain wor hv to change our sitting area cos kanna rain liao....haiz....waited quite long till the rain finally stop n all of us hv to rush home fast before heaven starts to change its mind again......-.-'''''
reach hm feel bery bery tired....tok to dear dear nicely ask mi to diam....nbz....ok lor i keep quiet lor....i go n slp n dun care abt him liao....who ask him ask mi to DIAM.....huh!!!! angry .......anyway too tired to care abt wat he doing anyway.....sleep is always a better choice.....hahaha.....
Sunday, August 22, 2004
2day dear woke up quite early ard 7am....he gt to go wrk ard 9am so poor thing sunday still hv to wrk....i also woke up cos he bought breakfast for mi....so sweet.....den he asked mi to go back to slp cos my tuition starts at 1130am...slpt ard 9am he was prep to go liao ....i also prep myself to go out too ard 10am.....shag man....
done wif the 1st lesson followed by the next 1 at pasir ris shag man.....2 tuition lesson in a row....din eat lunch too...anyway dun feel like either...feeling tired man onli wanna slp....din do any lesson wif my student at pasir ris cos hving some discussion wif the parents over the kid's prob....quite pity her situtation n decided to help the mum more if i can....jus feel like if my own kid is like that ....hw tough would it be to bring her up ....feeling so sorry abt them n the kid man.... no matter wat i will try my best to help them ....its my duty as a teacher i supposed
After dat i went straight to dear dear hse, colin called but i was at tanah merah mrt stn wif no helmet cant meet dear at kallang mrt...no choice lor
reach home took a short bath cos weather bery hot sweat a lot....tok to rat in msn abt his prob....den wait for dear dear call....waited so long dear dear nv call feel like gg down eat liao cos bery bery hungry man....din eat in the noon time....no time to eat...haiz....den dear dear sms mi to come down to eat wif jerry n colin....we waited awhile for rat n went ABC market to makan....si bei tired n hungry man...peter came along awhile later to join us....
After dat we went tanjong rhu near cosy bay to nua ard chit chat tok cock but no sing song ah.........relax a while den went home.....immmediately i dozed off to slp bery bery shag man....... paiseh laa dear.....too tired ma...kekeke
done wif the 1st lesson followed by the next 1 at pasir ris shag man.....2 tuition lesson in a row....din eat lunch too...anyway dun feel like either...feeling tired man onli wanna slp....din do any lesson wif my student at pasir ris cos hving some discussion wif the parents over the kid's prob....quite pity her situtation n decided to help the mum more if i can....jus feel like if my own kid is like that ....hw tough would it be to bring her up ....feeling so sorry abt them n the kid man.... no matter wat i will try my best to help them ....its my duty as a teacher i supposed
After dat i went straight to dear dear hse, colin called but i was at tanah merah mrt stn wif no helmet cant meet dear at kallang mrt...no choice lor
reach home took a short bath cos weather bery hot sweat a lot....tok to rat in msn abt his prob....den wait for dear dear call....waited so long dear dear nv call feel like gg down eat liao cos bery bery hungry man....din eat in the noon time....no time to eat...haiz....den dear dear sms mi to come down to eat wif jerry n colin....we waited awhile for rat n went ABC market to makan....si bei tired n hungry man...peter came along awhile later to join us....
After dat we went tanjong rhu near cosy bay to nua ard chit chat tok cock but no sing song ah.........relax a while den went home.....immmediately i dozed off to slp bery bery shag man....... paiseh laa dear.....too tired ma...kekeke
consider yesterday liao cos is oredi 1230 am....woke up in the morning blurr blurr 1 yet rem gt tuition at 2pm....sianz.....go home see mum face even sianz......dun feel like gg home after my lesson so sms jerry n colin if they wan join mi at tamp....but think both also shag cos they wrk in the morning...i jus wandered ard awhile den went home....yet din slp....
waited till 7plus++ to go motorworld jerry ask if we wan join them for jb later at nite but i noe dear dear low cash liao so ask jerry to ask dear dear himself....cos nv noe wat his mind is thinking too....let him make the decision lor.....reach mw dear dear wash bike....while waiting saw my nu er florence n her bf....yandao wor.....kekeke....tok awhile they left too....while waiing again till dear dear is done wif his bike....i nearly doze off.....serve mi right for nt slping when i was home....
went home dear dear ride very fast think gt 120 wor.....1st time i see him ride so fast...i tot he was urgent to go else where or wat....end up buy dinner buy cig went home he said 1 thing....."damm hot laa" cos the whole afternoon at kallang stadium do the stall for he motard race.....poor thing no wonder rush home laa....
ask dear if he wans to go he say ok yet went to slp.....seeing him so tired cant bear to wake him up....i noe tml he hv to wake up bery early to report at kallang feel like sms jerry to go ahead but he woke up n try to wake himself but cant.....
no choice to sms jerry dat we aint gg....feel so bad abt it man....n so sorry too....but he is too tired to do anything nw.... no choice slp lor i hv to wrk tml morning too sianz
waited till 7plus++ to go motorworld jerry ask if we wan join them for jb later at nite but i noe dear dear low cash liao so ask jerry to ask dear dear himself....cos nv noe wat his mind is thinking too....let him make the decision lor.....reach mw dear dear wash bike....while waiting saw my nu er florence n her bf....yandao wor.....kekeke....tok awhile they left too....while waiing again till dear dear is done wif his bike....i nearly doze off.....serve mi right for nt slping when i was home....
went home dear dear ride very fast think gt 120 wor.....1st time i see him ride so fast...i tot he was urgent to go else where or wat....end up buy dinner buy cig went home he said 1 thing....."damm hot laa" cos the whole afternoon at kallang stadium do the stall for he motard race.....poor thing no wonder rush home laa....
ask dear if he wans to go he say ok yet went to slp.....seeing him so tired cant bear to wake him up....i noe tml he hv to wake up bery early to report at kallang feel like sms jerry to go ahead but he woke up n try to wake himself but cant.....
no choice to sms jerry dat we aint gg....feel so bad abt it man....n so sorry too....but he is too tired to do anything nw.... no choice slp lor i hv to wrk tml morning too sianz
Friday, August 20, 2004
yesterday fainted outside a few nice ppl sent mi to CGH ..called my doc down to acc mi while check up....when they say might warded feel so sian man try sms dear yet hp low cash value....sian 1/2....borrow my doc laptop sms him the website like nt wrking...no choice hv to ask jerry help liao ...in case of anything he noes where i am...heng nothing much they say no need but in case anything prop out must go straight to hosiptal.....
doc send mi home let mi rest.....dun really wan to go home cos mum giving black face ...but no choice doc nt free to entertain mi at her clinic...go home wait till 7pm++ den slowly go motorworld find dear dear lor....dear dear ask mi but i din say much.....still nt feeling well either....reach home...bought food...dear dear wan cig ask mi help him buy....actually i wasnt feeling well but nvm laa jus go down lor....awhile later ask mi go down buy drinks.... very sick liao still like dat den suddenly he say go wif mi...hee hee dats better laa...dear dear bery guai yesterday slpt very early wor...
