Friday le~~~its new year eve 7 early 8 early woke up by Princess Dior...wow wat a heavy rain...shit i wonder hw my dear dear gg to wrk man...=(
I woke up yet felt so sleepy cos i din get enuff slp the whole night...my Dearest princess kept waking us up till i was a bit fed up...yet i cant get angry wif her cos she is still small...i cant bear to be mad wif her too as well...=x
Dear woke up n get rdy for wrk...i went back to slp...kanna woke up by him again...to go down help him fetch his "BRA" up...his bike 4ever impt than mi laa...in the lift dear dear hug hug mi...hee hee~ felt so loved lor....=x opps buai paiseh de...lolz...
helped him to remove his "BRA"...den he started searching his bike 4 something...chey i tot wat...small pack of cig...-.-'''
chatted wif him awhile while he smk n warm up his bike...so long nv pillion on his bike le...so sianz....waited till he left den i went up...think i catch cold but got huggies frm dear nvm laa...=x

Thursday...nothing much happened...as usual lor...eat slp n serve my dearest princess Dior...=x
princess wasnt so cranky as last few days...she kind of hving stomach discomfort...so kept crying on & off...2day she felt much better...but still bery unsecure when slping alone...jus loud noises wakes her up immediately...sianz man...
Partially hv to blame the adults ard us...at least tok softly or watch tv slightly softer in noise level will at least help mi in handling her better...wat to do...=(
2 more days to new year...everyone starts to plan their programs 4 the new year eve...wat else can i do? stay at hm n confinement lor...feels like kanna trap in jail man...sianz ahhhhh.....
nothing much to write liao...we'll see if there is anything special tml ba...=)

wednesday...my dear dear bd lor....finally...he ah complained last nite no present no cake 4 him....hee hee~~ never expect us to plan a surprise for u ba...=x
but 2day quite torturing n suffering cos while waiting for dear dear to off wrk...i had chest pain as well as feeling breathless at hm ard 3plus ba...feeling very very uncomfortable...heng got army pei wo tok...helped mi sms rat see if he could come down acc mi go see doc...but think he was busy end up i went myself... had an injection to hv it under control in case i have an attack anytime...thks wor army for being there 4 mi when i needed someone to tok to...so sweet of her...thks for ur concern too...=)
rest awhile ba...colin n rat were getting ready wif our plan...rat met dear at mw...colin met mi at dear hse...she acc mi get bb stuff den waited downstairs for the "VIP" to come n receive his surprise...rat n dear reached our hse downstairs...saw us sitting n waiting for them ...dear was surprised to see us prep wif a cake as well as a present 4 his bd...he din expect us to do so i guessed...kept on kpkb dat we shldnt spent the money on tis unnecessary stuff but i felt is impt cos ning ning celebrating his bd 1st time after she is born...its so meaningful 4 us...good memories too dat we also hv 2 of our close frds ard to do it wif us...thks to colin n rat...its simple but i'm glad dear is happy today...at least this is the least i can do for his bd tis yr...hoping next yr when things r better...i prep something better for u ba dear dear....=)
after dat we 4 went to kopitiam la kopi eat dinner...den follow by rat n dear wan go jb....chatted wif colin n army all the way till dear is home...dear saw mi din slp ask mi y i aint slping...i said i was toking to the gals...actually he noes i worried abt him cant slp...=x
another day is gone...2 more days to new yr le...new yr new hope new wishes new stuff coming up...may all the best come to u all...best wishes n greetings to the coming new yr to all...=)

Mi y "7 early 8 early"(qi zhao ba zhao) wake up ah....cos kanna di siao by 2 ppl...1 hungry baby & 1 horny man...=x
hee hee hee~~ tml is someone's special day yet he dunno i am planning something for him...even though i cant give him the best...but i dun wish to see him miss it again tis yr...the most next yr mi n ning ning will do a proper 1 4 him jus the 3 of us...=)
wat did i n my good frds had planned? stay tuned n find out more ba...=x

Another 5 more days is my princess's full month celebration...cant wait to see u guys on dat day...frds who hvnt met 4 mths or yrs perhaps...or seldom meet up wif us due to biz schedule...tis is the time to tok cock n see my precious baobei...happy to see my baobei growing up so fast...still rem hw she look like when she was jus born...small small de...but look like a baby monkey...=x nw she looks so cuteeeee...when ever i look at her...my heart melts straight away...she slp in such a cute way...she looks at u in such a cute way...she smile in dat cheeky look...so cuteeeeeeeeeeee...or looking at u eyes big big lips like O shaped even more cuteeeeeeeee...wahahahaha...tis mummy ki siao le...lolz... but seeing her growing everyday makes mi feel i have accomplished a mission le...feel so proud...=) cant wait to see her start walking n talking...hur hur think too far le...but will happen soon...cos babies grow bery fast de...=)

