yesterday went 4 few interviews yet sick n tired....dear dear called say he can come back but dunno wat time ask mi come over 1st.....i told him wont be so fast cos helmet nt wif mi i nt at his hse......he started toking so loudly tot i will go home n tell his mum abt it.....fuk man....why everything i must do 4 him....y he nv ask wat happen 1st....i wanted to go but on th bus i overslept and cant turn back cos it gg towards my hse area liao.....by den wat time liao.....went all the way to his hse feed his fish told his mum and his mum n bro follow to see him also kanna scold......wat did i do wrong? i still gt interviews to go in the morning n i oredi missed a few the day before he warded at NUH.....den my fault again....
i felt like walking away if i am such a nuisance to him or a bother to him....but i cant bear to do it......no 1 will be there 4 him but i cant stand it so i cried.....cos i feel bad also but i din meant it....i am extremely sick oredi.....i dun understand why everything must i do it 4 him.....i really dunno wat to say...even i say also quarrel wat for den.....
we waited till he is able to discharge frm NUH.......walk ard looking for the carpark dat he park his bike.....he becomes a bit better by toking to mi in softer tone....ask mi wanna buy carrot cake n eat .....but at the moment ...i feel extremely sad no mood to eat or tok to anyone even him.....took his bike home .....walk ard see fish again as usual....he starts to hold my hands to make mi feel better but by den i oredi ok jus still sick n sian.....i wont get angry wif him dat long always cos no point....always after a while i feel ok.....i noe him well enuff......n i noe he din mean it too......
went home i ate lunch 1st....he went down stairs meet campmate i tink....so i went straight to slp cos cant stand the fever liao.....slp so long also dunno cos he ard 5 plus den come home......ate his late lunch den we meet jerry n colin at 7 for dinner at the small hawker at queenstown........had a nice time wif them but still feel very sick esp kept raining.......haiz.......
reach home feel uncomfortable again.....this time is my tummy start to pain off n on......dunno why but getting a bit scare cos i dun wish to lose this bb.....its our precious little 1......i dun wan anything to happen to him......n i noe dear dear also looking forward to see him........whole nite cant even slp well......gt to see doc again today .............sianz............see hw den.........hope i feel better den.........