2day reach home went out buy lunch my right side tummy pain until bery jia lat....nearly cant walk ....jus stand there till the pain go off slowly....dunno wats gg on man....really worry nw....
afternoon 3pm gt tuition force myself to go even though no need to walk so much but the address quite hard to find end up walking for quite some time den found the student's hse....pengz after done tok to the mum awhile try to make my way back to the bus stop try to relax myself......pain of course but try to relax hope the pain go off soon.....
reach home le really cant ta han...no choice call the parent to cancel 2nite lesson...but she requested to replace on sunday....OMG....makes no diff....i cant hv a good rest till thurs liao.....really sianz man.....sms dear dat i still in pain....rest awhile sit ard thinking abt wat happen.....painful yet dulanz......still so pain better dun go down to motorworld liao so sms dear dat i wasnt gg over....till jerry ask where we be gg i told him i be staying home cos of the pain but still will go down alone to eat ......they looked for nick at motorworld n see if dear dear wan come down for dinner as well as fetch mi home ...dear dear agreed....feel bery happy
met peter jerry colin n of course my dear dear downstairs pain was gone for 1/2 laa yet still there lor.....ate hor fan downstairs...dear dear said hor fan so oily....which i also felt so but dun wasted food ma....went home ard 10 plus....feeling very very shag....yet cant slp....acc dear till 4am++ den we both slpt....next morning wake up cfm shag man....
doc send mi home let mi rest.....dun really wan to go home cos mum giving black face ...but no choice doc nt free to entertain mi at her clinic...go home wait till 7pm++ den slowly go motorworld find dear dear lor....dear dear ask mi but i din say much.....still nt feeling well either....reach home...bought food...dear dear wan cig ask mi help him buy....actually i wasnt feeling well but nvm laa jus go down lor....awhile later ask mi go down buy drinks.... very sick liao still like dat den suddenly he say go wif mi...hee hee dats better laa...dear dear bery guai yesterday slpt very early wor...
2day reach home went out buy lunch my right side tummy pain until bery jia lat....nearly cant walk ....jus stand there till the pain go off slowly....dunno wats gg on man....really worry nw....
afternoon 3pm gt tuition force myself to go even though no need to walk so much but the address quite hard to find end up walking for quite some time den found the student's hse....pengz after done tok to the mum awhile try to make my way back to the bus stop try to relax myself......pain of course but try to relax hope the pain go off soon.....
reach home le really cant ta han...no choice call the parent to cancel 2nite lesson...but she requested to replace on sunday....OMG....makes no diff....i cant hv a good rest till thurs liao.....really sianz man.....sms dear dat i still in pain....rest awhile sit ard thinking abt wat happen.....painful yet dulanz......still so pain better dun go down to motorworld liao so sms dear dat i wasnt gg over....till jerry ask where we be gg i told him i be staying home cos of the pain but still will go down alone to eat ......they looked for nick at motorworld n see if dear dear wan come down for dinner as well as fetch mi home ...dear dear agreed....feel bery happy
met peter jerry colin n of course my dear dear downstairs pain was gone for 1/2 laa yet still there lor.....ate hor fan downstairs...dear dear said hor fan so oily....which i also felt so but dun wasted food ma....went home ard 10 plus....feeling very very shag....yet cant slp....acc dear till 4am++ den we both slpt....next morning wake up cfm shag man....
Thursday, August 19, 2004
2day is kind of a sad day 4 mi.....seeing my dear unhappy face 2day i feel so bad inside....i noe hw worry he is abt my cash flow...yet i cant do anything to help...although i got myself a few assignments but onli earn some extra hoping can save it up for bb in the future.....dear dear income onli can survive thru per mth...yet i cant get a full time job to help him out.....the more i think i the sad i feel....along the way to his wrkplace while he was riding i was crying....he din noticed at all.... i dun wan him to noe i am worry abt it too....jus dunno hw y i blame myself for being such a useless gf giving him more n more burden to carry nw....yet i cant even help him .....did i make the wrong choice by stepping into his life.....i really dunno n confused.....feel like breaking down yet i cant.....
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
TO MY LITTLE CUTIE PIE
To feel you move inside me
just takes my breath away.
The thought of holding you on my side makes
the anticipation grow more and more each day.
I dream of how wonderful this life
for you will be,
and although it has it's ups and downs
you can always count on me.
I will sacrifice more than you know
just to see you smile,
As long as you know that what I do is
because I've loved you all the while.
To feel you move inside me
just takes my breath away.
The thought of holding you on my side makes
the anticipation grow more and more each day.
I dream of how wonderful this life
for you will be,
and although it has it's ups and downs
you can always count on me.
I will sacrifice more than you know
just to see you smile,
As long as you know that what I do is
because I've loved you all the while.
You Are the One
You are the one I want.
You are the one I need.
You are the one I dream about each night.
You are the one who holds me close.
You are the one I need.
You are the one I dream about each night.
You are the one who holds me close.
Shag shag shag......bery shag ar......pregnant liao onli why must be so shag......
sianz sianz sianz.....yesterday nite bb kick mi twice but this time is 2gether shots wor.....i wonder how mani i hv inside man.......
tired man nv go jb wif dear dear 2day.....coughing non stop also dun feel like gg anywhere at all jus wan to lie ard do nothing..... haiz hv to wait for dear dear to come home safely lor....
sianz sianz sianz.....yesterday nite bb kick mi twice but this time is 2gether shots wor.....i wonder how mani i hv inside man.......
tired man nv go jb wif dear dear 2day.....coughing non stop also dun feel like gg anywhere at all jus wan to lie ard do nothing..... haiz hv to wait for dear dear to come home safely lor....
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
I really wonder when was the last time u ever read my BLOG..... when did u ever see the difference in my emotions lately?
on the 16th of july i wanna to leave...i wanna take away my n baby's life forever...yesterday was 16th of august ....yet i still feel dat deaht is the right path for mi....16th of july you sms mi how much u love mi u wanted mi back so badly u need mi so n so.... yesterday i never felt the same way like dat day.....i regret making decision for nt taking my life away ...i regret believing wat ever u said ....i regret dat i din jus off the hp n leave this world once n for all........
You r making thinking twice abt us.....abt our relationship....i've tried bery hard to be the type of gf u wanted...no throwing temper anyhow...no unnecessary quarrels over nothing major.......no embarrassing u in public....i wan onli u to be happy but end up i'm the one who is always sad....crying at nite...when u r asleep....i'm always thinking a lot of stuff when i am sleeping....i'm nt as carefree as u cos i cant.....i dun understand i am actually less impt than ur computer
I dun wish to be a vase sitting at one corner seeing u do ur "STUFF" if u think seeing u "flirting" wif the gals online is fun i doubt so.....i felt so neglected at one side when u r happily doing ur chatting....and this is how i gg to spend my days thru out everyday izzit? the onli time i feel u r mine....when u actually belong to mi onli is when we meet up wif frds.....go out riding.....i can feel ur mind is wif mi....rather than sitting there chit chatting wif those gals ....why guys r always so insensitive......if u like it den jus go ahead cos i'm sick i'm tired i'm extremely disappointed no words can describe hw i feel nw man.....
on the 16th of july i wanna to leave...i wanna take away my n baby's life forever...yesterday was 16th of august ....yet i still feel dat deaht is the right path for mi....16th of july you sms mi how much u love mi u wanted mi back so badly u need mi so n so.... yesterday i never felt the same way like dat day.....i regret making decision for nt taking my life away ...i regret believing wat ever u said ....i regret dat i din jus off the hp n leave this world once n for all........
You r making thinking twice abt us.....abt our relationship....i've tried bery hard to be the type of gf u wanted...no throwing temper anyhow...no unnecessary quarrels over nothing major.......no embarrassing u in public....i wan onli u to be happy but end up i'm the one who is always sad....crying at nite...when u r asleep....i'm always thinking a lot of stuff when i am sleeping....i'm nt as carefree as u cos i cant.....i dun understand i am actually less impt than ur computer
I dun wish to be a vase sitting at one corner seeing u do ur "STUFF" if u think seeing u "flirting" wif the gals online is fun i doubt so.....i felt so neglected at one side when u r happily doing ur chatting....and this is how i gg to spend my days thru out everyday izzit? the onli time i feel u r mine....when u actually belong to mi onli is when we meet up wif frds.....go out riding.....i can feel ur mind is wif mi....rather than sitting there chit chatting wif those gals ....why guys r always so insensitive......if u like it den jus go ahead cos i'm sick i'm tired i'm extremely disappointed no words can describe hw i feel nw man.....
Babies bring joy,
They make you happy,
They kick about in the air,
Wearing a Nappy.
Their ever smiling face,
Spreads the feeling of love,
Their shiny wonderful eyes,
Twinkle like stars above.
Babies truly are wonderful,
Brighten up your life they do,
They just do their 'baby-thing',
And entertain you.