Monday Blues~~hmmmm went backt o mum's place...mum was glad to see her bao bei granddaughter as usual...pengz!!! why ppl see my baobei all like "aiyoyo so cuteeeeeeeeee"...pengz!! she is mine dun touchie her....=x
den left her wif mum awhile...which izzit awhile cos meeting dear at mw to acc him go CPF building do his ers...why must go meet him? cos he is a "LU CHI"...pengz!!! dunno how to go tamp CPF building...kaoz!! really "lu chi" until bery jia lat man....pengz!! bth him ah....
went mw waited 4 1 hr den he was done wif 2 super4...nbz...CPF also must queue up de ley...think he own the govt meh...reached there see the fuking long queue sianz liao...heng the procedure done was fast...if nt wait like siao...went to nearby kopitiam see him eat lunch...dunno why i dun wan eat...nt hungry wor...he started to nag at mi say cannot dun eat de...=x
after dat we rushed back to mw...on the way got 1 s4 vtec de wif wordings "back off" on his rear lights...wanna play wif dear nearly hit us...i feel like zham his bike liao... nb ccb... opps paiseh paiseh...=x
dear drop mi outside n i rushed home to see my princess...knn tio heavy rain...sibei suay man...hv to wait till the rain stop den can go back dear hse...back le wanna cook rice 4 dinner...princess become bery cranky...dun wan mi leave her alone... keep on carrying her....haiz...who ask mi to be her mummy ma...24 hrs on called de...=x
i and dear ate the herbal chicken cooked by his mum...yummy yum yum~~ nice wor but bery big de pot can eat for days man....-.-'''
nw ley dear n rat went jb... i am alone wif princess as usual but will be kooning soon...nites n sweet dreams all...ZZzzzzzzZZZzzz........

sianz ah....sunday most boring day of all...y ley? cos i take care of ning myself while her dad play his comp whole day la...pengz...
kind of sick again...nt feeling well again...guess fever coming back...bth le den rest wif princess till 8pm ba...kanna woke up by dear...went down buy stuff to cook dinner...tot he cook why i go down ah...nbz...
he say wanna cook end up hook onto gb...nbz...mai wait liao i cook laa...kaoz...
dear complained nt feeling well went to slp early...kaoz i think i more sick than him yet hv to serve both of them...hai you tian li ma!!!!....=x
time to slp le if nt both pigs gonna take over the whole bed i am gg to be sleepless liao...ciao!

We wish u a Merry Christmas~~
We wish u a Merry Christmas~~
We wish u a Merry Christmas~~
And a Happy New Year~~

Christmas is finally here...Special treats for u all...Christmas babies...Enjoy!!!

Lonely Lonely Christmas....Jus mi n my precious princess....sobx~

Christmas is here...yet i n princess r so lonely...where's the king? i dunno...maybe on the way to jb after his date wif his gay bf ba...why izzit he wif us on his princess 1st christmas? hw would i noe? a person wanna go out den u cant force him to stay home wat...he wan to stay out how long his prob...he wan to go find his frds after jb...his prob liao not mine...i n princess r doing fine at hm...wont die w/o him...still will survive n enjoy our peaceful night alone by ourselves...i dun expect anything frm him but to spend all these special occasion wif his princess cos she is hving her 1st christmas here after she is born...if he cant i am still ard...doesnt matter liao...cos we r used to it...

Fuking hell!!! Whole night cant slp well...dear was quite tired came back awhile went to slp oredi...ard 12 am++ woke him up to eat his dinner...wanna slp but cant cos can feel a bit of my toothache...acc dear chat till abt 3am++ he went back to slp...i wasnt slpy at all...so i carry on my chat wif ppl online...till abt 4am++ to 5am...princess woke up for milk time...fed her n put her back to slp...still cant slp well cos the pain started to come...dear woke up ard 6am++...den the bed was finally mine wif princess...when i finally managed to get to slp wif such a pain toothache...i was awaken by my dearest princess n dear...cos dear went back to slp again...nw i am in great pain...fuk man!!! toothache until bery jia lat...nbz...hw am i gg to carry on n slp nw?

