Its been so long since I wrote a blog....Its time to write 1 nw....This is for u to see Dear....U kept asking mi why I am doing this to myself yet... I cant tell cos I dunno hw to tell....I am ashamed n unable to face u becos I made such a foolish decision by leaving u behind taking all my pain n sorrow away.......I felt like a big burden to u....cant find a proper job cant help u financially cant cope wif my own stress n add on to ur stress more n more....I am so insensitive, ignorance & naive to think by leaving u n the rest will solve this prob....I am stupid right?
You noe I love u more than anyone in this world...except my precious 1 at home.....2 of u were the most impt people in my life....Yet I can let u 2 down....Am I a disgrace to all? I feel so useless in everything I do.....I tot every 1 in this world doesnt welcome mi at all.....No 1 will ever care abt mi..... No 1 will ever remember there is such a person like mi....
I'm sry dat I let you down & I promised nt to do it again anymore...... I finally realised the moment I was abt to step into death.....The 1 who actually turn my decision ard was u...... I couldnt let u go..... My mind kept thinking of u.... I was deceiving myself dat I could let go.... yet I cant....... I was so foolish to hurt u so much ..... by doing this I was actually hurting u more n more...... yet I was so stubborn to leave behind everything including u.....
I was facing a lot of stress lately ..... n I noe u r facing a lot lately too.... Ur work, u gg reservice 4 almost a mth, ur family n more..... I was the 1 who can make u feel better yet I made it even worst....... I was so stupid..... Just becos I cant managed my own stress..... I was breaking down I cant tell u at all.... Cos I worried u worry more n get more stress...... I never wan to leave u or anyone..... I really do wan to be wif u 4ever..... n ever...... n ever.......
I wan to create a better future wif u jus dat I was so helpless.... So mani things happened lately........ I felt so depressed.....so upset over it......... yet I dare nt say cos u r stress too........I wan to see u happy........ It really hurt mi to see u sad ......never will I wan to make u sad anymore..... at least this is something I can do right?
No matter wat happen next ...... I will stick wif u n accompany u & face the prob wif u & solve the prob wif u ..... Never will I wan to walk away frm ur life anymore...... I LOVE U ALWAYS DEAR!!!