They make you happy,
They kick about in the air,
Wearing a Nappy.
Their ever smiling face,
Spreads the feeling of love,
Their shiny wonderful eyes,
Twinkle like stars above.
Babies truly are wonderful,
Brighten up your life they do,
They just do their 'baby-thing',
And entertain you.
Monday, August 16, 2004
I can't wait
I can't wait to meet you,
I can't wait to see,
I can't wait to feel all the happiness you will bring.
I have such big plans and dreams for you,
I will sacrifice anything to make your own dreams come true.
You will be happy and healthy and free,
So baby I love you .
I can't wait until the day we meet.
I can't wait to see,
I can't wait to feel all the happiness you will bring.
I have such big plans and dreams for you,
I will sacrifice anything to make your own dreams come true.
You will be happy and healthy and free,
So baby I love you .
I can't wait until the day we meet.
If Men Got Pregnant:
Maternity leave would last two years ... with full pay There would be a cure for stretch marks Natural childbirth would become obsolete Morning sickness would rank as the nation's #1 health problem All methods of birth control would be 100% effective Children would be kept in the hospital until toilet trained Men would be eager to talk about commitment They wouldn't think twins were so cute Sons would have to be home from dates by 10:00 PM Briefcases would be used as diaper bags Paternity suits would be a fashion line of clothes They'd stay in bed during the entire pregnancy Restaurants would include ice cream and pickles as main entrees Women would rule the world!!!
Saturday, August 14, 2004
Best Day of my Life...
When you came into my life,
there wasn’t any word to explain the happiness that I had.
I really Love you.
If it isn't loving it shoulder be really deep,
long like, I never felt this way to any guy.
You are the only one I love and always will be,
till the end of my life.
You are always there for me,
and always love me even though you don’t really know me...
I always have known that you always try to express me.
But you don’t have to...
The words you said to me.
Really touch my heart.
That was the day when I felt love.
From that day on I couldn’t stop thinking about you.
At times I even cry when I'm not with you.
That’s how much I love you.
The first fight we had was the worst day of my life.
I just felt I wanna start all over.
I always pray before I sleep
that the next day will be great between the both of us....
I never want anything bad happen to you.
The love that we share is pure
Love and that’s hard to find to find in this scary world.
You will never know what’s going to happen.
But the first day we meet,
was the BEST day of my Life.
there wasn’t any word to explain the happiness that I had.
I really Love you.
If it isn't loving it shoulder be really deep,
long like, I never felt this way to any guy.
You are the only one I love and always will be,
till the end of my life.
You are always there for me,
and always love me even though you don’t really know me...
I always have known that you always try to express me.
But you don’t have to...
The words you said to me.
Really touch my heart.
That was the day when I felt love.
From that day on I couldn’t stop thinking about you.
At times I even cry when I'm not with you.
That’s how much I love you.
The first fight we had was the worst day of my life.
I just felt I wanna start all over.
I always pray before I sleep
that the next day will be great between the both of us....
I never want anything bad happen to you.
The love that we share is pure
Love and that’s hard to find to find in this scary world.
You will never know what’s going to happen.
But the first day we meet,
was the BEST day of my Life.
The day b4 thurs 12/8/04.....dear dear woke up frm his slp...guess he is still very sick...haiz....even i feel very sick too.....sianzation....
i slpt awhile more than woke up again abt an hr later....dear dear also woke up liao.....worried abt him man....geez....in my heart i cant wait to see him yet my fever is always on n off.....sobx..... finally din care much jus told him i gg over to see him after i bath n changed....he wanted mi to rest a while more b4 is set off but my heart is full of worries abt him hw to rest.....rushed over see him happily playing irc chatting wif ppl in such a ok mood.....i felt a sudden stab in my heart......passed him the panadol dat he needed n went straight to slp....but i was crying at 1 side......feeling so hurt dat he doesnt even care much except everything dat is on his com......am i always less impt than everything even a computer...he did came n sayang mi awhile and asked mi y i cried but......is nt i nv trusted him....is jus i nv have confidence in myself....everyday everynite he is right beside mi but i fear 1 day he might leave mi w/o any reasons.....i really dun hv much time to try make u love mi more.....but hopefully wat ever u say on dat day was true....nt jus wan to make mi change my mind abt death....but to let mi noe how much u love mi too.....precious moments nv last 4ever......who noes 1 day i might leave 1st.....n by den wat is left is jus memories of mi for u to nt to 4get mi....or who noes......
Yesterday friday morning 13/8/04 .....u looked even worse when u woke up....i noe u r nt feeling well at all....so i dare nt say a single word....even when u tok to mi in a bery loud tone....i bear wif it but nv wan to start any arguement cos it always happen when ever u r nt in the mood......i see u so sick i cant bear to say anything else in case i might provoke or offend u....but deep in my heart i feel pain seeing u so sick....afternoon u woke up....still seemed a bit bad mood dare nt say anything to u...jus carry on my slp cos i wasnt feeling well either....after a while u woke mi up saying wan go redhill den i say ok....all the while i din wan to say much jus hoping u can feel better....see ur usual self at the polyclinic n at the market during our late lunch makes mi feel better....n lesser worries....gone home after dat dear dear watch the movie "i robot"....where else i dun hv much mood in the movie for dat moment jus kept walking in n out of the room...dunno why too....kind of angry after i bought hor fan for dear dear....he said this stall nt nice....but i wasnt in the mood to walk a bit further up to buy frm another stall hoping he can understand....well i noe his temper jus dat cant understand y he cant be a bit more sensitive to how i feel......dats him whom i love i supposed.....
to love a person means to love him totally even his bad points as well as good points....but dear dear really treats mi well....the onli 1 who really cares for mi n loves mi n our baby (or babies....) so much.....worries is always there but hopefully we can try harder to make things work like wat u say b4.....hopefully i din regret making the choice nt to die on dat day.....hopefully u r the 1 for mi to support mi thru out this sticky moments....
i slpt awhile more than woke up again abt an hr later....dear dear also woke up liao.....worried abt him man....geez....in my heart i cant wait to see him yet my fever is always on n off.....sobx..... finally din care much jus told him i gg over to see him after i bath n changed....he wanted mi to rest a while more b4 is set off but my heart is full of worries abt him hw to rest.....rushed over see him happily playing irc chatting wif ppl in such a ok mood.....i felt a sudden stab in my heart......passed him the panadol dat he needed n went straight to slp....but i was crying at 1 side......feeling so hurt dat he doesnt even care much except everything dat is on his com......am i always less impt than everything even a computer...he did came n sayang mi awhile and asked mi y i cried but......is nt i nv trusted him....is jus i nv have confidence in myself....everyday everynite he is right beside mi but i fear 1 day he might leave mi w/o any reasons.....i really dun hv much time to try make u love mi more.....but hopefully wat ever u say on dat day was true....nt jus wan to make mi change my mind abt death....but to let mi noe how much u love mi too.....precious moments nv last 4ever......who noes 1 day i might leave 1st.....n by den wat is left is jus memories of mi for u to nt to 4get mi....or who noes......
Yesterday friday morning 13/8/04 .....u looked even worse when u woke up....i noe u r nt feeling well at all....so i dare nt say a single word....even when u tok to mi in a bery loud tone....i bear wif it but nv wan to start any arguement cos it always happen when ever u r nt in the mood......i see u so sick i cant bear to say anything else in case i might provoke or offend u....but deep in my heart i feel pain seeing u so sick....afternoon u woke up....still seemed a bit bad mood dare nt say anything to u...jus carry on my slp cos i wasnt feeling well either....after a while u woke mi up saying wan go redhill den i say ok....all the while i din wan to say much jus hoping u can feel better....see ur usual self at the polyclinic n at the market during our late lunch makes mi feel better....n lesser worries....gone home after dat dear dear watch the movie "i robot"....where else i dun hv much mood in the movie for dat moment jus kept walking in n out of the room...dunno why too....kind of angry after i bought hor fan for dear dear....he said this stall nt nice....but i wasnt in the mood to walk a bit further up to buy frm another stall hoping he can understand....well i noe his temper jus dat cant understand y he cant be a bit more sensitive to how i feel......dats him whom i love i supposed.....
to love a person means to love him totally even his bad points as well as good points....but dear dear really treats mi well....the onli 1 who really cares for mi n loves mi n our baby (or babies....) so much.....worries is always there but hopefully we can try harder to make things work like wat u say b4.....hopefully i din regret making the choice nt to die on dat day.....hopefully u r the 1 for mi to support mi thru out this sticky moments....