Wanna slp but cant...kanna woke up by his mum to eat lunch...but my tooth in pain...hw to eat...bo pian force myself to eat den...cant bite hv to swallow...feel so jia lat man...wanna slp more yet i cant...hw i wish he is here to help mi out...taking care of her in tis way is even more suffering...wat can i do nw? bear wif the pain n carry on my duty den...ahhhhhhhh pain ahhhhhh!! Fever le...sianz 1/2...gonna slp again...rest rest rest if nt pain pain pain ahhhhhh...
(added at 1:08pm)

couldnt eat anything at all...sms him to get mi porridge...slp 4 few hrs at least felt better...pain was gone but left cheek a bit swollen...fever was down but a bit restless...2day is christmas eve...expect someone to stay hm n acc his wife n kid...yet he is more interested in gg out more...wat more can i say? wat else can i voice out? nv expect too much frm guys esp even though they r oredi fathers but nv will they grow up? rat dun worry i nt blaming u...like wat i say b4 something buai zhi dong de i wont force de...wat for? i'm used to it le...n i cant be bothered wif him anymore...i still hv my little princess to accompany mi anyway...who needs him anyway?
(added at 11:08pm)

Yesterday maybe is 1 night dat i will nv ever 4get...a night when my mentality broke down again...when i cant even think straight...when everything seems so unsmooth...when everything seems such a mess...
Sometimes ppl can be fustrated at times...but all depends on wat izzit abt...i get fustrated wif princess at all times...when she made mi angry i felt so tensed up...but after she smiled at mi wif those innocent eyes n the O shaped lips...dat cute face make my heart melts again...i learnt to control my temper n be more patient wif things...but being too patient end up i am giving in too much...did i?
i dun understand y dat a person can be so fed up so fustrated over some games n throw all his fuking temper all at mi...of course i noe him so well frm top to bottom...i noe whenever he is in bad mood u better siamz 1 side if nt quarrel can start anytime...i being bery patient wif him oredi jus as i treat the same wif princess (by the way princess's temper also wont lose to him too)...being too nice too patient giving in so much...allows u to climb over my head n take it for granted...i'm a human too...i got pride...i got mood swings too...i cant throw temper at any1 in this hse...i onli can bear wif it...keep cool at all times...dun think abt it so much...yet u left mi no choice...finally volcano had erupted...u left mi no choice...i felt like leaving everything behind except princess cos anything happen princess will follow me...u ask mi nt to...u said i noe ur temper de...yes i do noe ur temper...but i nv allow u once after another u kept doing the same thing...yes i looked happy everytime u came home...but wat is dat within it...fustration...anger...sadness...boreness...tired...sick...all kinds if combination of feelings...u nv noe...cos i wont wan u to noe...u get so stressed out at wrk...i would rather keep it to myself...but yet u r allowed to voice out ur fustration ur anger ur everything...how would i feel? wat words to describe it...miserable...suffering...torturing...painful...i am swallowing everything inside mi yet u can jus split it out at any1 u like...is dat fair?
Suddenly i felt so numb...moodless...speechless...my heart feels so cold...my mind is so empty nw...the onli thing i think of is wat happened on the 16th of july...i fear it will happen...i fear it will come true 1 day if u push mi too hard to the extreme limit...i cant breathe...i cant seems to think straight...everything is so messy n dunno to reorganise my thoughts in my brains...feels like digging my brains out n wash everything away...left nothing but onli memory abt my princess...dun feel like thinking abt anything anyone else...onli princess...
listening to the song i jus changed for my blog..."If tomorrow never comes...would she noe how much i love her....." i kept thinking abt my princess...if 1 day i am gone...will she remember mi? will she noe how much efforts i placed on her? how much love n care on her? or will i be treated in the same way as wat happen yest? i really love her so much...i will nv think of leaving her...but i feel like breaking down further more each day...i dunno how long can i hang on? i am trying very hard to be strong n stronger everyday...but things dun seems to be so easy 4 mi...maybe the fortune-teller is right...my life is full of ups n downs...i can nv sit back n enjoy life till i am gone...always got to face probs nw n den...i feel so miserable enuff le...i nv wan my princess to end up like mi...face the same things like mi...kept pushing myself to be strong to face probs...yet i dunno hw to carry on rite nw...so breathless...so cold...feels so empty rite nw...

I love my princess so much...so much...when she slp she looks so innocent...no worries no troubles...jus drink n slp n kpkb...dats my girl...hw i wish i am still a little baby under the care of my mum too...so free so relax no worries at all...suddenly felt so peaceful 2day...nv gossip online cos no mood...even i wan no one is ard today...all seems so busy for christmas...wat abt my christmas? staying at hm look after princess...wat else? same old stuff day after day day after day...buai sian meh? cfm sianz until nothing to say but wat to do?jus hope my christmas izzit like wat happen yest...den i can thk god for giving mi some peace...at last...jus wanna be alone wif my princess...nothing else...cant be bothered to think abt more stuff...too sick too tired too shag...too much of stress...too much of fustration inside mi cant let go...too much of anger no where to venger...too tensed up by everything...getting too much oredi till i cant breathe at all...wat else can i expect? no more pls...jus GIVE MI SOME PEACE!!!
(added at 7:11pm)

