Wonder why no bloggies frm mi these few days...cos is either too lazy or too sick or too angry to write anything ba...let mi 1 shot clear all the days in short details lor...=x

Tuesday 11/01/05...nothing much..as usual go hm...acc mum...went back tiong bahru...cooked dinner...supposed to meet colin de tis day but the 2 lovebirds kanna food poisoning..cant meet lor...=x

Wednesday 12/01/05...same thing lor...go hm pei mother...pack my room here n there...nv stay there still so messy...pengz!! play game maplestory...hang ard hse till 7 plus den go bus interchange there buy dinner 4 dear...i bought xian yu rou bing fan...my fav de...dear dear eat his fav de lan zhang ji rou fan...reached hm le chatted wif kidzgal den noe dear meeting jimmy n guys 4 dinner...felt so dulan...nv bothered to call back n asked or wat...bought dinner oredi but wat to do even if he wan eat out...waited till 10plus den he called say he OT n gg to send ah cheng hm 1st...well believe or nt i dunno laa...dear dear reached hm called mi down to see his new pinkie wave...pengz!!! PINK COLOUR AHHHHHHHHH!!!! nbz tis fellow serious ah...bth him...pengz!! he asked mi to bring dwn my helmet so he can bring mi go blow wind awhile i say no...cos i cant leave nt princess alone at his hse...i dun feel safe n secured even his mum ard...jus wasnt even interested in trying to pillion on his bike...dunno wats the prob...-.-"

Thursday 13/01/05...din go anywhere...princess bery cranky...got slight fever...decided to bring her see doc...bathed her den changed...found my way to the polyclinic near his hse de...waited 4 1/2 or more ba to see the doc...nt bery long lor quite fast...heng princess is ok...jus having too much wind in her little tummy...dats y cranky...went shopping ard the central...bought some stuff to cook 4 dinner...went hm settled my baobei till she slp den i can cook...din eat much in the afternoon...hungry so eat 1st....waited 4 dear to reach hm...he reached hm awhile jio rat to jb cos rat got his cubkia as well...nvm lor...gg out again...always like dat...go out nv see the timing...suga wat time come hm den wat time come hm..wats the point i stay hm...wait 4 him till he reach hm meh..noeing i always worry abt him when he is out on the road...ti ti go jb so often...dunno laa...starting to feel unhappy abt he gg out so often liao...=(

Friday 14/01/05...went hm pei mother...wasnt feeling well whole day...princess cranky again...refused to slp...whole afternoon i was so shagged...saw a aust pearl gold arowana feel like getting one 4 him...mabe book 1 good de surprised him ba cos the fish shop boss said fri will come stock again...went hm ard evening time...too sick to cook...thinking wat to buy 4 him...decided to go hm buy sweet n sour pork 4 him...his fav...went all the way to his fav kopitiam buy...saw him came hm...called him wan him to help mi carry stuff up...cos head giddy...nv answer call...walk hm slowly...he called back but my hands were tied up wif things...came hm onli hear him toking on the fone abt meeting who n who...gg where 4 kopi...blar blar blar...nbz...of course i dulan laa...i oredi dun like the idea he kept gg out leaving us at hm all the time esp when princess is nt feeling well...we quarrelled...i was extremely disappointed cos he felt he was right...n i was always wrong...a wife jus wan to see her hubby ard more often to be wif her n her kid...is wrong? i am making him difficult to go out n meet up wif frds? wat kind of theory is tis? i was sick princess too...but he still insisted to go out...up to him...i had enuff too...felt like leaving tis hse...felt like gg somewhere onli mi n princess can be well taken cared of...completely low morale...doc oredi warned mi abt my post natal depression...said if i cant control mt emotions is better to take medi...i refused...might as well let the volcano erupted n i can do wat i din do on the 16th of july 2004...dat was a case of my pre natal depression...if it happen again...i really dunno wat i am capable of doing cos my mind is blank...i onli think of princess...nothing else...getting very sick n tired n sian abt wat he did...getting more n more insecured abt everything...did we made the right choice? shld we hv princess in the 1st place? is tis r/s stable? i dunno...my mind is completely empty...n i'm very very moody...wat shld i do nw?he came hm...acting like nothing happened b4...but i wasnt in a mood to tok to him...i dun even feel like seeing him...why? =(

Saturday...his mum jio mi go his bro's place see see look look...same time go shopping at jurong point n IMM...went to makan near his bro place...his mum wanted to eat claypot fish head n cereal fried prawns n thai chicken n baby octopus...pengz!! ate too much his mum titi feed mi...how i wish dear is ard...reach hm ard 11pm dear went jb again...n reach hm ard 5 am...did he 4get we r having a family outing on sun to the fish farm? played comp till 8am den slp...came to hug mi when slping yet i rejected him...cos felt so dulan...8am den slp...wat ever we planned no need to go lor...can stay at hm eat grass lor...once a week family outing izzit dat hard...must he go until so late den come hm...i'm getting bery fed up abt his behaviour...sick n tired!!!! dun feel like to bother abt him anymore...feel like putting him free to go...i move home dun need to be bothered wif him anymore...yes i noe he had stress at wrk...tired after wrk yet can ti ti go out...i really dun understand lor...i really dun at all...y shld i onli done my part as ur wife yet u aint doing anything...by wrking earn income means doing ur part...u r very very wrong liao...is my mind getting unstable or is our r/s? i really dunno...

i planning to get a baby aust pearl gold arowana to surprise him...dun eat saved up jus 4 him...yet will he appreciated...i really dunno...done so much nv expect anything in return...all jus disappointment...=(