Thursday, August 12, 2004
haiz.....staying at home at nite....din go dear dear hse slp cos he say wan play gb wif mi....end up he is too sick to do it.....guess we shld slp separate hse 1st for 2nite cos i spreading my sickness to him ma....poor thing.....see him so suffering i feel sad....
dear dear nv off com dunno gt set alarm n slp bo....haiz.....dunno gt tell his mum to wake him up tml bo......no choice hv to wake up early n wake him up den......he so poor thing man........dunno tml can wrk or nt.......haiz.........
i miss him so much ....even though jus 1 nite......how to slp but if i dun slp my cough wont recover fast too.......sob sob....
dear dear nv off com dunno gt set alarm n slp bo....haiz.....dunno gt tell his mum to wake him up tml bo......no choice hv to wake up early n wake him up den......he so poor thing man........dunno tml can wrk or nt.......haiz.........
i miss him so much ....even though jus 1 nite......how to slp but if i dun slp my cough wont recover fast too.......sob sob....
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Time to write blog again......let mi see.....
yesterday was monday...late afternoon ard 5 plus den wake up.....meet peter jerry colin n 1 more frd nv seen him b4 at bugis....tot we supposed to go see fireworks end up nv go.....jerry n colin went off early cos jerry gt to book in for tekong...peter n frd also no where to go so all go home....si bei sian on a National Day man......kaoz
at nite reach home dear dear tok to his kan mei mei online again......feel very dulan huh! .....she very impt ar almost everyday must tok to her.....dear dear ask his bro to buy prata scare i hungry cos i onli ate 1 meal.....i refused to eat ask him ta bao to his kan mei mei hse n eat wif her laa....see her in person better ma....he say i siao......where gt siao.....every time tok to her wife put aside like invisible.....guess he noes i jealous liao....kekeke ....i also fuk care laa.....rather tok to others than mi.....nt angry meh.....
2day ma.....dear dear nt feeling well so stay at home take leave no wrk.....sick hor still can play gb 1...........he found a new game online n start playing frm the time i finish my lunch till i slpt n i woke up......lol.....playful rite? ........whole day either slp or eat.....sianz......nothing to do at all.....such a boring tuesday........SIANZ ARRRRRRR......
yesterday was monday...late afternoon ard 5 plus den wake up.....meet peter jerry colin n 1 more frd nv seen him b4 at bugis....tot we supposed to go see fireworks end up nv go.....jerry n colin went off early cos jerry gt to book in for tekong...peter n frd also no where to go so all go home....si bei sian on a National Day man......kaoz
at nite reach home dear dear tok to his kan mei mei online again......feel very dulan huh! .....she very impt ar almost everyday must tok to her.....dear dear ask his bro to buy prata scare i hungry cos i onli ate 1 meal.....i refused to eat ask him ta bao to his kan mei mei hse n eat wif her laa....see her in person better ma....he say i siao......where gt siao.....every time tok to her wife put aside like invisible.....guess he noes i jealous liao....kekeke ....i also fuk care laa.....rather tok to others than mi.....nt angry meh.....
2day ma.....dear dear nt feeling well so stay at home take leave no wrk.....sick hor still can play gb 1...........he found a new game online n start playing frm the time i finish my lunch till i slpt n i woke up......lol.....playful rite? ........whole day either slp or eat.....sianz......nothing to do at all.....such a boring tuesday........SIANZ ARRRRRRR......
Monday, August 09, 2004
To The Love Of My Life
I could tell you I loved you.
I could tell you you're my life.
I could tell you that my heart cries out for u every day!
I could tell you that in my dreams
there is only on person, YOU!
I could tell you that I was left outside alone until u came!
But I won't because I don't think that would be enough.
Not only do I want to tell you how much I love you,
I want to show you, what u mean to me!
You are the reason I live, I bread!
You are the reason my hearts keeps going on!
The reason my heart keeps beating.
The reason my body doesn’t brake down!
The reason I dream away every day!
The reason my brain stops thinking!
I never knew I could love someone
as much as I love and need you.
Please know I'll never be able to love anyone
as much as I love you. You're the only one for me.
And that's the way it will always be.
I don’t eat until I speak or see u!
I don’t pay attention to anyone, beside u!
I don’t laugh until u say a joke!
I don’t think because u are the only thing I think about!
Without u, my life feels left out and lonely
Without u, my heart would be empty and incomplete.
Without u, my life stops!
Without u, everything only goes one way DOWN!
Every memory I have of you I treasure.
Every Moment I have been with u was special,
And they will always be there!
Every thought of you is wonderful.
Every Dream of u is Memorable!
Every word that u say to me is like magic.
Every kiss that u have ever gived me is like toxic poison
Thank you for the love you have given me.
Thank you for the sweet dreams u have given me.
Thank you for the moment u spend with me!
Thank you for the lesson of my life I will never forget.
Thank you, love of my life....
I could tell you you're my life.
I could tell you that my heart cries out for u every day!
I could tell you that in my dreams
there is only on person, YOU!
I could tell you that I was left outside alone until u came!
But I won't because I don't think that would be enough.
Not only do I want to tell you how much I love you,
I want to show you, what u mean to me!
You are the reason I live, I bread!
You are the reason my hearts keeps going on!
The reason my heart keeps beating.
The reason my body doesn’t brake down!
The reason I dream away every day!
The reason my brain stops thinking!
I never knew I could love someone
as much as I love and need you.
Please know I'll never be able to love anyone
as much as I love you. You're the only one for me.
And that's the way it will always be.
I don’t eat until I speak or see u!
I don’t pay attention to anyone, beside u!
I don’t laugh until u say a joke!
I don’t think because u are the only thing I think about!
Without u, my life feels left out and lonely
Without u, my heart would be empty and incomplete.
Without u, my life stops!
Without u, everything only goes one way DOWN!
Every memory I have of you I treasure.
Every Moment I have been with u was special,
And they will always be there!
Every thought of you is wonderful.
Every Dream of u is Memorable!
Every word that u say to me is like magic.
Every kiss that u have ever gived me is like toxic poison
Thank you for the love you have given me.
Thank you for the sweet dreams u have given me.
Thank you for the moment u spend with me!
Thank you for the lesson of my life I will never forget.
Thank you, love of my life....
My love for you
somebody i love most
i never thought that i will love again
the moment i saw you,
everything has changed
i dont know why and i dont know how
all i want is to show you my love
how i wish you feel the same way
to love me like the way i do
but i know that it is impossible
the only thing i wish to let you know that
You are the one that i love the most.....
the moment i saw you,
everything has changed
i dont know why and i dont know how
all i want is to show you my love
how i wish you feel the same way
to love me like the way i do
but i know that it is impossible
the only thing i wish to let you know that
You are the one that i love the most.....
My Life is You
I'm at the verge of confusion maybe....or izzit jus my sensitiveness causing to think other ways....but wat ever it is....at this point of time n period we gg thru...yet u aint showing any signs of mature in thinking or even actions.....i'm feeling kind of back out in wat ever i had decided....is nt i dun like u making new frds or taking new "kan mei mei" or wat ever....is how u treat others than treating mi.....by the way taking kan mei mei doesnt means u can do mushy things like dat....it nt onli makes mi feel upset it makes mi feel uncertain of wat u r thinking rite nw.....i noe i am in the mid stage of pregnancy but i cannot deal wif my emotions as good as b4 this is wat i noe......if things u do u think is jus di siao-ing ppl....pls bear in mind...di siao too much can cause a lot of misunderstandings or even some consequences dat u shld noe....dun ever say things will nv happen.....maybe i got to think over abt the decision i made on the 16th july if u still rem wat happen on dat day was rite or wrong.....maybe i shld made the step into the end of life dat day....at least i feel less stress n less burden to others.....rem the message u sent mi dat day...."i'm the onli 1 who love n care you nw. dun do this to mi."....but r u still?