hee~~ yesterday rat n seng came down to visit mi...long time nv see seng le...still so "fit fit" ah...=x dun wan use the other "f" word ma...=x
rat dunno seen my baobei hw mani times le...buai sianz ah...pengz!!! macham come n see his super idol...everyday must pong chang de...pengz!!! seng ley saw her like very excited de...i noe le u wan 1 too...quick quick go get a gf n get her help u ba...lolz
as we were chatting...joel called seng...wooooooooo din noe its was his birthday yest...well if joel sees tis...HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY...=x He invited seng rat as well as mi n nick over...but seng told him pls laa i confinement still can go party world...pengz!!! lolz...
nt long after dear dear come hm le...of course surprised to see us waiting at the carpark for him...tis special VIP guest...kekeke...we 4 started to chat abt a lot of rubbish abt my princess...abt her future laa...abt tis n dat wat ever u can think of...even tot of when we r older we bring our kids out to socialise...seng i will nv 4get wat u said..."qing shang jia qing" rite? make sure it really happen ah...lolz...
They left 4 joel's bd gathering...dear dear bought mi rice when i asked him nt to cos i got no appetite...he said its really nice n it will bring out my appetite...most of all he travelled bery far to get tis pig organ's soup for mi...y ha? repaying wat he owe mi the previous nite? sorry dat he neglect us after rat went down to mw to wake up his mind? hmmm....noe him so well...frm top to bottom...still dunno wat he is up to...den i suan him back...aiya our anniversary also can 4get twice le...i got gei kao meh...=x
slept quite early b4 dear slept ba...dunno why so tired...i dreamt of something bery funny...i dreamt of us...i n nick had 4 children...kaoz!!! since when i become pig? den he owns his own biz like those lan shop or something...den all my children got very unique names but nw i cant seem to rem any of it...n if i nt wrong they r all the same age...nan dao wo hui wo si bao tai...wo bu yao!!!!!!!
my dream was weird...when i woke up i looked at Dior...heng ah onli 1 nia...lolz!! pls dun give mi tis kind of nightmare ley 4 in a row...wan mi die meh? pls erase it frm my memory ba...i fear even more the moment i start thinking abt it...princess Dior is enuff for mi le...no more no less...gum gum ho...lolz!!
As 4 2day...still early to tell if there is anything gonna happen or maybe nothing will happen as usual...back to slp liao...=x

Just fed princess Dior....looked at her innocent slping face...suddenly all my anger disappeared...feel so peaceful...so quiet...onli 2 of us exist in tis world...maybe is the strong bond between the 2 of us...mother n daughter...looked at her giggling when slping...looked so cute...so sweet...my heart really melts whenever i looked at her...she is still my precious princess afterall...=)
Gonna take a rest wif her...tired n sick...no appetite to eat too...haiz....Love u 4ever my princess!!

Woke up when she cried...if i dun say u all wont believe she is a little terror at hm...she can cry like nobody biz but when milk comes...hiak hiak hiak her face is like song ahhhhh....-.-'''
after feeding her put her back to dreamland...i ate the mee pok bought by his mum...my lunch part 2...y part 2...cos 12pm i get to eat my part 1....ard tis time i get to eat my part 2...his mum scared during the time frm part 1 till my dear reach hm quite long scared i hungry but dun wan mi go down get food...so get 4 mi lor...i growing fatter if i carry n eat like tis man...ahhhhh....i need extrim....i need tummy trim...but frankly speaking i am slimming down quite fast le...hiak hiak hiak...jia you i wan wear back all my jeans!!!
after my part 2 i felt so full...doubt i can eat anymore at nite...dats why sms dear to buy something light for dinner scared i no appetite to eat later...kind of sick too...yest 1 injection can take my life away...doc says tis week maybe wan mi take 1 more dose...tis will take my soul away man...even more painful than the 1 i took at KK...sobx~
feel so tired n sianz...bo lang to tok to...so boring...cant find any1 online to chat wif too...i wonder where they all go man...
**LIST OF PPL I MISSING NW**
*zizi- where is she nw? seems like mia again...miss her so much
*colin- must be a monkey queen nw or maybe monkey king is serving her nw...lolz
*rat- must be seeing those tiles for his hse...wonder wat time he be back?
*dear- the 1 i miss most of all almost everyday...hoping he can come home early everyday...he shld be hving his lunch break ba or wrking ba....miss him so much
*my princess- no need to miss her cos i can acc her to slp rite nw...wahahahahaha...i noe i noe all of u will say the same thing - "PIG!!!!"....yeah cos mi n princess r piggies...=x
(added at 4:05pm)

