This morning suddenly woke up again due to the fucking hot weather.....si bei hot!!!!!!!!woke up straight away go bath le....felt so refresh...AHHhhhhhhhhHHHHH... but den cant slp again.....sianz.....so on the com n start doing up my blog webby lor till 5am ++ den i slp....=xslping beside my dear dear....staring at him cant slp again....kept thinking abt wat happen these few nights....i hv been dreaming abt dat "bastard" again.....why oh why must i dreamt of wat had happened b4......sobx....dreamt hw i got beaten up by him the whole scene kept repeating in my mind.....i cried after i woke up frm my dreams....dear dear nv realised i always woke up wif tears .... dare nt tell him cos scare he worry abt mi....maybe is jus a dream.....hopefully dat "bastard" wont appear in front of mi again....i am really terrified till nw after dat incident.....the whole incident seemed like cant be erased....deeply carved in my heart 4ever.....why is this keep going on....i dun wan to dream abt it again n again.....what shld i do nw? shld i tell dear abt it? its jus a dream but a constant one...yet i cant stop myself frm dreaming....feel so tired man......how? how? how? someone pls guide mi.....