Pls dun take my "cant be bothered face" as u can do almost anything u wan....cos i am jus wanting u to feel free to do anything u like but nt to the extend of treating a kan mei mei like this.....maybe u 4gotten abt wat happen to mi n ur the other kan mei mei Deborah b4 rite.....I jus dun wan to make any1 feel upset over this kind of small matters....but however small matters will become big matters 1 day....u will nv noe.....there is always insecurity in mi on n off which u nv realised at all.....all u realise is my sensitiveness towards wat ever u do.....I nv will take the intiative to tell u hw i feel....i always rather keep it to myself.....rite nw i am facing almost like wat those ppl who r bankrupt r facing nw.....savings all gone....jobless.....difficult in finding a new job....losing all my confidence day by day....u nv will understand......
Almost everyday i am thinking did i made the right choice of stepping into ur life.....on the 20th dec 2002 i still rem always.....did i make u feel happy being wif mi or make u feel miserable even more....did i choose the wrong path again? i really dunno....cos at this stage of life i often get into confusion anytime of the day....always feel sick of life....maybe the day on the 16th of July i shld hv off my hp...take myself away frm u and the rest n peacefully swallow dat stupid bottle of sleeping pills dat i took frm my mum cabinet....u changed my decision dat day by telling mi hw u feel towards mi.....i was touched cos u r the 2nd person in my life i love so much except for my very 1st ex bf......u 2 walk in my life in a very unusual way....make mi love u 2 so deeply in an unusual way.....but make mi feel uncertain in an unusual way too abt our love r/s.....
Frankly speaking kind of sick of love relationship liao....i given up on feelings on love when he died so mani yrs ago....till i found u again....who can make mi settle nw 4 so long....but feelings 4 u n feelings for him at dat moment is still the same....probs always the same...cos u 2 r of the same kind of charactor....same way of dealing things....same way of treating r/s....same way of affection towards mi.....cos both of u gave mi the feeling of shld i or shld i nt step into ur life in the 1st place....
maybe u gg to say i start my crazy thinking again....but i nv think dat way....everything there is a cause den a person will feel dat way....is jus u r nt sensitive enuff to feel dat....u always see mi in happy face....joke along wif u ....teasing along wif u....but ever notice every nite there is a time when i always stare at the walls full of tears in my eyes thinking abt everything.....maybe shld send mi to "hougang chalet" would be a better choice rite?
I really missed the old times when i was so carefree.....cheong wrk play hangout wif frds wif no worries....but those were memories when i was still young nw diff liao....getting older....get to worry more yet dun see any white hair on my head.....but the question is always there....wif mi ard u really feel happy? wif mi ard u really feel u need mi? or jus a companionship? I am really confused.....
Pls dun take my "cant be bothered face" as u can do almost anything u wan....cos i am jus wanting u to feel free to do anything u like but nt to the extend of treating a kan mei mei like this.....maybe u 4gotten abt wat happen to mi n ur the other kan mei mei Deborah b4 rite.....I jus dun wan to make any1 feel upset over this kind of small matters....but however small matters will become big matters 1 day....u will nv noe.....there is always insecurity in mi on n off which u nv realised at all.....all u realise is my sensitiveness towards wat ever u do.....I nv will take the intiative to tell u hw i feel....i always rather keep it to myself.....rite nw i am facing almost like wat those ppl who r bankrupt r facing nw.....savings all gone....jobless.....difficult in finding a new job....losing all my confidence day by day....u nv will understand......
Almost everyday i am thinking did i made the right choice of stepping into ur life.....on the 20th dec 2002 i still rem always.....did i make u feel happy being wif mi or make u feel miserable even more....did i choose the wrong path again? i really dunno....cos at this stage of life i often get into confusion anytime of the day....always feel sick of life....maybe the day on the 16th of July i shld hv off my hp...take myself away frm u and the rest n peacefully swallow dat stupid bottle of sleeping pills dat i took frm my mum cabinet....u changed my decision dat day by telling mi hw u feel towards mi.....i was touched cos u r the 2nd person in my life i love so much except for my very 1st ex bf......u 2 walk in my life in a very unusual way....make mi love u 2 so deeply in an unusual way.....but make mi feel uncertain in an unusual way too abt our love r/s.....
Frankly speaking kind of sick of love relationship liao....i given up on feelings on love when he died so mani yrs ago....till i found u again....who can make mi settle nw 4 so long....but feelings 4 u n feelings for him at dat moment is still the same....probs always the same...cos u 2 r of the same kind of charactor....same way of dealing things....same way of treating r/s....same way of affection towards mi.....cos both of u gave mi the feeling of shld i or shld i nt step into ur life in the 1st place....
maybe u gg to say i start my crazy thinking again....but i nv think dat way....everything there is a cause den a person will feel dat way....is jus u r nt sensitive enuff to feel dat....u always see mi in happy face....joke along wif u ....teasing along wif u....but ever notice every nite there is a time when i always stare at the walls full of tears in my eyes thinking abt everything.....maybe shld send mi to "hougang chalet" would be a better choice rite?
I really missed the old times when i was so carefree.....cheong wrk play hangout wif frds wif no worries....but those were memories when i was still young nw diff liao....getting older....get to worry more yet dun see any white hair on my head.....but the question is always there....wif mi ard u really feel happy? wif mi ard u really feel u need mi? or jus a companionship? I am really confused.....
today is consider monday laa.....1st of all happy birthday to my pathetic country singapore btw i dun really enjoy being a singaporean lolz....
for the past few days bo write blogs wor.....but of course doesnt mean everything gone quite smoothly for the past few days too. jus lazy n no mood to write.....lolz......
let mi recall back thurs ma .....hmmm acc dear go NUH ba den follow by depot MINDEF centre submit his stuff den go home nua.....supposed to meet colin at compass point but last min nt feeling well din go lor....sry lor colin dear~~~~ jerry peter n jerry's frd was so sweet to come down tiong bahru market meet us for dinner b4 jerry go run in his bike....but kanna lectured by mi cos left his beloved shi san yi outside wandering alone by herself....so angry man.....
fri ma....let mi see.....think we meet jerry at mw den follow by to colin hse near by to fetch her to bugis for their 1 mth anniversary photo shot end up reach there the neo print shop kind of under renovation cant take pics lor....den we went this rest eat ramen.....hubby eat curry rice wif chicken colin ate quite a small portion of rice wif boiled eggs n minced meat jerry n i took the beef ramen.....quite nice laa but still think can go eat else where cheaper better....
sat ma.....meet up wif zyn baby at bedok 2gether wif jerry n colin....frm mac we move to kfc n nua den finish my whipped potato liao we proceed back to mac cos zyn wan eat icecream frm mac....actually is i wan eat laa....lolz.... ....den waited for zyn frd to fetch mi to mw....den follow by go ah neng hse BBQ....ahhhh .....eat until gt sore throat liao....sob sob.... shldnt eat so mani heaty stuff man.....nt feeling well liao....den we proceed to marina south meet their bike frds as usual....but feeling kind of sick liao....sianz....
den we went yishun dam ....reach there hubby saw his bike frds went over wif jerry to chit chat laa as usual .........waited quite long at the same time a bit nt feeling well sms him wat time he is leaving cos colin almost time to go home too....he end up ask jerry come back 1st.....kaoz..........den when he return still take his own sweet time to smk ......till jerry left still wan to chit chat......kaoz..........feel like jus leave without him man.....so dulan.....