TMD~~~si dear called mi jus nw...on the fone i tot who sia...suddenly asked for ning ning..nbz..i told him kao pei laa...mai di siao siao...knn...called jus asked mi to feed his fishie...nbz...when will he ever ask abt mi? nv laa...wait long long...he ask hor i tio 4D liao lor...=x
feed his baobei princess den feed his fishie...getting bored yet tired yet no appetite too...sianz...
i wan go out i bery bored ahhhhh....where r u ppl? how come all mia le? left mi here alone....sobx sobx~~
(added at 5:52pm)

hmmm...things were as usual yest jus dat i din get to slp much....msn messenger put "coma in process" end up i am watching Vcds...lolz...
jerry n colin came down to pass mi my ID n the form for the collection of tis NTUC goodie bag but becos they dun hv the duplicate copy of my princess birth cert cant claim...told u 2 liao suga say married le baby hvnt born take 1st can? lolz...anyway colin u noe the aunties there ma easy easy de laa...=x
came back soon after dat dear dear came home...yest was actually our 2nd year anniversary...but i noe he wont rem...cos he dunno when we started de...-.-''' very jia lat rite...i also think so...=x but 2nd yr anniversary bo tai bo ji kanna kan by him...ya even u bad mood den my fault laa...can shout at mi...cannot tok nicely to mi izzit...i aint ur maid or ur servant...but wat can i do...keep quiet laa...lan lan laa...den wat else can i do? quarrel wif u meh? i'm nt in the mood to do so too...when i am fuking sick who cares?
i hvnt complain he did it 1st...hur! our 2nd yr anniversary he dun rem sua laa...can carry on surf ur net...play ur gunbound...tok to gals in gunbound...kpo ppl stuff somemore...wat else u even add ppl in MY MSN MESSENGER!!! hey come on...things u dun like i din do...things i dun like u done all...very fair 4 mi? u can hook onto the com 4 hrs rather than spend more time wif me n baby...i really feel so disappointed...so damm disappointed after 2 yrs dats wat i get...
i feel so lazy to voice out anymore...i feel so numb at times...even hw much i repeat myself u will onli find mi naggy...wat else can i say? am i getting post-natal depression? think sooner or later getting it...or even hving it liao...jus feel so tired so sick so sianz so moody so fuking dulanz...maybe i shld listen to wat rat says" let him be"...den let him be den...

So early in the morning gotta wake up for an injection...met my doc's wife downstairs instead of gg to general hospital cos he got an emergency operation to perform...his wife so kind enuff come down to fetch mi but end up decided to give mi the ject in the car so dat i need nt travel here n there can go hm rest longer...
feeling kind of moody everyday...worried abt this worried abt dat...dear dear last few days been gg out late coming back late...no calls no sms...made mi worried like hell...cant slp in peace even though princess slpt well thru out the night...feels dat he shld at least be a bit more responsible by calling back or sms mi telling mi where he is rather than i stay at hm and imagined things...too mani ppl ard us died of bike accidents...some were lucky to be alive but jus recovered frm it...the more i heard abt all these news the more i feel so uneasy abt it...
can feel my heart beat gg fast everyday...nt sure izzit becos of the drip i had b4 i gave birth dat is causing mi to breathe in difficulties...even though i had the inject 2day feeling much better but if more things happen i dun think my heart can take it...rem the day i was sent to hosp becos i was bleeding...my heart almost stopped cos i felt i might lost my princess 4ever...i cant imagine if anything happen to my dear...how would i react...dats is why i am mad wif u dear...and u shld noe why...
yest was kind of mad wif him...can exactly agreed to pillion others to jb becos he wont be able to pillion mi for the time being due to my confinement...jealousy is there of course...but i told him several times if pillion guys is ok...if pillion gals u got to think twice...1stly ppl aint related to u...in case of emergency...hw r u gg to pay up to her loss if anything happen...marry the girl? i learning to ride too...i noe my principle in ridind is dat i would rather risk my own life than dragging another person who is nt related to mi cos i cant be totally responsible for his / her loss in case of accident...hv u 4get abt wat happen to u n 1 of ur gal frds...she got a big bak gua becos of u...yet ppl aint ur gf or wat...think twice b4 doing anything...a pro rider doesnt mean they wont make mistakes...all my bros u saw all buang case de...still like dat...but the pillions they hv r always their wives...their siblings...anything happen...they still can make it up as a family....at times i noe him so well...w/o mi he tends to speed...soemtimes wif mi he also speed depends on wat situations on the road like bikes or cars disturbing him...he will go out of his mind n ride faster...dats wat riders will react...including mi if i pass my lic...dats is why there r things i wan him to understand...he got a wife n kid at hm...anything happens will directly affect both of us...but will he listen? i dunno...really dunno...

New pics taken jus onli wif jerry's dig cam....she grown bigger n fatter le ba...kekeke
and mi also fat le rite....sobx sobx....i wan eat extrim....i wan tummy trim....=x

You're the innocent girl next door. You are
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bake cookie and muffins while giving kind
compliments. Plus you actually give apples to
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Since The Very First Day

Since the very first day
I found out about you,
My entire life changed
I had so much to do.