of course i feel kind of angry cos at least he shld spare a thought for mi cos i hv bb nw....shldnt stay out so late esp i get tired easily.....as a fatherly role he shld put mi n bb in the 1 st place den his frds....but unfortunately i gt a insensitive hubby lor......who to blame.....another words blurr dad is his new nick....
sunday ma.....meet up jerry n colin at ah boy saw ah boon n calvin there too....makan liao went bugis gai gai see see look look....den went food court makan again.....kaoz.....think i pig ah..........den as usual hubby will go pak game laa.....sianz..........den went home separately cos nite time the guys gg in jb.......dats all lor dat wat happen for the past few days den....shall be back for tml or shld be 2day blog....ciao!!!
for the past few days bo write blogs wor.....but of course doesnt mean everything gone quite smoothly for the past few days too. jus lazy n no mood to write.....lolz......
let mi recall back thurs ma .....hmmm acc dear go NUH ba den follow by depot MINDEF centre submit his stuff den go home nua.....supposed to meet colin at compass point but last min nt feeling well din go lor....sry lor colin dear~~~~ jerry peter n jerry's frd was so sweet to come down tiong bahru market meet us for dinner b4 jerry go run in his bike....but kanna lectured by mi cos left his beloved shi san yi outside wandering alone by herself....so angry man.....
fri ma....let mi see.....think we meet jerry at mw den follow by to colin hse near by to fetch her to bugis for their 1 mth anniversary photo shot end up reach there the neo print shop kind of under renovation cant take pics lor....den we went this rest eat ramen.....hubby eat curry rice wif chicken colin ate quite a small portion of rice wif boiled eggs n minced meat jerry n i took the beef ramen.....quite nice laa but still think can go eat else where cheaper better....
sat ma.....meet up wif zyn baby at bedok 2gether wif jerry n colin....frm mac we move to kfc n nua den finish my whipped potato liao we proceed back to mac cos zyn wan eat icecream frm mac....actually is i wan eat laa....lolz.... ....den waited for zyn frd to fetch mi to mw....den follow by go ah neng hse BBQ....ahhhh .....eat until gt sore throat liao....sob sob.... shldnt eat so mani heaty stuff man.....nt feeling well liao....den we proceed to marina south meet their bike frds as usual....but feeling kind of sick liao....sianz....
den we went yishun dam ....reach there hubby saw his bike frds went over wif jerry to chit chat laa as usual .........waited quite long at the same time a bit nt feeling well sms him wat time he is leaving cos colin almost time to go home too....he end up ask jerry come back 1st.....kaoz..........den when he return still take his own sweet time to smk ......till jerry left still wan to chit chat......kaoz..........feel like jus leave without him man.....so dulan.....
of course i feel kind of angry cos at least he shld spare a thought for mi cos i hv bb nw....shldnt stay out so late esp i get tired easily.....as a fatherly role he shld put mi n bb in the 1 st place den his frds....but unfortunately i gt a insensitive hubby lor......who to blame.....another words blurr dad is his new nick....
sunday ma.....meet up jerry n colin at ah boy saw ah boon n calvin there too....makan liao went bugis gai gai see see look look....den went food court makan again.....kaoz.....think i pig ah..........den as usual hubby will go pak game laa.....sianz..........den went home separately cos nite time the guys gg in jb.......dats all lor dat wat happen for the past few days den....shall be back for tml or shld be 2day blog....ciao!!!
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
Yesterday morning went for my interview...seems to be quite ok but the supervisor hv to seek the opinion of the managment 1st b4 she can give mi an answer....well anyway....still can seek for other jobs at the same time too who noes i can get 1 2day....
After dat reach home .... arranged for another interview at hougang area but last min cancelled cos they found someone liao....well supposed to meet colin at compass point instead (sengkang) end up meet up at bedok central lor.....mi so slpy went to slp immediately b4 meeting her later at 5pm. Suddenly i heard a loud ringing tone....i seems to hv difficulties in finding my hp....n den i woke up realised i was playing "hide & seek" wif my hp which 1 onli lying beside onli......am i dreaming?
Change plan....met up wif colin at 630pm at bedok central.....i was eating a BAO when she reach bedok...hee hee hee paiseh laa hungry ma.....
I finally ate my fav food "XIAN YU ROU BING FAN" salted fish wif minced pork rice.......kekeke.....happy liao lor......opps......heee.....
Den we walked ard bedok central cos i was waiting for my dearest nu er RAIN to come down Tamp Mall to meet us......nbz nv even return calls or sms....kaoz..... Make us walk round n round end up we decide to take mrt go Tamp mall to "nua".....lolz.....cos we both si bei nua queen......
walked ard tamp mall awhile....decide to stay put at a "BU SHI REN DE PLACE" .....onli i n colin noes where is it....lolz
Nua ard a bit till jerry called up report.......n den my dear dear also report.......den stay a while went downstairs get some egg tarts for dear den take mrt home....sianz frm tamp to tiong bahru arrrrrrrrr .....
Heng the whole journey abt 1/2 hr onli nt too bad....haiz.....but reached home very shag liao...maybe walk ard too much liao......dear dear complained leg pain cos he hurt himself during soccer.....den help him apply oinment lor.....den he slpt quite early cos whole body shag too....
Tok to colin thru msn a while n went straight to slp.....bery bery tired ar....
After dat reach home .... arranged for another interview at hougang area but last min cancelled cos they found someone liao....well supposed to meet colin at compass point instead (sengkang) end up meet up at bedok central lor.....mi so slpy went to slp immediately b4 meeting her later at 5pm. Suddenly i heard a loud ringing tone....i seems to hv difficulties in finding my hp....n den i woke up realised i was playing "hide & seek" wif my hp which 1 onli lying beside onli......am i dreaming?
Change plan....met up wif colin at 630pm at bedok central.....i was eating a BAO when she reach bedok...hee hee hee paiseh laa hungry ma.....
I finally ate my fav food "XIAN YU ROU BING FAN" salted fish wif minced pork rice.......kekeke.....happy liao lor......opps......heee.....
Den we walked ard bedok central cos i was waiting for my dearest nu er RAIN to come down Tamp Mall to meet us......nbz nv even return calls or sms....kaoz..... Make us walk round n round end up we decide to take mrt go Tamp mall to "nua".....lolz.....cos we both si bei nua queen......
walked ard tamp mall awhile....decide to stay put at a "BU SHI REN DE PLACE" .....onli i n colin noes where is it....lolz
Nua ard a bit till jerry called up report.......n den my dear dear also report.......den stay a while went downstairs get some egg tarts for dear den take mrt home....sianz frm tamp to tiong bahru arrrrrrrrr .....
Heng the whole journey abt 1/2 hr onli nt too bad....haiz.....but reached home very shag liao...maybe walk ard too much liao......dear dear complained leg pain cos he hurt himself during soccer.....den help him apply oinment lor.....den he slpt quite early cos whole body shag too....
Tok to colin thru msn a while n went straight to slp.....bery bery tired ar....