Since the very first day
I dreamed day and night.
Would you resemble me?
What would you be like?

Since the very first day
I saw you on a scan
I thought about your future
As a woman or man.

Since the very first day
I knew we'd eventually meet
Seeing you on 5th of dec
Was such an awesome treat.

Since the very first day
I held you in my arms,
Your eyes melted my heart
I vowed to keep you from harm.

Since the very first day
I nourished you with milk,
Your hands so tiny
Your hair smooth as silk.

Since the very first day
I chose your name "Dior"
I knew it was my life
That you would soon fix.

Since the very first day
You grasped my finger in your hand
Life has zoomed by
Like an hourglass' sand.

Since the very first day
The nine months began
I lived for the day
That I could hold your hand.

Since the very first day
I knew someday you'd leave
Whenever that day comes
In my heart I'll grieve

Since the very first day
This I can tell you is true
There is no greater love
Than the love I have for you.

Blessed by God
A dream come true
Born into the world
You are so new

Given to me, your finally here
In my womb, a sweet angel, so perfectly near
Realizing now that we are two
Love brought us together Baby Girl & mommy welcomes you

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Wonder why i hv nt been writing any bloggie since thursday 2nd of dec rite? Well a lot of stuff been gg on lately...the arrival of our little princess Dior Lee n mani more....let mi slowly write ba...

3rd dec 2004....friday....nothing much except hving lesson den come home rest as usual....din planned to go anyway cos dear din wan to go anywhere...he was kind of shagged mi too man...i was asleep half way when my dearest zizi sms mi for my frd's hp num...well of course i found it weird cos they dunno each other ma....why suddenly she wanna meet her...she explained dat she jus wan to noe a new frd who stays near her n go shopping or cheong got another new kakis....of course i do believed her but the prob is is oredi middle of the night n u wan to noe a girl wanna ask her out so suddenly seems so rush to mi...y dun wait till next day online get to noe each other better than follow by kopi session would be a better choice...somemore if i were the girl i will get freaked out...i din wanna give zizi the hp no becos of my frd had faced some harassment b4 dat n since she trusted mi wif her new num i shldnt abuse it....later part we got a call frm my frd saying dat were we meeting her along wif zizi n rat...i was like er.....no man...why din zizi listen to wat i say jus nw....was kind of angry cos certain things shldnt do esp in the middle of the nite to freak ppl out...my dear was also angry abt it and went to tok to zizi....i was a bit harsh too but i felt it is nt rite to do things in tis way...the whole nite i was fed up...curious...mad...uneasy abt tis matter...couldnt slp well at all....=(

4th of dec 2004...saturday....woke up n found blood in my underwear....i was terrified...scared...worried...feel like dying cos why is there blood ...am i losing my princess i was thinking...wat is gg on....i kept on crying n crying...i sit beside my dear n he started asking mi why i cried...i told him but he din believed he went to check...asked mi if i was ok...i started to feel some pain ard my tummy...lie down but kept thinking no i am nt losing her i cant lose her there is no way i gg to lose her...kept praying dat baby is ok....my dear quickly changed n sent mi to KK by bike...hiak hiak i noe u all will hv the kind of reaction...."WAT!! Pain Liao still can sit bike?" er.... save cab fare ma somemore KK bery near our place onli....=x reached KK 24 hr clinic...i was being sent inside to check...baby was alright but doc says i might giv birth anytime yet baby is nt mature enuff to come out...they decided to put mi on drip....send to 1 of the labour room....cant see my dear...perhaps he went for a smk...the nurses all doing heart beat test on mi follow by putting dat stupid needle on mi for drip n so on....ahhhh i hate staying in hosp....after everything is done dear finally appeared wif a mac toy....JACK JACK!!!
nw i noe where he went le....pengz!! he acc mi till 4pm++ den said wanna go back to wrk...i felt alright so i told him to go...anything den call him....i was alone by myself in dat room ....so sian so quiet...started abusing the phone to call out....i called army den follow by colin....cos no one acc mi n they dun allow anyone in except husband....sianzz....ard 6pm++ took my dinner and started to doze off cos very tired....but kept waking up to see wat time hoping my hubby will come...ard 8pm++ no call 9pm++ no call den later got missed calls but i din notice....by the time i return call to dear is abt 10pm++...he wanted to come but scared nt allowed..i say he can come back anytime de...but he said tml morning den come...i told him ok lor...lan lan ma...he wan stay at home pak game play com wat...kaoz!!
later abt 12am++ i had my other injection which the 1st 1 had it when dear was ard....painful ject man...they took out the drip cos i was found wif difficult in breathing they dun wan to risk my life...the pain started slowly till abt 4 5am++ i was can felt the pain getting closer n closer ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh....pain pain pain....i can nv 4get the pain....