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
the following day sat was a boring day cos cant go anywhere do anything onli can stay at home.....the whole day tink abt dear dear cos he will be staying in.....sobx sobx
colin said wanna find mi eat dinner again wif jerry.....wah kok these 2 couple ar....give them time go pak tor dun wan come down pei this pregnant woman eat dinner ar....damm sweet man......but jerry took bery long to reach my hse.....stomach growling liao wor......kaoz.....HUNGRY MAN!!!!! lol....
ate dinner 2gether...chit chat as usual....find these 2 couple bery cute....but yet very very loving wor....colin must be happy to hv this caring n sweet bf.....kekekeke
quite late liao wor....of course they shld be on their way home n mi too if nt someone gg to nag at mi.....( @@ Dear) kekeke.....
i think once we reach home awhile more ....rat called up say wan meet up mai....i told him nick stay in....den he ask mi if i wan go for kopi but think twice if i go GAN MAMA will nag even more....lol so din go lor ask rat come home play gb better.....hee~~
colin said wanna find mi eat dinner again wif jerry.....wah kok these 2 couple ar....give them time go pak tor dun wan come down pei this pregnant woman eat dinner ar....damm sweet man......but jerry took bery long to reach my hse.....stomach growling liao wor......kaoz.....HUNGRY MAN!!!!! lol....
ate dinner 2gether...chit chat as usual....find these 2 couple bery cute....but yet very very loving wor....colin must be happy to hv this caring n sweet bf.....kekekeke
quite late liao wor....of course they shld be on their way home n mi too if nt someone gg to nag at mi.....( @@ Dear) kekeke.....
i think once we reach home awhile more ....rat called up say wan meet up mai....i told him nick stay in....den he ask mi if i wan go for kopi but think twice if i go GAN MAMA will nag even more....lol so din go lor ask rat come home play gb better.....hee~~
Morning.....this time wrote my 1st blog for 2day....tues 3th Aug 2004.....well nt much to say....slpt well cos dear dear hug mi to slp all the way.....hee
feel happy lor cos i tot he was angry wif mi or wat man haiz.....anyway.....morning woke up early jus to wake him up as usual.....he ar keep saying "still early still early" ard 645am den start to wake up smk n bath.....buai ta han him.....if i really start work hw he gg to make it for work man.....PENGZ.....
he hurried by packing all his stuff dat he need for 2day use as well as his clothes for D&D....haiz......dunno wat time he be back home also....maybe jus go over 1st n give him a surprise attack ba.....see gt bring zha bor home...... hee hee hee
as for mi .....fully prep to go interview liao....so wish mi good luck man.....yeah JIA YOU JIA YOU WOR.......kaoz bu yao lian ask myself JIA YOU......lol
2day must die die eat XIAN YU ROU BING FAN~~~~~ I DUN CARE LIAO...... hee hee....
feel happy lor cos i tot he was angry wif mi or wat man haiz.....anyway.....morning woke up early jus to wake him up as usual.....he ar keep saying "still early still early" ard 645am den start to wake up smk n bath.....buai ta han him.....if i really start work hw he gg to make it for work man.....PENGZ.....
he hurried by packing all his stuff dat he need for 2day use as well as his clothes for D&D....haiz......dunno wat time he be back home also....maybe jus go over 1st n give him a surprise attack ba.....see gt bring zha bor home...... hee hee hee
as for mi .....fully prep to go interview liao....so wish mi good luck man.....yeah JIA YOU JIA YOU WOR.......kaoz bu yao lian ask myself JIA YOU......lol
2day must die die eat XIAN YU ROU BING FAN~~~~~ I DUN CARE LIAO...... hee hee....
WAH KOK....1 short write abt wat happened on fri sat ......nw is sunday......arrrrr.....sunday of course dear dear come home as usual laa.....as usual he requested for cig n food...but i told him we r gg broke liao i cant buy cig....he suddenly say nvm bo pian lor....i was kind of hmmmm.....is he trying to change becos of our little 1 keke.....who noes?
dear dear kind of tired wor slpt very early ard 4plus in the afternoon......as usual our very sweet n loving couple TOM & JERRY.....opps wrong number .... is colin & jerry wan meet us for dinner.....told dear dear when he woke up if he wan to join.....even noe he gave mi the "dunno" sign i noe he dun wan to go anywhere so din force him lor....i went down myself to meet them AS USUAL.....oei guys seems like i been seeing u 2 everyday ley.....
PENGZ.......
after dat jerry jio jb .....jerry n dear dear go jb pak petrol den come back quite fast lor......mi ley stay home be miss piggy laa....lolz...
dear dear kind of tired wor slpt very early ard 4plus in the afternoon......as usual our very sweet n loving couple TOM & JERRY.....opps wrong number .... is colin & jerry wan meet us for dinner.....told dear dear when he woke up if he wan to join.....even noe he gave mi the "dunno" sign i noe he dun wan to go anywhere so din force him lor....i went down myself to meet them AS USUAL.....oei guys seems like i been seeing u 2 everyday ley.....
PENGZ.......
after dat jerry jio jb .....jerry n dear dear go jb pak petrol den come back quite fast lor......mi ley stay home be miss piggy laa....lolz...
the following day sat was a boring day cos cant go anywhere do anything onli can stay at home.....the whole day tink abt dear dear cos he will be staying in.....sobx sobx
colin said wanna find mi eat dinner again wif jerry.....wah kok these 2 couple ar....give them time go pak tor dun wan come down pei this pregnant woman eat dinner ar....damm sweet man......but jerry took bery long to reach my hse.....stomach growling liao wor......kaoz.....HUNGRY MAN!!!!! lol....
ate dinner 2gether...chit chat as usual....find these 2 couple bery cute....but yet very very loving wor....colin must be happy to hv this caring n sweet bf.....kekekeke
quite late liao wor....of course they shld be on their way home n mi too if nt someone gg to nag at mi.....( @@ Dear) kekeke.....
i think once we reach home awhile more ....rat called up say wan meet up mai....i told him nick stay in....den he ask mi if i wan go for kopi but think twice if i go GAN MAMA will nag even more....lol so din go lor ask rat come home play gb better.....hee...
colin said wanna find mi eat dinner again wif jerry.....wah kok these 2 couple ar....give them time go pak tor dun wan come down pei this pregnant woman eat dinner ar....damm sweet man......but jerry took bery long to reach my hse.....stomach growling liao wor......kaoz.....HUNGRY MAN!!!!! lol....
ate dinner 2gether...chit chat as usual....find these 2 couple bery cute....but yet very very loving wor....colin must be happy to hv this caring n sweet bf.....kekekeke
quite late liao wor....of course they shld be on their way home n mi too if nt someone gg to nag at mi.....( @@ Dear) kekeke.....
i think once we reach home awhile more ....rat called up say wan meet up mai....i told him nick stay in....den he ask mi if i wan go for kopi but think twice if i go GAN MAMA will nag even more....lol so din go lor ask rat come home play gb better.....hee...
after the procedure...my doc send mi home...feeling kind of weak n seh seh ....dear dear also reach home liao....told him everything....he sound worried but i ensure him i will be ok.....he said if nt feeling well dun move abt lor....stay put at home lor....nt gg to see him so sian.....the next day which is a sat he gt to stay in camp cant see him again even more sian....ARRRRR.....
play awhile gb wif dear dear den colin n jerry were on their way down to "visit" this patient....lol.....acc mi eat dinner ....so sweet couple.....chit chat wif them a while ba i tink.... or quite long ar.....4get liao ....lolz......but i noe dear dear at home waiting for us to gb.....lol...
colin n jerry went home.....dear dear complained hungry .....see him hungry i feel heart pain cos i cant go over n buy him food.....dunno he gt money to eat or nt also.....sobx....
waited till colin n jerry were home we 4 play gb a while ba din wan dear dear to play too long cos the next day he need to wake up early....kept reminding him to ask his mum to wake him up if nt he sure late 1 he so piggy type....haiz.....finish a few rounds of gb.....we all start toking on msn....den he said he is eating....heng ar.....i tot he gg to starve himself......if he does i sure rush down buy him food.....fuk care i pain or nt liao.....cos he is the most impt person in my life right nw.....dats wat he said b4 too ar......i rem his sms dat day k......
play awhile gb wif dear dear den colin n jerry were on their way down to "visit" this patient....lol.....acc mi eat dinner ....so sweet couple.....chit chat wif them a while ba i tink.... or quite long ar.....4get liao ....lolz......but i noe dear dear at home waiting for us to gb.....lol...
colin n jerry went home.....dear dear complained hungry .....see him hungry i feel heart pain cos i cant go over n buy him food.....dunno he gt money to eat or nt also.....sobx....