5th dec 2004...Sunday...the pain carried on till abt 8am++...actually ard 7am++ i wanna call dear le....i felt dat its coming out soon...i feel like holding his hands which make mi feel better n stronger n braver....but i din...i noe he would slp very late...i rather dun wake him up den...i bear wif the pain alone...no matter hw loud all those other mummies were shouting doesnt influence mi at all...i dun wan to lose my voice b4 i start giving birth....9am++ is the extremely painful moment...baby kept wanna come out nurse ask mi bear wif it 1st....i was like OMG!! how to bear how can wait....ard 930am i cant wait le....i kept breathing in the gas till i felt also seh le...tis cant go on....doc says ok u can push nw...kaoz i din noe pushing was so hard...they dun allow mi to shout or make noises...they ask mi to push jus like shitting....i push wif all my strength dat is left ard 952am princess Dior had arrived....i heard her loud crying....i can feel such a relieve out of mi finally no more big load to carry....they carry her to mi tell mi its a girl....to mi girl or boy doesnt matter... as long she is alright i can rest my mind den....they clear up the mess...the doc check on my baby girl n said she is alright bery healthy baby for a premature...i was so happy...how i wish dear was here right nw....kiss my baby n they push her up to the nursery 1st....i was being sent up later...kept calling dear yet no body answer the fone...WTF!! asked army n colin to bomb his call till he wakes up...at the same time i was admiring the view frm my bed cos i was slping near the window....i feel so happy dat my little princess was ok...recalled back when i saw those blood...it almost took my soul away...nw she is ok i feel better...ard 12plus his mum call mi n i told her my ward no n bed no....i waited till 2 plus my dearest hubby den arrived....-.-''' he looked at mi n laughed say why my face like hantu...kaoz!! jus give birth n kanna pushed up here to rest...of course my face pale laa....pengz!! he hurried to the nursery to see his precious baobei...nv see him so happy b4...i felt so proud cos i bear him wif a most beautiful baby girl in tis world....=) his mum n bro n bro's gf came to visit mi....colin came later too....baby was able to be push out for us to see....dats when i actually held her in my arms....i felt the connection between us....i was lost for words when i see her...i din noe wat to say....she is so cute n is so precious to mi right nw....nothing gonna replace her...she is mine....colin left abt 6pm++....dear acc mi till 10pm++ cos rat suddenly wanna come see mi yet they dun allowed anymore visitors even hubby hv to leave too...sianz...i carry on admired the view outside my window...slowly catching up wif some sleep but nt totally cos there were a few patients coming in in the middle of the nite....lights on n off made mi hard to slp again.... -.-'''

6th dec 2004...monday....was awake by nurse to feed her ard 8am++....wah kok....try to feed her but she doesnt wanna be fed....-.-''' yest also like dat they fed le den ask mi to fed dunno for wat...kaoz...breakfast was mee hoon soup ...yucks! hate it...
waiting for doc to approve mi n baby to discharge today...hee hee hopfully can laa...hope baby is ok to leave too....colin came....bought lots of stuff to stuff mi...i dun wan eat le i wan slim down i am fat nw!!!!!....=x den follow by dear who reached KK bery "early"....colin's mum came too to visit mi so sweet of her...slowly ppl start coming in to visit mi....cherry aka zane n jac aka wrx_ger....army n jameson came too...so sweet of them...when we abt to leave zizi n rat arrived too ....so heng... they met us at our hse void deck...den awhile we al went up to dear hse to rest....argh!!!.... finally we r home....mi dear n our little princess....zizi n rat playing com....dear busy cooking curry for them...after awhile rat pillion dear to fetch his bike back.....den miko palmer n kawa came too....so sweet...they all left for a lady rider's song ka....someone i noe too....poor thing....haiz...gonna slp early cos tml gonna go polyclinic see doc...haiz....

7th dec 2004 tuesday....went polyclinic wif rat n colin....so sweet of them to acc mi till i reach hm....reach hm cant slp well at all....worry here n there....somemore kept raining non stop....dunno hw to go hm....waited till 6pm++ bo bian....took a cabby home....waited for dear to come hm....nt much lor jus taking care of her thruout the whole night trying to get slp but cant....so tired man...

my precious nu er monkey came to visit mi too... so sweet of her....the rest of the days were the same....looking after my little princess...n it goes on & on the same thing till nw....i am still enjoying her company....but still bery weak n tired....hopefully her man yue over i will feel much better by den....i would like to thank all those who came down n visit mi....those who bought gifts u all shldnt hv la....but thks anyway....gonna stop bloggie 4 a while too cos too tired n lazy to do so....so u all take care ya...stay tuned for news abt my princess Dior Lee...=)

Lastly i would like to say how much i love my dearest hubby & our precious little princess Dior Lee...I love u 2 so much....Happy Lee Family 4ever!!!!

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Thursday......dear went wrk 1st cos i need to go home fetch my appt card....haiz mi so forgetful man....reached mw ard 12++ den we rushed down for my appt at KK....
waited for the registration for more than 1/2 hr.....sianz.....den proceed to do scanning also hv to wait.....when its my turn i can onli go in alone....hubby cannot go in....kaoz where got like dat de....stupid hosp....=p
done le but the ppl nv say its girl or boy....dear dear sibei dulan say might as well dun scan....but doc need to see the report bo pian....doc say maybe cant see....try again next appt....bo pian lor....-.-''''
do urine test also must wait.....see doc also must wait.....dear dear seems fed up le cos he dun like to sit 1 place wait too long de....haiz....
do blood test also wait.....pay money also wait....pengz!!!.....dear bth le went for a short smk.....poor thing.....after everything dear went back to wrk den i go bedok walk alone....bought him a tee wif the Mr incredible design on it....he loves black den got him a black one....
walk ard awhile....actually dun wan eat de but hvnt eat lunch so force myself to eat something if nt dear will scold de....
reached hm...pak game awhile....chat wif frds awhile prep to go over mw....when my bro frm aust called me....ask mi abt my check up.....i told him dear say if girl he dun wan both he onli wan boy.....den my bro say nonsense scare mi until i cried....cos he say dear wont wan me anymore if baby girl....i noe dear wanted a boy bery much....cos he prefer boys....sobx sobx~~
reached mw i still crying but hiding here n there dun let dear see mi cry.....went hm he volunteer to cook....suddenly so nice to me....hmmm.....maybe tis afternoon his tone was a bit harsh to mi dats why being so nice lor....=x
after dat i felt bery tired wanna coma le....but dear woke mi up.....sianz.....he end up coma le.....pengz!!! BTH him.....-.-"""

Fucking bad mood~~~~Arghhhhh.......for nothing tio scolded by ppl.....2 days in a row le.....am i dat suay or wat.....why is this gg on around me man......dear dear got to wrk so din get to listen to wat happen.....how i wish he is here to hug n comfort me ....feeling so sad.....so insulted.....so unwelcomed.....so irritating.....so depressed.....sobx sobx~~
Tio scolded by ppl after half a day...ppl found out they r wrong abt it.....say it was jus a misunderstanding.... wan u treat as nothing had happened....wat kind of world is tis.....i am born to be kan meh.....i am human too....nw trying to tok cock wif me....jus met my dear wanted to tell him wat happened hope he can understand my situation.....yet jerry rvf was ard so cant tok much....after jerry left dear can see i almost wanna cry out but tolerating cos ah cheng ard....ask me nt to bother abt wat my bro says.....he din noe its nt abt my bro.....its something else....got to bear wif it till he is home tonite.....but i really feel like kanna treat like an animal suga suga u like to insult n scold n humiliate wat ever u wan.....
NB CCB....i am a human too....got pride n feelings too.....wat am i treated as nw....
i reached dear hse locked myself in his room....jus wan some peace alone....i hate these kind of ppl w/o finding wats is right or wrong shoot u gao gao den apologised....fuk laa....i dun care at all nw.....i dun sayang after wat ever they had done.....
I had enuff of all these bull shit.....bo tai bo ji come venger anger on me.....kaoz.....fuk off my life n dun let me see them again....ever again.... I missed my dear so much.....feel like breaking down anytime nw....how i wish he is here nw.....but he need to wrk i cant make him worry so much abt me rite nw.....yet i felt so miserable.....so sad.....so depressed.....so disappointed.....painfully deep inside my heart.....no one can understand me nw.....no one.....except dear....=(

Wednesday.....why am i so early today? cos i have to reach home by 7 am mah...leaving my beloved hubby to nua on his whole bed by himself....shiok bo dear?....-.-''''
I had a wan-de-fu trip on the train....1st train of the day....si bei shiok ah....its being so long since i took my 1st trip frm tiong bahru to bedok le......sibei shiok ah....-.-''''
Missed dear all the way frm tiong bahru till bedok....feeling so far away frm him suddenly....normally ard tis time i shld be hugging him to slp or the other way round (easier for him to hug me cos of my big tummy lolz!)....but nw feeling kind of lost n lonely w/o him no security at all suddenly.....sobx sobx~~I missed him so much nw....=(

The Incredibles!!!! One of my fav movies....I wan Jack Jack.....He is so cuteeeeee...but my baby come out like him i might hv headache liao....kekeke =p
Dear dear say zyn (baby) look like the charactor "violet".... think i looked like the mummy cos i got big hips like her nw.....sobx sobx~~



So which charactor does my dear dear looked like? None of the above cos i got a better one...he definitely looked like "Rufi" in the cartoon "One Piece"....cos he smile like him....dun believe compare wif this pic of "Rufi" laa...