waited till colin n jerry were home we 4 play gb a while ba din wan dear dear to play too long cos the next day he need to wake up early....kept reminding him to ask his mum to wake him up if nt he sure late 1 he so piggy type....haiz.....finish a few rounds of gb.....we all start toking on msn....den he said he is eating....heng ar.....i tot he gg to starve himself......if he does i sure rush down buy him food.....fuk care i pain or nt liao.....cos he is the most impt person in my life right nw.....dats wat he said b4 too ar......i rem his sms dat day k......
the whole day at KK was quite fun though even dear dear is nt wif mi at dat moment....i was trying to move ard wif my wheel chair exploring the new hospital...trying to check out gt wat diff between the old n new kk.....
reach ground floor onli kanna caught by my doc....nbz suay man.... she pushes mi back to my room ask mi to stay put in her office den i complain bored....den she lend mi her laptop to surf net.....hee hee hee....dl a lot of stuff man....ti ti sms jerry abt wat i did in the hospital .....guess jerry n colin watched movie n see my sms at the same time sure shocked 1....they sure say wah kok this jane is even worse than nick....lol
idle ard play wif her laptop kind of bored liao....my doc came in say wan mi get warded but i die die dun wan cos no fever le ma.....she says she try to let mi go home rest as long as i promised to stay put at home.....dun anyhw move ard.....i lan lan hv to agree ma....
reach ground floor onli kanna caught by my doc....nbz suay man.... she pushes mi back to my room ask mi to stay put in her office den i complain bored....den she lend mi her laptop to surf net.....hee hee hee....dl a lot of stuff man....ti ti sms jerry abt wat i did in the hospital .....guess jerry n colin watched movie n see my sms at the same time sure shocked 1....they sure say wah kok this jane is even worse than nick....lol
idle ard play wif her laptop kind of bored liao....my doc came in say wan mi get warded but i die die dun wan cos no fever le ma.....she says she try to let mi go home rest as long as i promised to stay put at home.....dun anyhw move ard.....i lan lan hv to agree ma....
ok where shld i start.....i ended when i complained abt the tummy pain....went to see doc on friday morning....doc said i might miscarriage....the moment i heard i fainted on the spot.....cos i cant lose this precious 1....is the onli thing i can give my dear dear in case i no longer exist in this world...who noes jus 1 day my heart stops n i leave this world 4ever....u will nv noe.....will u?
woke up found myself at kk hospital...ARGHHHHHH.....i hate to stay in hospital......try to get up find myself in great pain as well as bery high fever....doc say i cant take panadol so take cold shower to make my temperature go down.....SUPERRRRRR COLDDDDDDDD man.....
fever went down after a long time stil lying ard nt able to move.....feeling kind of scare cos there is no way to contact dear except colin n jerry.....but the onli person i wish to see is him.......i scare if anything happen to mi or baby .....he is alone by himself.....tink of this remind mi of when i was tinking of killing myself dat time.....i couldnt let him go.....i cant bear to leave him jus like dat!
woke up found myself at kk hospital...ARGHHHHHH.....i hate to stay in hospital......try to get up find myself in great pain as well as bery high fever....doc say i cant take panadol so take cold shower to make my temperature go down.....SUPERRRRRR COLDDDDDDDD man.....
fever went down after a long time stil lying ard nt able to move.....feeling kind of scare cos there is no way to contact dear except colin n jerry.....but the onli person i wish to see is him.......i scare if anything happen to mi or baby .....he is alone by himself.....tink of this remind mi of when i was tinking of killing myself dat time.....i couldnt let him go.....i cant bear to leave him jus like dat!
monday blues....as usual....dear dear go camp ....i supposed to go interview last min cancel postpone to tml.....went for my check up....everything is ok ....HENG AR..... dun let mi go KK or else i play wheelie again....
waited for dear to come home ....he said 5 pm can go home but waited so long also no sign of him.....n i was SUPER HUNGRY LOR.....
finally he online ask mi whether i coming over....i told him jerry they all meeting us for dinner ....i noe he dun wan to cos he find himself leong liao doesnt wan to go anywhere except home....trying to save money n cig too.....see him like dat even more heart pain.....
ask him where he wish to go...he ask mi where to go...kaoz he noes i hate him always push the decision to mi n if i did it wrongly he will blame mi....all kind of stuff dats why ask him decide....end up both side dunno where to go ....i gave up liao told dear dear i gg over tiong bahru wan go where or nt meeting he decide.....of course feel kind of dulan laa but i noe hw he feel....
met up wif colin jerry colin's sis n bro in law and dear dear at the mrt exit....kind of surprised this fellow will come down meet mi b4 i go up call him come down.....hmmmm diff wor.....suddenly so nice to mi ...why ar?
we all went tiong bahru market eat n chit chat....colin's sis n bro in law r very nice ppl to hang out wif....hopefully gt the chance to meet up more too....dear dear seems enjoying toking to colin's bro in law....poor jerry ti ti tio "attack" by 3 women.....hee hee hee.....nv offend women wor......
went home liao i busy help dear dear wash his shirt n shorts for tml use.....as well as iron his shirt n jeans for tml D&D....wah kok tired sia..... suddenly i onli jus took over the com to tok to colin 4 awhile.....dear dear show mi a kind of face like nt happy abt something.....he looked at the msn a while n walk away....kind of hurt mi in some ways lor....wat did i do wrong man? He came into the room din say a word went to slp ask him wat happen he say nothing....i felt terrible man.....did i do something wrong? if really dun wan see mi ard can dun bother to ask mi come over anyway....blar blar blar.....keep thinking abt all those nonsense n start crying n he oredi in hisdreams.....
i really dunno but jus sit 1 side n cry n tink if i did say anything wrong or done anything wrong......nothing i can tink of........fuk man......sometimes jus dun understand y dear dear sometimes can be so weird he can be bery nice to mi but sometimes when he started to shout at mi....i cant bear but cry out which he dun like mi to cry at all......i feel i understand him well yet sometimes he is seem so hard to catch......
waited for dear to come home ....he said 5 pm can go home but waited so long also no sign of him.....n i was SUPER HUNGRY LOR.....
finally he online ask mi whether i coming over....i told him jerry they all meeting us for dinner ....i noe he dun wan to cos he find himself leong liao doesnt wan to go anywhere except home....trying to save money n cig too.....see him like dat even more heart pain.....
ask him where he wish to go...he ask mi where to go...kaoz he noes i hate him always push the decision to mi n if i did it wrongly he will blame mi....all kind of stuff dats why ask him decide....end up both side dunno where to go ....i gave up liao told dear dear i gg over tiong bahru wan go where or nt meeting he decide.....of course feel kind of dulan laa but i noe hw he feel....
met up wif colin jerry colin's sis n bro in law and dear dear at the mrt exit....kind of surprised this fellow will come down meet mi b4 i go up call him come down.....hmmmm diff wor.....suddenly so nice to mi ...why ar?
we all went tiong bahru market eat n chit chat....colin's sis n bro in law r very nice ppl to hang out wif....hopefully gt the chance to meet up more too....dear dear seems enjoying toking to colin's bro in law....poor jerry ti ti tio "attack" by 3 women.....hee hee hee.....nv offend women wor......
went home liao i busy help dear dear wash his shirt n shorts for tml use.....as well as iron his shirt n jeans for tml D&D....wah kok tired sia..... suddenly i onli jus took over the com to tok to colin 4 awhile.....dear dear show mi a kind of face like nt happy abt something.....he looked at the msn a while n walk away....kind of hurt mi in some ways lor....wat did i do wrong man? He came into the room din say a word went to slp ask him wat happen he say nothing....i felt terrible man.....did i do something wrong? if really dun wan see mi ard can dun bother to ask mi come over anyway....blar blar blar.....keep thinking abt all those nonsense n start crying n he oredi in hisdreams.....
i really dunno but jus sit 1 side n cry n tink if i did say anything wrong or done anything wrong......nothing i can tink of........fuk man......sometimes jus dun understand y dear dear sometimes can be so weird he can be bery nice to mi but sometimes when he started to shout at mi....i cant bear but cry out which he dun like mi to cry at all......i feel i understand him well yet sometimes he is seem so hard to catch......